Good evening all,
I just wanted to check in to give an update on my progress in benzo withdrawal,I feel I should start by saying I'm doing great,and have been for over a month now,today as I read back on my posts since January,it's a strange feeling,it feels as though the person I was while suffering in withdrawals is a stranger to me now,I really can't put into words how disconnected one feels in benzo detox,withdrawals are rough no matter what the substance,however I have to say that for me benzo withdrawal was surely the hardest thing I've been through,for the first 2 months I couldn't barely leave my apartment,basic tasks seemed just impossible,I had too many symptoms to mention,but the ones that really were persistent and aggressive were the tinnitus the hot flushes and the deep down loneliness and depression and out of control anxiety and panic attacks,I'm 5 months benzo free,I'm no longer feeling depressed or anxious,my world has gone from black and white to color,im truly grateful to be out of that detox,I'm thinking rationally again,and feeling human for the first time in years,there's a lot of things I need to sort out in my life,things are far from perfect,but that's ok,because I see everything now,I feel more in touch with myself,and aware of the things around me,I get the occasional craving for some opiates,but they are not as strong as before,I hope that some of my posts and the people that answered them may help somebody in detox,thanks to everyone on this site that answered,or just read my posts,
Right now I'm happy and truly grateful to be a functioning part of society,I enjoy waking up up early everyday,getting my work done,I do Muay thai and boxing 2 sometimes 3 days a week,I feel healthy I look healthy,I was 135 lbs I'm 5'9" .todays weight is a healthy 162lbs,I'm extremely excited about what the future holds,it's early stages for me in recovery I know this,I know addiction is a sneaky mother ******,one of the things I'm most grateful for right now, and I thank the universe for this everymorning ,is that I never have to feel dope sick ever again,that thought right there brings a smile to my face every morning,