I got hooked on Adderall in college a few years ago and thought I would stop after I graduated in 2010. 2 career jobs later, I was in full-blown active addiction and never thought I would get out of the grips of the drug that ran my life. I needed help. I could have never quit alone. First, I had to admit there was a problem. I ended up going to rehab and now I am in Narcotics Anonymous. I used for 6 years and now I have 14 months clean. :-) You can get your life back and feel normal again. The longer you wait, the worse it gets.
Hi.. You got some really good advice from Gizzy and Worried.. When I was doing crank.. I would isolate also.. You would think we would be out and about wired out of our brains.. But as with all drugs it secludes you and consumes you.. As you know there are some physical wd from speed.. as worried said the sweating fatigue also headache and the feeling of being disconnected.. although nothing like an opiate wd still there.. The mental is the *****.. Forcing yourself up and out is the only way to combat this.. exercise movement.. Eat well.. Sleep as much as you can your mind needs it.. Distance yourself from friends that use..Biggest down fall for a tweeker is their friends.. Stay busy.. The speed wants you to believe you cannot handle the stress.. Life has stresses.. but speed adds a whole new dimension to stress.. This is only temporary.. Post for support check out aftercare.. Talk with your Dr. and cut yourself off.. Once your brain and body heal you might find school doable again.. It is never to late to chase a dream.. I wish you well.. lesa
Welcome to posting, glad you took the time to tell us about you. Both of the upper post are right. You can do this, it will be hard even hell but it wont last. You can even go back to school, even if it's part time. I know you dont have ins. but you can google aa or na missings that are close to you. Go to them and talk to them they might even know of some place you can goto and talk to someone. You can do this. You made it through high school without this drug so you should give your adult life a try. Living clean is just a good feeling. Not have to think about where or how you are going your pills. You can do this. Keep reading keep posting. This form has helped so many people. Good luck!
they say amphetamines are not physically addicting..highly mentally addicting..but i am not sure about that..my friend who is bipolar/stay manic btw/is prescribed focalin...she was in a depression 3 years ago and could get out of bed...so hence the amphetamine focalin...she has not missed a day taking it and she is not an addict by nature..never abuses it but she is addicted to it..she tried to quit and managed 3 days without...the 3rd day she was up sweating all night..to me that is a physical symptom in a way...she was depressed and lethargic..and she caved...so it is not an easy drug to quit..affects ur dopamine receprtords like narcotics but in a little bit of a different mechanism..very similar to cocaine..she had no idea they were addictive nor did she know the klonopin she takes each night is addictive...i dont think she really cares due to all of her psychological probs and i kinda preached to her about the focalin...she is so high strung she does not need it and she bounces off the walls to the point i am finding it difficult to be around her....she rides the mania high tho..loves to be manic but she is in a controlled mania if there is such a thing...very sexual tho and even her mild mania is gonna get her into trouble so i dont see the need to add amphetamines to it...she needs some of her meds for life and to function but that one is not one of them..but now she is addicted and i dont see her getting off as she would not be able to handle the depression that will come with it
lots manage this tho..it is not physically harmful to CT this drug....the thomas recipe would help especially the tyrosine and the supps to calm and help u sleep..there is an article in my journal on things to help stop ampetamines and make it easier...i am glad u r going to stop and there is lots of support here
It's not just about being strong and willpower, there is so much more to recovery and quitting. This is the insanity of addiction and doing the same thing over and over. I watched my life fall apart and gave it all i had to quit, but without any help or making changes to my life i could not stay clean. You say you can't afford rehab, but there are always options.
Just like you, using drugs helped me deal with stress, gave me that energy and i thought they made me happy, but in the end it only digs us a deeper hole and makes life unbearable. I understand what your saying, trust me. My record clean time was 11 days in 5 years, i kept saying i can do this, but i couldn't by myself. Can you get to any meetings? Is it possible to see a counsellor, you could save for that by stopping the pills. My best piece of advice is to get some type of help, it's so much more than just saying i am gonna quit (for a true addict). Keep posting and keep reading and come up with a plan for your recovery, you can do this if you put your mind to it man. Good luck.
P.S. There is also an add/adhd forum which could also help too. You have come to the right place for help and I know you can do this:)