Today starts the rest of my life

[cleanwoman]

Well, ive been an addict for over half my life, and I'm tired of it!  Today i stopped opiates and marijuana. I want to soo bad but so scared and anxious...any help advice anything would be so greatly appreciated! Thanks

[ThePhoenix75]

Just checking in, how are you doing?  Everything ok?  Let us know...

[ThePhoenix75]

I understand the no sleep part.  I am detoxing from fentanyl and up pretty much hall the time.  Not fun.

Did you look at the Thomas recipe located at the bottom of the page?  A lot of people. ( myself included ) swear by it.  I added Lysine and arginine which have found really help my depression and anxiety.  The theory behind the amino acids is that when using opiates our body shuts down its own neurotransmitters.  We need the building blocks of proteins--amino acids--to rebuild them again.  I also take a packet of Emergen c (avail at grocery store ) every morning on an empty stomach.  Sometimes the amino acids can be hard to find, I get them from whole food mart, gnc, or online.  Let me know if you need any help.  Best luck!!
Phoenix

[VICourageous]

Hi..I am up way over my bedtime. Not detoxing that was 17 months ago. I just wanted you to know that these pills hit many different areas of the Brain. This is what take the longest to balance back. Many different drugs or booze can hit different areas but for the mostly they hit alot of the good Chems, Neurotransmitters and Receptors. Just try not to fight the sleep..I used to take the Magnesium oil and rub it on me and I would take the Cal, Ds and Potassium at night to help sleep..Once in awhile I would throw in a Melatonin. This all takes Time to balance back and with Time comes lots of Patience. Try not to put a time limit on it..You will go through some stages but each one brings a better day.
If you would like to read a bit of good info since you are not sleeping feel free to click my name and go into my Journal way back. I put in some info called the "Nature of Addiction", Addiction and the Pleasure Pathway beyond Willpower. Then there is one on the Grieving cycle..Just like when we lose something..We also go through this when we give up our DOC because to us it was our Love of our Life..hahaha I have been in the nursing field for over 28 years and picked up alot of this from some Addition Dr..Most of it I found after I went on a Map of the Brain research mission. The one on the Grieving just was headlined as Great Info.I found that all of this info has helped me a lot..BUT we still have to have outside support and one on one if possible..The detox part is easy (hard) but it is staying clean that takes the cake and lots of work..Life can throw us some curve balls and we are used to running to hide. I never even thought anything about any of this until all my crisis happen in the last few months..I too have been using off & on for over 40years..I just thought it was all for the party..Well as you grow you will learn so much day by day..I wish you the best and just hang on to that surf board and ride the waves..You will walk in the sand soon..One day all you will want to do is sleep..I called this my "Catch up sleep"..So be patient and you will be fine.
Bless

[cleanwoman]

Well, hello!
I guess what everyone has said about not sleeping is true! Even though I was up by 5am this morning, here it is at 430am, and I'm still wide awake! That is almost 24 hours I have just been awake! That's crazy!!! I don't know how I'm going to function!

This whole sleeping thing is going to get me! I'm not even sure why I'm still awake! Of course I'm hurting, but then I almost do, with or without the pain pills anymore! And I'm not really all that sick, I'm really nauseous and have a slight headache and a few more aches and pains then usual, but nothing too major. Its more like my brain is just on overload, racing a million miles a minute with a billion different jumbled thoughts. Maybe all the things I numbed and didn't think about or wouldn't let myself think about, or just felt like I couldn't do while numbing my brain and emotions along with my physical body pain is all coming tumbling out now?!?!

Oh and motye, I have everything on the list you mentioned except potassium, can you buy that supplement separate and what does it do? And also the gaba 750? I have never heard of that...what is it and what does it do? I want to do everything right so that I can get off the drugs and hopefully even get even healthier!

That is my goal, to stay drug free and healthy for life! And my motivation is my 3 wonderful amazing beautiful kids!

