Hello All,
I don't feel that accomplished just yet with only 2 days under my belt, but ever since I stopped using cocaine I am in excruciating pain having to do with my nasal cavities,nostrils, gums, swollen lymph nodes and sinuses. I am completely aware of the repercussions of the choices I made by using blow for a month, but I never expected it to have such adverse affects to my sinuses and nasal cavities in such a short period of time. Call me naive, but I used coke about 7 years ago and abused for close to a year and never experienced any pain or nose bleeds during that time. I am struggling to understand why after only a month, and I am not justifying my actions in any way, that I would experiencing pain that is literally bringing me to my knees. I have done everything from saline flushes, to applying saline nasal gel to my nose, to using warm compresses to relieve the pain I am feeling in my sinuses, taken anti-congestion medications, alka-seltzer cold and sinus drinks and over the counter pain medications and frankly I hate to say this but the only think I know will make it better is more blow. I know that isn't the solution, and I will not cave even though I am experiencing tremendous pain, but can anyone suggest as to why this is happening and how I can alleviate these physical ailments before I rip my nose off? I can honestly say that this day and age cocaine isn't nearly as clean as it used to be and taking the risk of choosing to use even acknowledging the potential of a million different cutters has me really mad at myself. But regardless of my past decisions, I am devoted to stop using, but in the meantime does anyone know why I am feeling so sick? It is even comparable to flu like symptoms, but no fever....
I don't want to substitute once addiction for another, but if I can't get some relief I am even debating drinking myself to the point that I don't feel it. Again, that isn't the answer, but it is imperative that I get the message across that I am desperate for some pain relief. Let this be a lesson to everyone out there, it doesn't matter how much you take or how long you abuse, drugs are truly f*cked up and I am taking this as a sign that I need to get as far away from this sh*t as possible!
Kelly