Marce4---PLEASE READ!!!

[allalone]

Marce4,

Hi! I saw your post on another thread and saw that you are a nurse and I have been trying to find other nurses, like myself, on here!!!   I know EXACTLY what you mean about thinking you could "control it"...and I also know what you mean about feeling so dang stupid for thinking that!!!...where are you at in your recovery???  I can never make it past day 2!!!  I am so embarrassed to say!  I am gonna try tapering (which has never worked, either) after next weekend---PLEASE keep me in your thoughts and I will do the same for you!!!  BTW, what state are you in??  I am in Florida, which is pure Hell on Licensed Nurses and Drugs (or any crime, for that matter).  

Peace & Blessings--
allalone

[Buaidh No Bas]

Please don't take his the wrong way, but i do hope you're not COMPLAINING that Florida is hard on Nurses that break the law (esp. in regards to abusing prescription meds!)

Don't get me wrong, i'm really glad to see that you've recognized your problem, and are trying to correct it.That's admirable and fantastic. However, you must understand, being a nurse, people are entrusting you with their very lives on a daily basis, and dammit, if the governing body of the profession DIDN'T take a harsh view of these transgressions, I would be extremely 'put-off'!

I hope for nothing more than your success in defeating your demons. But please don't expect me to feel badly for you if you decide it's too tough to beat, yet continue trying to care for people while compromised.

Best of luck to you. You simply need to believe in yourself. As simple and cliche as that may seem, it's true.


BNB

[Marce4]

I am in PA. I am 24hrs (and counting the hours and minutes...it is pure torture!)  I hear what the other posting was saying about patients lives and how they are entrusted to us and they are absolutely correct, which is why I need to beat this!  I am in agony right now and just told my husband that I don't know if I can do it.  He has been great and is keeping the kids busy but I have all the wonderful sx. cold sweats/diarrhea/anxiety and more! I feel hopeless right now and doubtful that I can do this c/t. I have to since I have no meds left. If i tried hard enough I could probably find some but I've gotten this far and I don't want to let my family down.  I too am afraid of the repercussions to my career which I truly love, but I have to take responsibility for what I have done to myself!  I hear what you are saying about getting past day 2...it is soooo hard to live like this!  I know we have strict laws as well re:healthcare professionals and right now I am just concentrating on getting throuhg this. I work part time and plan to call out sick on Mon.  I will keep you in my prayers as Ihope you do for me.  Thanks for responding!!!!! Keep in touch.

[allalone]

First of all, the post was NOT ADDRESSED TO YOU...so, thank you for minding your business...

Secondly, if you ain't in my shoes...then don't judge me, dammit.

I thought I found understanding on here....guess I was right...allalone fits...I'm outta here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALLALONE!!!