Made it 14 days... then the pharmacy called.

[tyguy83]

I was clean for 14 days, I thought I was in the clear physically but still having a lot of cravings and was longing for the Norco's. I was on about 6 to 8 Norco per day for 2 years or so... Cold turkey sucked but after the first week I started eating right and my stomach settled down. I figured if I didn't go back to the Doctor I wouldnt get a refill but the pharmacy called and my script was ready. I lost all control, left work immediately and drove straight there to pick them up; and as quickly as I could I blew 14 days of hard work and gave in. The 1 month supply lasted me 2 weeks, not terrible, but now I am right back to where I was exactly one month ago. If I hadnt gotten that script I would be 30 days clean today, instead I am back on day 1.

I know the steps I need to take, ensure my doctor knows I am done etc. I'm just really depressed today and am really pissed at myself. If it was that easy for me to cave, will I get stronger? No physical issues yet, just a runny nose, but it hasn't even been 18 hours so I'm sure I will be in a different place tomorrow. This was my first time lapsing, so I don't know if this is normal or not. I read so many great stories from you on how you overcame your triggers, and I didnt even have a trigger this time! They were offered so I took them. Will that always be the case?

Thanks Medhelp.

[jifmoc]

I know this sounds lame but advil gel caps are the only thing that works for me for headaches. Worth a try. And drink a lot. You could be dehydrated.

I used to drive myself nuts: "I could have had 5 years etc" But, it's pointless. As long as you learned from your relapse, keep moving forward:)

[tyguy83]

Any advice for the headaches? Its really the only physical issues I am having, other than some serious back pain, which I was expecting. I didnt have headaches before, so this is new. Its the only thing thats really keeping me down, well, other than the obvious. Depression is so much worse this time around because I am mad at myself. Day 2, should have been day 32.

[jifmoc]

P.S- the honesty you showed by admitting that on here is great. You made yourself accountable. Keep being totally honest!:)

[jifmoc]

You know if my pharmacy called and told me a script was ready that would put me in a tailspin. That is way we have to cancel ALL contacts. It's too tempting.

And, this is where aftercare comes in, too. When you have people in person, to call, to meet up with, you are covered. We cannot do this alone!

[IBKleen]

Sorry to hear about your relapse. No, it will not always be the case that you run and get pills. The cravings never go away but they do get better and if you work on finding out what your core issues are and learning new coping skills, then you will not have to worry so much. Yes, remove all obstacles in your way and set yourself up for success. I also suggest aftercare to help you heal.