In need of support....

[fedupwithit747]

I have been on hyrdocnde for 3 years now. I have finally had enough when it came to lieing, calling people for more, waking up and thinking how many more do I have to last me .... and where can I get another and another.  I started the Travis Detox recipe yesterday. I told my husband as he didn't have a clue, he said he was proud of me to know I had a problem.  I have not had a pill for 50hours, yes I am counting the hours.    I am taking anti depressants along with anti anxiety pills to help with the withdraws of my anxiety.  I have not told my doctor about this as when I did 4 months ago I felt I was getting addicted, he gave me more pills for the month.   How long does the withdraws take.  Actually today I went outside and worked for about 1 hour which I thought was really great.  RLS was severe last night so I am have my husband pick up some potasisium pills to help with it.   I have to get this over with because I only took 5 days off and HAVE to return to work in 3 days.  I come from a family of addicts which is no excuse but reality and bit of history.  I need help getting through this horrific time in my life as I lost my sister over a year ago as she took to many pills and never woke up.  I have has those thoughts myself when I know I took too many, I was scared to go to sleep at night.  Anything anyone that has gone through this would be much appreciated.  

[fedupwithit747]

Yes, they are being extremely supportive, comforting, encouraging and all that I can ask for.  They have been here but much worse off due to their choice of drug.  I am very thankful for them.

I also printed off Amino Acid Protocol that clean_in_ks referred to. I think it will help. I need to research if my anti depressants will interfere with any of these.  

You all are a God send. I can not thank you enough. The words you share fill my heart with encouragement and strength.  Tomorrow is day 5! And I will conquer it just like I did day 1, 2, 3, and nearly done with day 4. :)

[ricart70]

I think that If those friends are clean they are good people to talk to .

[fedupwithit747]

Yes, I do the hot baths with the salt, I have bought and used the Hylands Restful Legs as well.  I just went for about a 1/4 mile walk hoping that will help.  Yes I am on antidepressants (Lexapro) and continue to take them but they do not seem to really help but will continue through the w/d's just in case.  The anti-anxiety meds make me so sleepy even if I take a half of one.  And they are only 10mgs.  
No, none of my friends or family are going to support groups. My friends that kicked the habit has been years ago and they did it with determination and faith.

[clean_in_ks]

Yes, I had vision issues when stopping hydros....seems to be a common w/drawal symptom question from ex-hydro users.

The ephedra for energy.....probably will just exacerbate your anxiety.  You said in your origiinal post that you were on an antidepressant and anti-anxiety med?  Just wanted to caution you about anxiety increasing with the ephedra.

The RLS....have  you tried any of the suggestions ariley gave you above?  The epsom salts will MAJORLY help.  Hyland's makes many products that will help, too.  They have Hyland's Leg Cramps PM, just "Leg Cramps", a Leg Cramps Ointment, in addition to the Restful Legs ariley mentioned.

If you haven't read the Amino Acid Protocol from our Health Pages here on MedHelp (bottom of page)...there are some excellent tips in that article from energy assistance to sleep aide suggestions.  Be sure to read that there are some you cannot take if on an antidepressant.

Do any of these friends of yours that have kicked meth and coke go to recovery support groups of any kind?  How are they STAYING clean?  And your brother and your mom?  God definitely will give you strength...but He also shows us how to give our faith feet.....to seek others for support that are also learning to live their lives without chemicals.  He works thru others but we have to surround ourselves with others in order for that to happen.

Keep on keepin on~

[ricart70]

Oh yes !!  totally normal. mine was that way for at least two weeks  Great job on getting clean and keep it up friend

[fedupwithit747]

I do have a question for anyone out there that might know...... since stopping the hydrocodone my vision has been foggy/blurred/seeing a bit double.  is that normal with withdraws?

[fedupwithit747]

Well here I am on day 4 of NO PILLS! Mostly because I don't have any, the urge is still there.  I have made no connections with those I know I can get them from. :)  With God's devine help I know we can do this.    I miss the energy so much that I just ordered some ephedra online.  Not sure if that was a good thing or not.  But I have swallowed so many vitamins over the last 4 days and they are still not producing energy and I am running out of time to return to work.  

The RLS is horrible still.  However, on the good side, I have several friends that have kicked the meth and cocaine habits years ago and they are a tremendious help talking me through all this.  They understand. My husband didn't know that the pill was part of the opiate family so that made him understand my withdraws a little better.  

I am hanging in there and am determined to take my life back.  God is my God that I worship and adore not these pills.

Thank you all for your continued support.  I will check back in and let you know how its going.  I AM A SURVIOR of addiction!

