Begining of the end

[normalife37]

I am day 1 of admitting my addication.  Feels pretty good to let people know, and gives me more hope of beating it.  My plan is to taper off of the 4 - 10 tabs of percs per day use.  Everyday i can get up and perform my duties pretty normally...the afternoon is when i start feeling the anxiety, headaches.  Today will be my test to see if i can do the taper method.  I purchased 4 of them, and took 1 tablet around noon.  I feel little anxiety and really want to take the rest of them.   So writing it on here really helps to discourage me from taking them all.  
One day at a time.....is all I can promise.

[normalife37]

Thank you for your comment. i have a appointment booked with my doc next week, so hopefully she will help.  I hope she not too dissapointed in me, like I am in myself.  Someone holding the pills for me is a great idea.  I have a friend that would do this for me.  Thank you.

[normalife37]

It is hard to taper I know, I have small children and have to have the energy to tend to them but i am so determined this time, and all your comments help me make me more determined.  I will be going totally off the pills next friday when my children have their visit with their father for the weekend.  So then I can totally take care of myself... sleeves are rolled up for this one.
It is so easy to find any drug in  my area, I am surrounding myself with sober friends. The non sober friends, I can see the path they are in and I don't want to be that way at all.
Thanks for your comment

[Fireby29]

Congrats on getting clean.

Your post though, has me a bit worried for you.  If you can taper, great, it will ease the physical symptoms of detox, but some feel it drags out the mental side of things.  I could never taper, I would just use.  You really need to cut all sources, and you said you bought some.  Most of us will crave and get weak at some point, so having NO ability to get pills can be the difference between staying clean and relapsing.  Just some advice, good luck, and keep posting.

Bryan

[Pkj18]

If you do the taper plan right YOU CAN DO IT I went though the taper with my dr but I had someone hold the pills for me and give them when I was suppose to but you can do it and good job on starting the road to a better life it is so worth it I'm 4 days for no pills after taper and had no w/d so good luck we are here for ya