Living again

[stilltrying1965]

I would ust like to say this has been one long hard road to get were iam today. Last friday i started to have a monster craving wich went on till saturday, sunday was quiet. Then wow i dont know what happened on monday morning i woke at 830 with a big huge grin on my face. dont know why but on monday i could not stop laughing and having a great time with my family. I have been teaching my daughter Caroline how to drive. she has only 5 hours driving expereance and she was awesom everything i tought her all came together. That gave me a feeling that im not a usless junkie hey iv tought my daughter how to drive thats cool. I thought that day was a one off but know iv been like that all week even tonight i feel very happy. If this is what life is like after drugs well to all you guys on weather it be 1 day or 30 days keep going dont give up coz im living proof that life really does get much much better. I wont to thank my friends who kept pushing me to a could see this through to the end Im loving life sooo much Thanks guys could not have done it withit. ,,,,James PS there is much light at the end of a very dark tnnel its a sparkiling light one iv not seen in 13 long years..............

[gnarly_1]

Hey James ...for me there has been a lot of ups and downs now things are starting to stablize a bit...but in the beginning (first 90 days) there where lots of ups and downs
im bi/polar witch makes it worst ..I dident know what was doing it the post withdrawal or my bipolar symptoms acting up....it turned out to be a little of each and my phyc dr put me back on antidepressants after 90 days of detoxing...it helped a lot...she had felt that we had waited long enough for the withdrawal to where off and it was time to treat the symptoms ...shes a great dr and now life is a beautiful place again...I never want to go that far back into depression again so get help if you need it James...most people snap out of it on there own but my phyc dr thinks the methadone was also treating my bipolar symptoms I had few problems with it will on the methadone once off I nearly went into a manic episode at first then the depression hit...just know there are medications out there to help if it dont lift on its own......good luck and God bless...Gnarly    

[stilltrying1965]

No Vicki it just came right out the blue. But i dont want to feel like that too often ,,,James

[vicki595]

James~How are you feeling now?  Did something happen to set this off?
Hugs~
Vicki

[avisg]

I think you need to either go to a meeting  or see the counselor asap... You will have ups and downs James .Are you on any type of antidepressant many addicts need them for awhile after they have stopped using Try working threw it when I get depressed I give myself a certain amount of time to feel bad then I pull it together . However if your depression is overwhelming then an AD be the best thin for you some funks we cant get out of without help.

[stilltrying1965]

Well i thought i was doing great but this weekend i started crying and doing things that were easy to me but found them more difficult to do. Im also losing concentration. I think im suffering from paws Iv read whats on the bottom page any more info would be welcome. But i did have two great weeks before this started to happen I need to understand what is happening ,,,,,James

[SophieShine]

Wooooohooooo James, You ROCK!!!
The memories you're giving your daughter is a present for life! I'm so darn proud of ya!!!
Keep on keeping. Sending you and Kim huuuuuge hugs from over The Channel.
xoxoxo. sophie.

PS: I really liked the hoover too :))) lololol

[dominosarah]

Way to go James!!!  Teaching your daughter how to drive, gardening and being introduced to the Hoover all in a short time(loved that one by the way) is quite a change and a good one!!  I knew you had it in you and FINALLY you are realizing it too that there is a life without drugs!!!!  Keep it going now as it will just keep getting better!!!   Hope Kim is feeling better and give her a big hug..........sara

[gizzy32]

Congrats on over 2 months clean now, WOW James. Glad your doing well and enjoying all the benefits that come with being drug free. Keep it going, one day at a time. Your doing so good:)

[gnarly_1]

hey James im happy to here you made it out of the dark tunnel its great when you get to the other side.....you and Kim have been thew so much im happy for you ..I new you would get there it just took some perseverance...im finely out of my dark tunnel to and life is a beautiful place again....it was cool seeing the desert in bloom sober I truly got to smell
the flowers for the first time...we had a lot of rain this spring...things that haven't bloomed in the desert in 10yrs bloomed...it was cool being able to experience it clean I wish the 2 of you well ...happyness  looks good on you James keep up the good work and may God bless you and Kim abundantly your friend Mark  

[stilltrying1965]

I am very handsome Vicki LOL

[onthefence]

positive thinking brings me the advantages I desire.......

[vicki595]

James~~You look so handsome when you're happy!!!!

Love you~
Nurse Ratchet

[stilltrying1965]

Thats my new middle name (positive ) LOL Avis the whole week has been great Now this is what i call living again Thanks Avis ......James

[avisg]

I new you would get there James keep thinking postive it makes such a big diffrance .