New to the Forum - Chronic Pain and Addiction

[dollface7376]

Good afternoon all.  I am a full time working mother (althought currently on disability) of 3 beautiful girls, a military spouse and am suffering from endomeriosis, fibromyalgia and addiction/dependency.  I recently moved to the east coast to be near family to help me out but that is not working out the way I thought and I am not sure but I beleive I relapsed.  I had my tooth pulled and took 8 Vicodin and threw the rest away so I don'tknow if it was considered a relapse ya know.  Anyway..I am currently addictionh to Ultram, Valium, Soma & Klonopin (funny cuz I went to rehab to kick Oxycode and left with 6 other medications....lol),  Does anyone else suffer from chronic pain and addiction?

~dollfce~

[dollface7376]

mimi1313: Yes, I found out the hard HARD way that stopping cold turkey is dangerous and unbearable.  I am going to work with a  team of docs to get me off of everything SAFELY....my biggest problem is the anxiety/panic and emptyness that comes along with withdrawals, but I try to keep the faith that God will carry me through it.

ochooked:  thank you for your kind words and encourangement....it really helps to boost my motivation.

KirstenHere: I was exactly in your position prior to May 9, 2009...my origianal clean date and when I went to rehab for the Oxycodone.  I tried to quit SEVERAL times and could NOT handle the withdrawals with 3 children, my job and a military husband.  I just couldn't do it.  When I realized I couldn't just stop...I talked to my PCM and told her that I need to be in a facility and get off of this becuase while it is the ONLY thing that takes my pain away...my tolerance for the drug is building to unhealthy levels and I was afraid of overdosing since my mother overdosed at 38 for the same thing.  I go back and forth...especially on those bad days where I can't even cook dinner for the kids...I feel like a terrible mother and wife and think...when I was on the pills...(as long as I didn't run out...lol) I could function, work, play with the kids, take care of business, was happy...I was me but again...the levels were beginning to become unsafe and I had to take more for the same effect.  I know how you feel hun...totally....hang in there...I would love to be exchange support.  email me anytime...***@****.  Take care hun.

worried878 - There is much debate over whether or not narcotics are appropriate for long term use and for fibromyalgia.  Narcotics were the ONLY thing that allowed me to function as a normal person but the tolerance and unsafe levels needed to control it are a problem.  Lyrica didn't work for me, physical therapy didn't work, psychiatry didn't work and I refuse to take medications directed to mental illness....I am not mentally ill and do not want to alter my mind and become dependent on those as well.  Funny how its acceptible and actually not considered addiction when you take mental illness medications but narcotics are....thank you for your kind words and support...I really appreciate it.  

[dollface7376]

Hey there!

I was diagnosed with  endo in 2004 3 years after my 2nd child but suspect I had it much longer.  I was able to have a 3rd child with no complications.  I was diagnosed with Fibro immediately after the birht of my 3rd child in 2007 and believe that is what triggered it although I believe I have had it since childhood base on my research but who knows.  

So nice to meet you.

[worried878]

been diagnosed with both of the above..fibro which in my opinion is virtually impossible to diagnose and I choose not to accept it..i have endometriosis diagnosed thru surgery and am on depo provera which totally controls it...i have a fusion and scoliosis with DDD....neither here nor there..chronic pain and narcotics dont really go together for long term use...lyrica is the first line treament for fibro then cymbalta is # 2   not narcotics..endometriosos is treated with surgical removal or hormone replacement to stop your periods/or a hysterectomy....narcotics are not a treatment for endo either...flushing means u mean business..most here have chronic pain and have quit due to tolerence and the mental anquish narcotic addiction can cause...join the crowd..manage ur pain more effectively with means that do not destroy your life...congrats

[KirstenHere]

I also have chronic pain, which is why I started these stupid pills to begin with.
I dont have any answers for you...all I can say is that we are in this together and I'm just going to deal with the pain the best that I can. I don't know what else to do.
I"m soo tired of taking drugs, not going anywhere cause you know your supply won't last, etc etc. You know the story. It for sure ***** the life out of you.
I can't imagine my life without these drugs...but I can't imagine it with them anymore.
I have a real hard time remembering what life was like before drugs...and for the life of me, I can't remember. How sad is that? I know I had a life at one point and time...and I don't think it was that bad. Not as bad as this, anyhow. This is pure hell!
Message if you like...we can do this togther. :-)

[ali3674]

Hello there. Welcome. I also have endometriosis, and chronic pain. Not really on any pain meds by rx, but when I get a hold of some, I take smll amounts.  I am really concerned about the chronic pain and want to be able to take something on a regular basis but havent found out what that is yet.... COngrats to you on having children with Endo.  That gives me great hope......How and when were you diagnosed?  When were you diagnosed with fibromyalgia?

[ochooked]

The fact that you flushed the Opiates were a major statement of your determination to beat your addiction -  I really admire that -- way to go girl.  Keep posting

[mimi1313]

Hi dollface,

Welcome! We are all addicted for the most part. That is a shame you went in to get off 1 med and came out with all of those. Definitely don't quit the Ultram cold trukey. That has to be tapered off. Are you planning on doing this yourself becasue it may be best if a doctor assists you with this. The benzos shouldn't be stopped cold turkey either.

You will have a lot of support here and will get alot of info. This is a great foruma nd you've definitely come to the right place.

Good luck and keep posting!