Just got rid of them.

[JasonSATX]

Alright I just flushed the 60 or so pills I have had for 18 months or so. Just dont want to deal with them ever again. I too am stubborn and dont want to go back to hell. Today is day 8 with no Suboxone. On top of all the extra stress I get to thru a divorce/separation (YEA!!!). I too have legitamite chronic pain that I will just deal with. I took Chemotherapy and study medication for a chronic illness that i was fortunate to have found out about. I am very healthy now except for the lasting damage from the investigational medication. I am 27 yrs old and today I have reached my breaking point with everything. I have turned my life around because of my kids and have been a good person all the way around. I work out and am in pretty darn good shape too. Although in the past 8 days I have only hit the gym 1 time. I am sooooooooooo p***** off that I just want to explode. Someone please help calm me down!!!!!!!

Hey- you said to vent, curse, etc....... Just dont take those easy way out yellow pills.

[gizzy32]

Yep, cursing helps me the most too, lol. Congrats on your clean time. For most of us the start to our recovery is a very painful time, not only with w/d's, but having to deal with life again sober and all the changes that are happening can be overwhelming. It sounds like your going through a lot right now, but everything happens for a reason and getting off these pills was the best start to your better life now. You are so early in recovery so don't lose your faith. Congrats on flushing those pills! Keep posting, this place can help so much:)

[worried878]

gotta move..when u feel this way..walk around the block..jog in place..clean out a closet..hit the gym...whatever u do dont let it get to ya!  and u can vent all u want..when i was in detox i posed here very often..i learned alot..and it helped to know others feel this way..and that it passes..so remember that..this too will pass..take it day by day..minute by minute if u have to..just hang tight and dont f up the work u have done so far....tossing those pills means u mean business..keep posting

[JasonSATX]

I really dont give a **** about whats gonna happen. Some people just change and not for the better, just frustrated cause I wont be with the boys every day any more. Does this mean I can go out and have a few (or a lot) drinks. Or will I feel like death tomorrow? And no I have never been an alcoholic and know my limits- but I gotta get out of my 3300 sq foot cage. I have my music blaring, and made me a special CD for when I get in my Denali. The music definately helps........... I am calming down.... Kind of.....

[dominosarah]

Congrats on flushing those pills!!!!!!  That shows some real strength!!!  Now hit the gym or get outside and walk run or do whatever you need to do.  Work off some of the anxiety you are feeling.  If you like music turn it up!!!!  You sound very positive.  Be proud of what you have accomplished!!!!  Now get your butt a movin!!!!!!!!!!       sara

[cathy5841]

Jason, you are doing great!!!  8 days clean means it is time for a celebration.  you can def vent on here anytime...we all do...lol  just continue to move forward and dont look back....you can do this...keep on keepin on!