Just when you think it is safe~

[dominosarah]

Today i was put in a very bad situation.  One of my co-workers(and i use that term loosely) came to me and said "oh look what i have"...She then presents a bottle of narcotics.  Claims she has a sore throat.  My mouth instantly watered and i just backed up against a freezer.   Now mind you i am over 4 yrs clean and life goes pretty smoothly for me now but this just took me by surprise.  Once i gained my bearings i told her she needed to get that out of my face and to never do that again.  I then went and got my boss, told her what was going on and that i needed to call someone, my sponsor.  She came immediately.  We talked for about 15 minutes and i was okay.  The point i am making here is this addiction presents itself when you least expect it.  Always keep that guard up.  Know what to do when this happens which is why we speak of aftercare like we do.  Had i not had the tools i needed this situation could of been disastrous.  As for my coworker?  Let's just say she hasnt heard the last from me!!!   sara

[dominosarah]

It's been a tough couple days for this old girl.  I am so grateful that i have choices to make now.  I have chose not to use each day when i wake.  The pain i feel is intense, the worrying is draining and the tears keep on falling but thru it all at the end of the day i know i have made good choices.  To thine own self be true~~

[lynnalb15]

Sarah I may not have told u but since I found these boards I have always favored and looked up to you. And this just proves to me why you are such an amazing inspirational lady. Good for you!

[Dane74]

So very sorry about your cat, wow talk about being tested, between your coworker and now this, I'm so sorry, but thank god you have the tools and the strength to get you through.

[Dane74]

Sara, OMG i cannot believe that happened!!!!  I am so PROUD of you but i am not surprised one bit:)  You are so unbelievably strong willed and determined that i had no doubt.  If only i can gain half your strength i would be alright.  Thank you so much for sharing, in the beginning i didn't believe in aftercare, or that i even had a problem, no less keeping your guard up, now at 100 plus days clean i am still being tempted and just hanging on that the devil does not beat me.  I completely understand now what keep you guard up really means.  Thank you so very much for all the tuff love, words of wisdom, and sticking by me during my most vulnerable state of mind.

[rpooo]

Sarah,

I have always held very high regards for you. I have seen you help so many people with your "magical advice" I forget that you too were once just like many of us. You are a strong wonderful lady, thank you for everything you do! I am so very proud of you, probably more than you even realize :) If there is ever any way I can help send me an email or PM, it comes right to my phone and I will get right back to you! Take care!

Randy

[quitinoxys]

Sara---Great job handling the temptation thrust upon and kudos to your boss for sticking by you. Happy 4th of July to all---Rick

[dominosarah]

Exactly~~

[gnarly_1]

GOOD post Sara people need to know its not clean time that will keep you clean and even when you have a lot your not above temptation..............Gnarly

[dominosarah]

I know the feeling of having alcohol present all around us.  The smell of it nauseats me now.  I have a hard time waiting on people who have been drinking.  It takes everything i have not to start dry heaving(i have a couple times too by the way!)  Even tho my reaction is such i still have to remember where i came from as you never know~~

[addict3]

I just now saw this.

It is never safe, ever.
And I know you know that. I' glad you had someone to call. Aftercare is a must, whatever type it is that you choose to use.

I am so proud of you sara, not only for this but for the person you have become on here and evidently in your personal life.
Thanks for the kind words, that means alot to me.
Glad you handled it in the manner that you did.
......................GUARD UP!!...................

[lboogie7729]

Glad to hear how you handled it and what the outcome was sara. Thank you for sharing, and continuing to be a great example for us. Lucky me, being a drunk means my DOC is in my face every day of my life so I kind of have to live with my GUARD UP! so to speak. But it is all good. :)

[sadmom999]

Sara, I'm so proud of you.  You not only passed that test, you used it to help others here too.

:-)

[dominosarah]

Today went very well.  I talked with both of them and stated my concerns.  There will be ZERO narcotics brought in to the store.  I did state that if it does happen again i will walk out of that place, never to return.

Now to make some brownies!!!  lol

[Free2agoodhome]

Tell her you want to get past this incident and offer her some ex-lax brownies....at least you wont see her for a good half day.... ;-)

Excellent example of an emergency plan. Well done.

Free~

[guv338]

I am so glad to know that you passed the test with flying colors, I knew you would.  My wife recently had surgery and guess who got to hold and dispense the pain pills for her.  I did.  Imagine that.  The fox guarding the hen house.  But fortunately God took away my desire to ever take those nasty pills again.  Was able to dispense as needed to her and they dont even temp me.  That is a miracle and only given by the Grace of God.  My best to you, guv

[Sonrissa]

Sounds like your boss is handling the situation well! This coworker is probably going to be mortified! But, this will be a necessary lesson! I simply can not imagine ever doing something like that! However, I could not have ever imagined myself doing some of the things I've done!

[dominosarah]

No she didnt do this on purpose.  She isn't the brightest bulb on the tree.  I am not saying i am either, she does have some other issues.  I really do need to tread lightly with her in all aspects.  My boss said that there will no longer be meds brought to the store and if someone needs one like an antibiotic she will have a place for them to store.  

[Sonrissa]

I guess my question would be did this coworker do this on purpose? Does she know your story? Either way it wasn't appropriate at all, but I just wonder why someone would purposely do this! I know you will handle it in your own special way! Just glad I'm not her!

[dominosarah]

It just happened so fast.  Today i am just chapped about it!   I have to plan my strategy here, either i go in with guns a blazing(meaning my mouth) or i talk with her calmly.  Right now the first option is overpowering the last one!!

[salsinator]

Thanks for posting Sara,  I always look to you as a role model for everyone on here and never would have thought that a situation would have been presented to you like this.  I can honestly say that I am not sure what I would have done if put in the same situation.  Seeing how you handled this gives me strength and made me think how bad things could have been.  Stay strong and keep sharing.  Thanks Sara

[10356]

I'm really glad you made it thru that Sara and took the steps that were right for you.. it seems we both have been tempted in so many days. although mine was family and yours a co-worker all the same.. Just goes to show that we can not live in a cocoon but we can protect ourselves with the truth and the courage to look the demon in the eye and recognize it for what it is. Thank you for being there for me last night,, I agree about Addict3 I'm finding the gifts he has to offer.. Guard up my friend.. lesa

[Bones216]

Way to be strong Sara.
Thanks for the warning and I will be on the look out for those moments.
4 years sober, I'm very proud of you and your success.
One day at a time huh.

Joe

[dominosarah]

Thanks Lu~~

Your right, we cant control what others do and say, all we can do is control how we react to the situation.  

[lulu747]

Sara-
Just when you think you're safe.....(:  Your story just goes to show that we only have THIS moment and the choice that we make within it.  It also goes to show that having a plan, the proper support, and your own best interests at heart are the keys to sobriety.  We cannot control life, and we ESPECIALLY can't control the behaviour of others.  This was a definite win for you today and I hope you are feeling proud of yourself!  
I am proud of you, and grateful to have you here...
Love
Lu