WOW! I sure can relate to this post and all of those feelings! For me, I was disconnected from everyone while I was using and then when I stopped it just seemed to get worse for awhile! It was awful and scary to feel so apart from everyone and the rest of the world!!! I am about 4 months in and have to say that it is getting better....I actually spent yesterday with family and was able to stay the whole time and even felt some connection to some of them! It is like being outside looking in! But it is getting better! So hang in there!!! I found that going through the 12 steps has helped me a lot! AT least it got me connected to God/Higher Power which helps not to feel so alien!!! :) Keep on posting and let us know how you are getting on!!
Wow? Really? I guess I understand my husband's anxiety issue now.. he was trying to tell me this the last 6 months or more and I just didn't understand It until u mentioned the fight or flight .. he has been so overwhelmed the last two years he finally had a breakdown . I now understand what he was trying to tell me when complaining of this.. my poor hubby.. doc said he has been stuck in fight or flight mode continually for so long, he burned out. Glad you asked this.. I was wondering for myself.. but suddenly realized what my husband has/is dealing with.. withdrawles are awful.. and if a nervous breakdown symptoms are simalar, no wonder we are so misrible..
Yes, I think its the damn CORTISOL, that causes this, at least that's my understanding from re-searching opiate w/ds. Throw you for a loop is certainly right, refills. oh my!!!
I cant hardly leave my home, because of it!!!! Qpatty, I hear ya also, I have had to run out of my daughters also, oh lord.
Cortisol produces the "FIGHT OR FLIGHT SYNDROME"
Like spider I've had a rough first year. For myself, who always had some anxiety issues, I'm now dealing with some serious lingering wd effects. The depersonalization stuff can really throw you for a loop. It really freaks you out so make sure you know this going forward. As long as you have the understanding of what's happening it can ease up the panic that overtakes you. Over 7 months now and it still doesn't feel like my feet touch the ground, so to speak. Keep posting to help yourself and all the others looking for answers and just sharing the crazy aftereffects we all suffer. Best Wishes...ike
Thank you all for answering a question that I didn't even ask. I too feel very disconnected and almost uncomfortable at times, especially around those I love. I think I want to be around people and family and then when I am I feel uncomfortable and can only handle it for a few hours. But I am thankful because everyone knows what I'm doing so I am just honest with them and tell them I love you all but I gotta go now cause I'm feeling a little overwhelmed. They have all been so supportive and tell me they love me, are proud of me, and for me to do whatever makes me most comfortable.
I actually left my daughter's house before Easter dinner today cause I felt like I was going to lose it if I didn't get away. And everyone was so supportive it actually made me feel guilty. And my youngest daughter even drove to my house to deliver my dinner with a hug, kiss, and an "I love you mom" I am one lucky person and I shall not forget that!
thanks peeps for responding. Appreciate it, I was just about to go bonkers about it, even tho, it happened the other 2 times also. I guess no matter how many times we have been thru w/ds it doesn't make it any less s scarrier right? Stay strong everyone, determination, and God, help us win the battle.
Blessings to all
I agree with you, in that it can best be described as discomfort no matter what you're doing. That's why I advocate doing things that bring on natural reward such as exercise, music, dancing...basically anything that gets you living in the moment.
Hi, yes terrible , but it was with benzos and it lasted a year after detoxing. Sorry you're gong through this.
Hi Chig :)
I had extreme highs and lows during taper, but post detox brought me to a place where I felt utterly disconnected. The tendency was to isolate, but I tried not to allow myself to do that. Instead, I sought out anything that would make me feel more connected, but it took a lot of work to feel it. My own daughter said "why don't you look at me anymore? When you I hug you, you seem like you don't want me to be close to you" I hated to admit, but in many ways she was right. Everything just felt harder when it came to being connected to other people and even feelings. It all used to come so easy, but suddenly it took a lot of work.
I wanted to tell you it fades into nothing, but it takes a long time. I feel very connected to the universe, to my own heart and spirit, and even to other people. It feels good to be back.
Just know there is an end in sight if you do things right.
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Day 25 for me and as I wrote in my last post I still have to fake it, go through the motions but feel no emotion. That disconnected feeling is still with me daily. However, I have found that when you least expect it, like when my child says something so unexpected and cute, or when my husband shows me love and support when I feel like he should express pure frustration for the mess I have made that disconnect that empty void can be filled if only for a few moments. But much more purely than I ever remembered. I do not remember who I was before the pills, but I do know that the numbness is beginning to recede a bit each week.
Yes it is! Monstrous is the perfect discriptive word for it !
15 days for me today. I had this thru the other 2 w/ds also, and it stayed with me, until I healed. But hey, everyone is different. So, don't get worried. Ugh, it and anxiety are my monsters.
yes, it is horrible for sure, and yes, I wish others would weigh in about it, if it affects them.
It is a weird and uncomfortable feeling. I imagine it will go away like the rest if withdrawl symtoms.. maybe someone who has been off longer would know about how long this lasts.. I'm on day 11..
I have read it can happen but I have never asked anyone if they were experiencing this. I hate you have it, cause it sure stinks, but glad to know im not the only one this happens, to. I hope more people will weigh in if its happening to them.
Thanks for answering me, I just was worried about myself.
xoxoxo
yes yes that's what im talking about.
Kinda of like a dream world? Like ur there, but not? Feeling of completely out of place? Like that? I do feel that often .. like I'm there, but the sensations are deadend... and I'm just making the motions.. disconnected feeling