[Kimby34]

Isn't that crazy that your whole family can now relate and support you?! That's awesome. You guys can lean on each other and hold each other accountable. Hopefully he cut off his connections because trust me, if you have access, you'll always take that "one last pill"!  It's so hard to do without any access, and impossible to do if you can get some. I am positive the two of you will be successful together. That's awese! How are u feeling today?

[ariley13]

That is great that you told your family. It is so important for us to be honest and we can use all the support we can get. That is so great that both you and your brother are getting clean and getting your lives back! You 2 can go through this together and give each other strength and inspiration. Keep on fighting the good fight. You can do this!

[fedupwithit747]

Wow I can't believe perfect strangers are so will to help one another. I absolutely need this support right now.  Kimby34 hand in there we all can get through this together. Talking does help. I just found out after a 2 hour conversation with my brother that he has the same problem along with my mother. I knew he did but he is taking 30-10's per day, has hook ups calling him all the time. we decided to do it together, I just hope I can be strong enough for him.  He has been through rehab before and has great information for me.  But I made a promise to him.  I will keep it.  
This too shall pass - God will give us the strength to do it. I believe I believe I believe this can be done just like so many of others before.  Please keep the comments coming as they do help when I am home alone.

[michael1953296]

Gabapetin is amazing with RLS and will also stop most if not all WDs. You will need a script but it is a wonder pill for many addicts that have quit. Just google it for RLS and opiate WDs
Michael

[Kimby34]

Welcome!!! I'm right there with you. I am on day 1 though and really feel terrible. I haven't had the courage to tell my husband but I cut off all connections. It really helps knowing I have no way of getting any and I just have to suck it up. I soaked in Epsom salts tonight and I'm hoping that helps rls. My anxiety has been awful. I'm crying a lot too-and tired, feel hopeless and would love to have just one more. I know there's no such thing as just one more. Hang in there!!!!! Lean on your hubby. And everyone here has been amazing.

[ariley13]

It's different for everyone. With Vicodin the average time frame is 4-7 days for the most acute symptoms. The more you force yourself to do physically, the faster you will recover. Even if it's just going for a walk around the block a couple times a day, do it! Activity, especially walking helps with the RLS. Also hot baths with epson salts, increasing your potassium intake, drinking lots of water. There is a product (all natural) called Hyland's Restful Legs. It helps some. You can find it at Walmart or any Pharmacy for about $5. And if all else fails here's my surefire fix for RLS. Put some Icy Hot, or Vick's Vaporub on your legs (it's the menthol in it that helps to soothe the cramps and restless feeling.) then wrap them snugly with ACE bandages .(not too tight though!) I have nerve damage in my back and have horrible RLS a lot. This always helps and you can sleep like that if you need to. As far as the 'one more' feeling, that is normal and you just have to redirect yourself. We all think that, but we also know it will never just be one more! Try to keep your mind occupied with music, or a funny movie/TV show. Stay on here and read posts and chat if it helps. The crying is normal too. We numb our emotions the whole time we use. When we quit, it all comes rushing out. Just let it happen, and get it all out. Cry, yell, scream! Do whatever you need to do except use! Just know that this is all temporary. You are on the road to getting your life back!

[fedupwithit747]

Thank you for your fast response.  Right now is the RLS, crying, no energy, feeling empty, honestly thinking if I only had one more.  But I shake that off and pray for strength. how long do the wd last?  I have to be back at work on Monday and I know if different for everyone.  Yesterday seemed to have been the worst, today was a tad bit better, even thought about going to work but decided not to, which was a good this since the tears will not stop.

[ariley13]

Hi there! Welcome! It sounds like you are set with the vitamins and supplements. They really do help. Other than that, eating healthy foods (stay away from red meat, fatty, sugary, and processed food as much as you can.) and staying hydrated (no caffeine) help a lot too. Great job on telling your secret and including your husband in your recovery. It is so important to be accountable to someone. Otherwise we end up using behind that secret. And who couldn't use the support of a loved one? The next huge thing you need to do is cut your sources. This may even be the most important step. Erase your dealer's number. Tell them no more. Tell any friends that use that you are quitting and you won't be around. Let your doctor know that you are an addict. I know it is hard, but you have to be 100% honest and do this. Weak moments will come and if you still have access to the pills you will probably end up using. Now is the time to think about after care as well. Are you planning on doing NA/AA meetings? Counseling?  This site can also be a great tool in your recovery. I wish you nothing but the best of luck. Please know that we are here for you if you have questions, need encouragement, or support. Let us know what symptoms you are having and we can share different things that help ease them. Hang in there, stay strong, and keep your chin up. As long as you don't use, this too shall pass.