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1316872 tn?1276064195

New and started recovery from oxy very trying

I am a single mama and have been on 15 mg immediate release oxycodone for 6 1/2 years. I broke my back in an atv accident. well i had a ua last week and I failed it.... I had tried smoking marijuana for my restless legs syndrome and this violated my pain contract and now my dr has told me he will no longer prescribe me narcotics which is fine its time. I will admit I'm addicted to them. I'm scared to death though of the withdrawls. I've tried this before and gave in he won't prescribe me anything to help with the withdrawls. I have been clean up to 2 weeks before and still had withdrawls and ended up going and buying pills. I WILL NOT BUY PILLS THIS TIME I"M STAYING CLEAN!!!  But I will say I'm scared they withdrawls are going to end up making it impossible to care for my babies. Last time it got so baby my lil girl told me "mommy you can use the money in my piggy bank to go buy you some pills to feel better" and I want better than that for my babies. Their father is in recovery from meth and has been clean for techincally 2 1/2 years nows. But I really have no support other than my kids to do this. But heres to the start to the first day of the rest of my life sober
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Hi there, I am so inspired by ur posts. And so interested in how u guys are doing in your recovery now?  
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Day 4.... I'm feelling so much better my legs aren't hurting I slept a whole 8 hrs last night it was restful didn't wake up and it felt so good. I feel like the old me before addiction I even feel modivated to do some housework. I'm going to go clean my living room right now. God I love being pill free and I never thought I would say that. Thank you everyone on this site its you guys who got me where I'm at now. I truly have alot of love and respect for you guys. were all one big happy recovery family on here
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thank you guys I'm doing it so far I made it to the grocery store which is a big thing for me and all by myself didn't get much but my kids have meals for the next week easy stuff like hamburger helper pbnj lunch meat for sandwhichs frozen pizzas and their personal favs hot dogs mac n cheese & cereal. Found out I have lost 20 lbs in a month which is not good for me. I look sick and now I'm not eating so I got some crackers 7 up and plain pasta noodles so i can force myself to eat and some instant cream of wheat so I think I'm doing everything right. And my room mate is making me a t bone steak with a baked potatoe n cottage cheese cuz i don't care how upset my stomach is and how crappy I feel I gotta eat some of that. lol. And I found something that is going to help with my withdrawls and its not a pill or even a susbtance its what I call speed therpy... I have always loved driving/riding....love to ride my four wheeler at the dunes or on my motocross track in my back yard well I am going to start riding my bike every day it helps me feel better or driving my car with my music turned up loud bass bumpin it just makes life seem so much nicer. I didn't hurt today while I was driving the half hour drive to town I sang or rapped along with my music even danced a lil... and even smiled... now as I sit on my bed typing to my new friends I have music going and singing/rapping to some T.i. Young Jeezy and I feel good not paying attention to my hurting I can't wait for my kids to get home my father in law is buying my daughter a new four wheeler because for our rewards for being clean we got new four wheelers my boyfriends raptor was fixed upon his soberity. Mothers day I was bought a raptor 700 to get back on to stay clean but can't ride til I have 60 days clean so I got til July 1st and we have a trip to the dunes planned to celebrate. but I have my old bike still and as soon as my daughter gets home were takin our bikes out backand she gets to ride her new one were going to race and get muddy cuz its rainning but I will be happy not hurting
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You are doing amazing!! The poster above made some good suggestions, maybe try those to see if it helps with the sleep? If not maybe you could ask your doc for something to temporarily aid you in getting a few zz's. But whatever you decide know that it will get better and soon! Hang in there, you are doing great!! Huge props to you for doing this. Whenever you get down look at those wonderful kids of yours and it will help you strengthen your resolve. You can do this and you ARE doing it!!
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You are doing a great job. Keep on thinking of how FREE you will feel from this! Is there anything you can take, maybe Advil-PM or Benadryl that would make your drowsy enough to fall asleep. When you are trying to fall asleep I would make sure you turn the TV off and have no distractions so that you can clear your mind.

I don't know if I would take the Gabapentin (Neurontin) b/c it really changes the chemicals in your brain.  Changes your thought process and can have horrible physical side effects such as back pain, nausea and/or vomiting. But it can make you feel drowsy... I think the negative may out number the positive.