Its just me and my 3 kids and they will be up soon enough and I'll have no choice but to be awake and functioning by then! And I wish they could help more like you asked Phoenix! But they are only 3, 5, and 7. They do help with what they can for their age though. And its just me and the kids since their 41 year old father physically assaulted me almost 2 years ago. I will not tolerate a man abusing me, so I left with my kids that same night, after being together for almost 11 years and married for 8. The very next day he had moved in a 18 year old girl and they are still together. And he has had absolutely nothing to do with our kids ever again.

So, its just us, no other family around and all the friends I've made here are all involved with pills somehow.

I know I have to do this, get clean sober happy healthy and back on track not just for me, but for the 3 amazing perfect children I brought into this world that depend on me for everything.

It just seems so hard minute to minute though...Any suggestions or stories of how any of you got and stayed clean would help me so much right now and would be so greatly appreciated!!!!

Thanks to all of you for just being here!
(And especially if you actually read my long, rambling, no sleep writing lol ;-)

[gnarly_1]

HI how are you holding up.....it is great your sleeping hope you keep it that way but dont be suprized if you dont most people cant sleep threw it if you get bad always try a hot soak this will not only help with thr aches and pains but it will also help with the anxiety keep posting for support good luck and God bless.....Gnarly........

[ThePhoenix75]

Sorry I didn't get back sooner.  Your story sounds very familiar.  A lot of us have come from a situation of chronic pain and led us to where we are now.

How old are your kids?  Can they help you out at all?

Do you plan on quitting cold turkey or tapering down?

Please stick around....we will support you in any way we can.

Phoenix

[cleanwoman]

Good morning everyone! Thanks for your responses! I went to sleep early last night but woke up early too!

I got up and had these wonderful messages and it made me feel better already!

So,  a little more of my story. I'm 31 now, I started smoking pot when I was about 15, and by 16 had started taking lortab. I had ended up going for a small surgery at 16, but when they cut me open, the Dr discovered endometriosis, and he said it was worse case he had seen in his 30 something year career, and started handing me lortab like skittles. I had no idea what I was getting into. Since then I've been to several drs, been diagnosed with the awful endometriosis and cysts and fibroids and ibs. I just kept getting more and stronger med, opiates. Then it got to the point the drs were trying to force a full hysterectomy on me or quit giving me so many pills.

Well I didn't want a hysterectomy back then. So I started buying pills off the street, which quickly led to whatever I could get, lortab percs roxy oxy...

I've been trying to get off the pills awhile but haven't. I haven't taken any more roxy, my favorite doc in over a month. But I have taken a few lortab and Percocet. But now I want off everything!!!

I'm kinda doing this alone, just me and my 3 kids. Its so hard and I've never really quit the marijuana. But I just want to be clear headed and clean.

One other thing, I'm ready to have the hysterectomy now that I have my children but I'm scared it will just lead to more pills, but I'm still constantly hurting so not sure how to do everything. I don't even actually have a Dr for all that anymore anyway.

I just want to be clean and have my life back!

[ThePhoenix75]

Congrats on your decision and Welcome to our community!  How are you doing?

[IBKleen]

AAAWWWW honey..welcome. Tell us a little about yourself. You are in a great place for support so stick around.

[littlebit667]

You came to the right place and welcome.  If you can..let us know what and how much you were taking.  It will help with giving support.

[motye51]

Hold tight. There r people on this site that will be able to help u through the detox process. R u alone or do u have someone to help? List of items needed: epsom salts, good multivitamis, emergen c, gaba 750 (gnc), immodium, potassium. Just a few. I'm sure there r more, but u can absolutely do this! Please let us know how u r through the process. The people on here are angels and really can help when u feel like crap!! Post, post, post!

[OxyTired]

Stopping is huge! Thats a big step! Wanting to be free of drugs, thats very important too. Now just be gentle with yourself for awhile. Just make each day, hour, minute a clean one. The rest will all fall into place.
There will be times you won't feel so good, or your mood will be awful. That is natural too.
Keep your eyes one the prize, a clean, drugfree life. It is sooo worth it!!