In need of financial help for suboxone and counseling ONLY!!

[valleygirl677]

I am a broke morphine junkie that wants to quit but can't take the physical pain anymore. Is there anything that can financially help me get suboxone strips and a counselor? I called the two doctors in my town and I want to go to this certain one but I don't and will never have that kind of money. The Substance Abuse Service will only help me if I go to detox and then rehab. I refuse to go to rehab because I want my fiancé to be with me through every step of this. Is there such an organization?

[katmandu516]

I also went into rehab for opiate/benzo detox and w/d. I did it for my ex-husband, not me. When I got out and he came to get me, he told me he wanted a divorce and met another woman. I never saw him again, ever, after 16 years! Everybody here is right, if you won't do it JUST for you, you won't do it... YOU have to want it. Does your fiancé also do Morphine? Also, I've heard horror stories about going on subs. The w/d's are worse than the opioids. Good luck and God Bless!! Keep posting and let us know how you're doing.

[ROSYouralright]

You have had the flu before right? Wd's are like a nasty case of that! Its a few days of crud for a lifetime of freedom. Right now your recovery has got to come first.. Not your fiance or anyone else... You CAN do this...

[weaver71]

How much morphine and how long have you been using it? Morphine is natural and one of the faster detoxes. I was on high dose methadone, so subs save my life, but methadone is synthetic, just like subs. It lingers in your system for a long time and causes extended withdrawal. Subs can be acquired with a voucher from the manufacturer for up to a year, but I don't think that would be the easiest way in your situation. The local doctor should know about that program, but they often want the money instead, so they don't share that information. The above info is good, depending how much you are using. You used the word junkie, so I am assuming you use iv. You are playing with fire, but I know you know that. If you can switch to tabs and slowly reduce, the detox will be easier than sub withdrawal. Give them to your fiance and have him hide them, real good. I found my stash that I gave to my wife, so that's why I say 'real good.' Give us more info and maybe we can help more.

[Kbusymom]

I've heard the same thing about Suboxone.  There is no getting around the WD if you want to be clean.  
If I could have gone to rehab, I would in a minute.  In my state there is little funding for mental health services and they've closed the only rehab where you don't have to pay; no detox service either.
I know you want your fiance to be involved, but I think you have to focus on you.  He can't save you; only you can save you.  He can be supportive and be there for you, but everything is ultimately up to you. I hope that doesn't sound harsh.
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If you want some help with the WD, check out the Thomas recipe on here, take lots of epsom salt baths, and give your body time to heal.  
Post your symptoms and people will help.  This is a great forum for support and advice; welcome!  

[OP8fool]

I will let others assist, but I will say one thing.   Don't go on Suboxone!
It is a very, VERY powerful Opiate and the WD's are the worst I ever experienced in my life.  Please don't use Suboxone!   Good luck!