Good Luck! Hang in there! You are doing awesome!
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ugh today is hard I feel like Ive been ran over I need a lil sleep some how to cope I know I could do this if I could just sleep some how. I'm one of those people requires alot of sleep or I sit and cry none stop. I'm really trying not to use my gabapetin and haven't yet but its getting harder I want to just sleep one night
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HI glad to see your still hanging in there keep it up YOU CAN DO THIS its just going to take some perseverance right now "you just have to be ok without being ok for a wile"
the physical symptoms will pass in a few days and you will no loger be chained to a pil bottle...keep up the hot baths...thats what helped me the most...you may want to try
some whey protein shakes....its full of vitamins and amino acids as well as the protein
all of witch the brain needs to heal....you can get it at walmart for 12bucks for a 2lb can
the chocolate flavor is good you just mix it with milk...I drink 2 a day and noticed a big improvement in how I felt after a few days right now just try to hang in there and know what your feeling is only temporary good luck and God bless.....Gnarly    
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I'm hanging in there still trying feeling like death but not giving in trying herbal things for comfort taking valerian root for the rls and hot epson salt baths. I feel like I have been ran over by a truck. I have been toying with the idea I have a rx that I quit taking cuz of a med change but I have 600 gabapetin and I was told it will help with wd but I feel like its replacing my addiction with another one. ugh I need some sleep thank you so much for caring this site is what is keeping me going
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Just wondering how your doing? Let us know. I've been praying for you and hope to hear from you soon.
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I will be honest I had days before i just wanted to die but my injuries aggravate my withdrawls. I really think its best to quit cold turkey I found when I tapered down I would get more and put if off. I picked today to stop because it 2 big days for our family my daughters 8th birthday, and also her dad got into some trouble through his meth addiction and did some prison time and is serving post prison supervision and he will get off on this date in 2 years.  and now a third date this is my birthday day. for me the worst symptoms are the body aches (my legs) and I can't sleep at all but once its done I'll control my life again not the pills man I can't wait. I'm going to actually drive 2 hrs to go to an oxford meeting tonight with my kids dad I think it will be good. I'm considering getting into an oxford house also. Its done wonders for his recovery has anyone else experienced recovery through there?
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Hello. ! just read your posts and feel inspired to stop. I just found this website the other day. I take about 10 norcos(325/1000 mg of vicodin) per day. If I can get my hands on it, I take oxycodone. I finally came to terms with my addiciton and I am so scared to stop but I want to so badly!! Can I slowly cut down and then completely stop? How bad are the withdrawals? I was planning on fully stopping on memorial day wkend. I will have 3 days to deal with the muscle aches and flu like symptons. I can't take off of work. Can you work while going through withdrawals? Thank you for listening and it was nice to read your posts! Good for you and stay strong!
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my dose was low but it was 8 times a day. I would honestly say I'm more addicted I would buy them I used to spend my last bit of money on pills and if i couldn't find them anything would do. I am the typical pill addict is what my dr told me.. the only thing Im having a hard time keeping busy I just want to lay in bed I hurt so bad and yet I can't sleep at all. Thank you I have been reading alot on here and I do see alot of people are going through it. I just wish I could get some energy. I start coaching my daughters softball team next week its going to be tough but she told me its the best birthday ever cuz we flushed them down the toilet to start off her 8th birthday this morning. And tomorrow we start single mothers in recovery through her school which is her softball team also so I think I got it right this time I've never made it a postive thing before it was always cuz I was out and couldn't find them
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HI welcome to the forum you came to a good place for help and support doing this...on the bright side your dose is low only 15mg but you have been on it long enough to become dependent on it so you will go thew withdrawals...one thing you need to do is get fear out of the equation .....detoxing is the solution to the problem and shouldn't be feared
go into this with a win win attitude its 1/3 physical 2/3 mental so a strong positive attitude will make it a bit eazer get use to the saying...''you just got to be ok without being ok for a wile" you sound like you have done this b/4 each time is different so dont read anything into it ...at least you kinda know what to expect take it one day at a time even one hr at a time ..try to stay bizzy it will keep your mind off how bad you feel...take long hot baths if you can they relieve a lot of the symptoms and relax you...YOU CAN DO THIS...many here have and if you look around by reading post you will probably find someone that is exactly where you are it helps to buddy up with someone if you can ...at least you'll know your not alone doing this...drink pleanty of fluids and keep posting for support we will be out here to help you thew this good luck and God bless.....Gnarly        
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-I pretty much know what to expect for I've done it off and on before and I know what to expect for some reason though it seems my physical sympothoms last time lasted two weeks and I gave in i don't have any close friends at all for I chose to cut ties with all of them they are all actively using and if I'm going to change I can't have them but I will have the two guiding forces my kids which is what I need cuz when the wd get hard and I want to give up I need them to remind me its for them and my self. I have no more pills at all in the house I have flushed them all down the drain. The only meds I will be taking are my rls/migraines meds topamax and my anti depressant/rls med noritripilyne.
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I am now in day 11 of my wd from 15 mg immediate release oxycodone, the same dosage level as you.  However, I had used it for only 5 weeks after having knee replacement surgery, so the total exposure circumstances are not quite the same.

Even though I am not one of the expert practitioners on this site who have helped so many people, including me, I have learned a lot from my experience and these experts. I will simply list major points below that I have learned. It really helps to know ahead of time what to expect.

1. There is no way out, no other choice. You must get off the pills. Flush them down the toilet now - or even better: give it to a nurse who can safely dispose of it in a biohazard container.

2. Yes, it is very important you find at least one friend or relative - somewhere who is willing to visit you daily to help support you and help you stay connected with humanity.

3. Everyone's wd is different, but there is some rough generalities that usually hold true with this kind of addiction. First 5-6 days all the physical symptoms occur with days 3-4 often being the worst. You can easily find lists of the symptoms on the net. Towards the end of this period, the physical symptoms all go away and a second period of psychological symptoms appear: waves of depression and axiety. This second phase lasts another 4-7 days. By Day 14, you should be pretty much O.K., feeling normal.

4. During the depressions, be as active and as busy as you can and see your friends as often as you can. If you can get outside of your apt/house, do so as much as possible. Exercise is great because it produces endorphins that reduce the depression. Get into the sunshine whenever you can.

5. After day 14, you will likely still have some lack of energy and physical fitness (get tired or winded quickly from doing physical work). This will slowly all go away.

6. If you are still depressed by day 14, then you need to go to your doctor who can help adjust your brain chemistry to overcome it.

So, right now, my depression phase is very close to being gone. I am almost there to normalcy. So I hope these tips can help you make it, too. All the best.

- toketeeman

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