Mental Cravings?

[HA777]

Hey all....first time posting.

This is my 12th day cold turkey from oxycodone and hydrocodone. Been taking pills for the last 2 years daily. I know its dancing with the devil, and I still did it anyways. Never gone above 5-6 percs or vics daily. Have quit for a week or so, once or twice, but 12 days is the longest I have gone. The first 3 days were hell and then the next 7 or 8 days were smooth. Then today, the mental cravings are very tough. I know I could call up my connection, but I just can't. I know I am riding the fine line and if I cross it, I will fall deeper and deeper into addiction.

I don't want to keep going down this path. Any advice in beating the mental cravings?

I can't give in this time. I have been very aware of the dangerous path I have been walking.

[Anne2040]

HI,

Have you heard of naltraxone? my husband has cravings also because he came off suboxone and now he is having extreme cravings to go back on them.  I would talk to my doctor and see what he suggests.  Naltraxone is like a drug that helps you not have mental cravings.  Just keep your mind occupied and you can do it! I am supporting my husband to keep clean.  Good luck!

[red_1986]

Hey a mental craving ONLY last's 7 seconds for real. It is you that keeps the urge going Just remind yourself of this and think of a consequence from using you can control it just use the fourm read it, post on it, love it live it. I know anyone can do it as long as they Just want it!  am a cocaine/crack addict I have made it over 4 months by being here. attending NA Best of wishes to you and I will keep you in my prayer's. God Bless, you will still have PAW's for awhile maybe up to 2 years so please don't give up.

[HA777]

Thanks.

I am sure it will be never ending. I am sure sometime this week I will be jonesing, just like I was last Thursday. Just have to get past it.

[gizzy32]

glad to hear the cravings are diminishing, they do with time, but never let your guard down, addiction is neverending. keep it up your doing great. congrats on 15 days, woo hoo.

[HA777]

15 days.....this weekend has been easier than I thought it would be.

[addictedme]

Addiction is a desease that can be arrested (put into remission) with treatment. When you quit using it leaves a void in your life that needs to be filled. Fill it and theres no room left for cravings,,leave it empty and you"ll always struggle. Toxic gave you some good suggestions. Remember,,you cant change the past but you can change the future,,gl

[gizzy32]

i had to learn my triggers as to what made me want to use then tried to get rid of most. for me having a few drinks was a huge trigger so i have quit drinking. boredom, like you said is another one. once you learn these things it will become easier, but just never lose that focus. i love to hear stories of someone just getting off drugs and pills because i know how happy they will be soon, keep it up

[Gobig]

Keeping busy w/o re-programing your brain will make you a busy person with cravings.

[Gobig]

Go to meetings - the cravings will go away.

[HA777]

Thanks.

Feeling less cravings today than I did yesterday.

Hard to believe its almost been 2 weeks.

[gizzy32]

hi i just saw your post and welcome to the forum, congrats on the 13 days now, the worst is over with, but like you said it is the mental cravings now. definately keep busy and keep posting on here to let us know how you are doing. congrats your doing great

[HA777]

Well....made it through the day ok.

Need to keep myself busy this weekend to keep my mind from telling me I need to cave in.

[toxictome]

  HA777......I'M 22 DAYS AND I DONT' KNOW IF I WOUDL BE STRONG ENOUGH TO TURN THE PILLS DOWN...I WOULD HOPE SO...BUT I'M NOT READY TO BE TESTED!!!!

gOOD NIGHT...WELCOME AGAIN...SEE YOU IN THE MORNING!!!!\

[HA777]

Take care everyone and thanks for making me feel welcome.

I look forward to frequenting this board.

Good Night.

[Flutterby111]

Right now HECK NO!  Because I went to hell and back.  I've lost 10 pounds since Friday...that's through some traumatic stuff right there.  No, I truly don't think I would. Ask me next week?  Could be totally different.  ANd THAT scares me IMMENSLY.

[HA777]

You said: One day at a time...that's all we can do.....

Funny I used to see those bumper stickers and never 'got it'.

I 'get it' now.

[HA777]

Let me ask you all a question....if there were some percs in front of you right now.....would you take them?

At some point and time that has to be my goal...that if they were right in front of me, I would turn them down. Because sooner than later, there may be some in front of me.

Right now.....I would probably use.

[Flutterby111]

Yeah, just to get through the day...mother's little helpers brought on a whole new meaning in the past few months.....I used the **** out of these little things.  AND I felt more on drugs while I was suffering the W/Ds than I didn when I was on the drugs.

[HA777]

Glad I don't have a script with refills.

That would be tough. Of course hopping in your car and going to the hood to buy percs at 4 or 5 bucks a pop is no fun....and freaking expensive.

[toxictome]

One day at a time...that's all we can do.....

[HA777]

I agree...after a while I was just using to feel 'normal'.

But that buzz is something else.

My wife knows I took percs when I had kidney stones. I may get a script for 30 every 2 or 3 months....once those are gone, she thinks I am done with them.

[Flutterby111]

It just sucks.  My hook up wasn't a dangerous place...it was flippin Walgreen's.  I should've known with my history I'd get addicted, but I just figured the Dr's would stop giving them to me and it'd be done....well, I finally just said screw it I'm not going to the doctor, I'm quitting.  That's the thing too, The hubby was like here smoke some pot, it'll help, I don't want too be a pothead anymore.  I did that.  For YEARS!  I've binged on coke.  I've been a meth head.  But that was all illegal street drugs.  This was ligitimate drugs for legitimate pain that got outt hand and here I am.  I've gone straight to the Dr's this week and told them straight up what happend-I'm withdrawing because I got hooked.  So it's documented.  I won't get anymore. But i could.  I've got insurance that would aallow me to go to any doctor anywhere.  THAT's scary.  But, I'm not going there.

[toxictome]

I understand...I loved that buzz..but after awhile the buzz was just never the same, and I ws using just to get thru the day...

It's crazy, isn'***???????


HA777, did your wife know you were usssing???

[HA777]

I should add that I got introduced to percs because of kidney stones. I get a stone every few months. Have had kidney stones for about 12 years, but it was only the last 2 years that I started using every day.