Morning alllll...............

[liscamdave]

Day 6 here, and some symptoms are getting better and some are getting worse. I have eliminated the chills/sweats, but found some insomnia. Well, somewhat. I fell asleep around 11, and woke up at like 2 and couldn't fall back to sleep till 6...so it sucked, but overall feeling good. I will say that the mental aspect is the best it has ever been. I seriously want rid of this part of me..I know it will always be with me in some way. But no longer want to be the prisoner I have been. If I could go and talk to people and warn them about what could happen, I would. Its definitely a situation where if I could go back and do it over, I would have never, ever taken that first pill....

Hope all my friends are well...

Love to you all....

Lisa

[lonote]

Hi hon! Six days, Wow!! That is great This time  Your in the right frame of mind. You are so positive and uplifting. I told my out of town friend about you and how you were cleaning up. I'm really proud of you Lisa. I sent you a little note over on the other side. Those friends of ours are M.I.A. Wish they would turn up some how, and they will its just a matter of when.    Cathy

[High Noon]

Lisa,

Thanks for the kind words and encouragement. I wish you the same and good luck. You have your whole life ahead of you- I am more than twice your age.

Ken

[liscamdave]

Nope, never went to see a counselor, but think I may look into it. I want to take my recovery serious as I am desperate to beat this addiction. I am so proud of you, you will never know. I remember when we both came here and met, we were talking about our "Enhancements", and had alot in common. You too have become an inspiration to me and I hope that the friendship last. Maybe we can both be inspirations to new people that come here and many more.

Love you girl....

xoo, Lisa

[liscamdave]

Ken,

As long as you know if you continue to fight this battle, you will never have to go through it again. The mental aspect is just as hard as the physical. Welcome to the forum. Please know that there are so many of us here going through what you are going through and it can be done. The last time I quit, I lasted almost three months. This time I am going for the long haul...Luck to you my new friend.

Lisa

[VOsRose]

I'm trying to upload a pic of her...she really is adorable and FULL of personality.  But talk about LOUD.  At first it was just baying...she finally found her barking voice a couple of months ago and nothing has been the same since!  LOL

We have another Beagle, also.  She's 8 and weighs in at about 55 lbs!  Her name is (remember, I'm originally from Louisiana) Boudin.  We named the new puppy Andouille and call her Andi for short.

I'm sorry to hear about the death of your first Westie...I love them.  They are so cute.  I'm sure, as with all terrors (oops...I meant terriers) she was a handful.  I think terriers are the breed most susceptible to demon possession.  ;-)

If I can get Medhelp to cooperate I'm going to change my pic to one of Ms. Andi Lou.  

[road2recovery]

Good morning....I know what you are feeling, but u know it just takes time.
I have been wanting to ask you this---you know i have read you story, and i cried the entire time...you were my inspiration...Do you see a counselor?? girl you have been through so much..
I went yesterday and it i know it will help...
r2r

[slideshow]

Contratulations on day6....Here's to day 7.

Rosie, beagles are barkie, barkie things aren't they.....from down deeeep in the throat, like opera singers....Its like where "does" that noice come from.........Sweet though.  

You want to hear a yappy dog...My wife has a West Highland Terrior, bred to catfch rats on the old Pligrim ships.....They think reflactions are rats...In fact they thing everything is a rat.  Now on our 2nd one, first one died at 14, walking around in circles in the badkyar around and around the fence....I didn't know I loved that yappy little ***** (its OK to use that word when referring to a female dog), till it looked up at me dying as I petted it, with those pitiful shinig eyes......My wife took it to the vet and they put it to sleep, with my wife holding it.  That's how "I" want to go....Sheeesh.

I got her another one, a female puppy.....name is Sugarbea, Just as Yappy........The only thing that is certain about that dog is that when my biz phohe rings, she barks........

Net dog is my pick, an Akita............My pick,   surrrrrrre..like everything else in 24+ years has been my pick...Sheeeesh.    

[High Noon]

I am new to this forum. And I feel your pain.
Day four for me after almost ten years of on and off and on (continuosly for two years) of 7.5/750.
I am weak and lethargic brought on also by lack of sleep. The past two nights i went to bed about 11Pm but got up at 12:45AM with RLS. So I went downstiars and walk around the living room. The only positive aspect were that a couple of my "old" favorite tv shows were on until 4AM. Then a couple of hours of sleep and up and get ready for work.

Boy, this is very difficult. You are always thinking about that prescription container with the white pills. I am a couple of days behind you but eager to catch up.    Ken

[liscamdave]

Lol, you are too funny. I have the same problem. If I get woken up by the slightest noise I cannot fall back to sleep. My daughter loves to sleep with me but she drives me crazy as she constantly moves around all night. The last time I detoxed, insomnia was a huge problem, from beginning to end of w.d, but not this time so much. But we shall see.

Anyway, glad to hear that you are ok.

xoxoxo, Lisa

[road2recovery]

I caught the giggles about the dog.....still laughing..Have a great day!!
r2r

[VOsRose]

Hi!  I'm so glad to hear that you're feeling somewhat better!  When I came out of detox about 4 years ago I had serious insomnia problems...in fact, I was almost manic!  It was bizarre.  I would sleep like 2 hours a night and spend the rest of the time up drinking coffee and listening to music or playing the piano.  Very, very strange.  I didn't have any insomnia issues this time, but did find that if something woke me up I had trouble getting back to sleep.  To make matters worse, my husband bought me a new puppy as a "get well" present the day I got out of detox.  I wanted to kill them both!!

And, it was Beagle...the noisiest puppy he could have chosen.  The thing howled all night!

I had many nights where I started out in our bedroom and in the middle of the night, when I couldn't take it anymore, stormed upstairs with my pillow to the guest room.  I told him, in no uncertain terms, to get rid of the beast.  

Now I love her!  She's the cutest thing you've ever seen.  

Anyway...hang in there.  The insomnia will eventually work itself out.  You may be tired for a while, but you will get back to normal sleeping at some point.  

xoxoxo
Rosie