This morning when11:00am came along the most substance induced feeling I have ever felt happened and put me into a paralyzed state. Something happened where I passed out in my bed with my laptop in my lap and was frozen there with no muscle control or ability to move myself around and it was all against my will for about 6 hours. I kept hearing my phone go off, the tv. computer sounds, etc. but nothing would fully wake me up or allow me to budge. I couldn't pull myself together to wake up.It was the strongest feeling of being drugged I have EVER experienced. Freakishly, I LOST MY EYE SIGHT.. WTF DOES THAT MEAN? I literally couldn't see the tv, the computer, anything.. I'd try to just use one eye, or the other, glasses on, glasses of, nothing mattered.. vision was extremely tunneled and as blurry as can be. Again, it was the most drugged and substance induced I have ever felt in my life and believe me I've put a sedative or two in me before as I'm sure we all have. Luckily when I was spending 10 minutes closing one eye, opening the other with hopes to see and handling my phone to use it then it rang, it was my mother. I was able to barely speak to her.. it took like 5 minutes to tell her a basic sentence. And, then I started to arise out of my funk.. I have never done g or k, but i'm sure that's what a K hole is like. She motivated me enough to go walk my dogs quickly as they needed to pee, but then it was back to passing out.. I mean, I was waking up with chips in my mouth that I hadn't chewed because I unexpectedly passed out too soon. Talk about a spontaneous pass out..
So, the dilemma!! Is this my Suboxone I just started? Is it too strong? Too weak? Am I adjusting, etc. OR, is there still opiates running through my system and this was all a result of the antagonist (naloxone or something like that) effect of Suboxone. Either way, I need to know.. that was messed up, and I feel it's about to happen again any minute right here tonight.
My main symptoms for the day were not being able to walk strait, excessive sweating, slurred speech, spontaneous pass out, tunnel vision or no vision, pain.
Basically, what scares me is that I might as well have been strapped down to my bed blindfolded.. because that is how it felt for 6 continuous hours today. Only thing that is stoppoing remission to that state is communicating with others regardless of how I'm sitting here fading in and out.
PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS.
Thank you community and friends. I'm here for you too.