No Choice but to CT off vicodin and soma... Any help?

[adriansmommy]

According to everyone's advice on my first post... I shouldn't CT soma? Financially and otherwise, I have no choice but to CT off of both, I have only two somas left, and I am saving them for tonight so that I might sleep at least a lil bit tonight... I just swallowed my last lortab....  I am so terrified of this, but know that is has to be done... Does anyone on here have experience coming off of a cocktail of both these medications WITHOUT a drs help? I need honesty of what to expect, and a time length I'm looking at... I have a one year old son that I have to look after no matter how bad I feel... Thank you all so much for the help!

[adriansmommy]

Thank you so much! That's just what I needed to hear this morning!

[gnarly_1]

HI and yes I do.....i was up in the high country 7800ft and did some serious hiking that day I was in the process of weening off methadone and was down around 20mg....no one ever told me physical exertion could cause you to metabolize all your methadone and 20mg was bearly holding me over it was a Christians mens retreat and I was in a rustic cabin with 8 other guys.....went to bed at 10  right about 1am I woke up in full withdrawals my body was cunvusing my heart was ready to pound out of my chest I was in the worst panic attack of my life.....I dident know what to do at first I thought something went horably wrong with me physically so I hit the shower room for what seamed like hrs and just let the water rush over me it did bring some comfort it also cleared my head enough to figure out what was causing this so I took my morning dose around 2am it took an hr to hit but then everything calmed down.....I had my share of withdrawals b/4 I came off 150mg and you go in and out of withdrawals along the way but nothing this sever it really put a deep fear in im of what I had to come....after all this was 20mg and I was still on it how bad was my final withdrawal going to be that day came oct 18 2009 it was a sunday I was at church and broke down b/4 God I told him I had been threw all the withdrawals I could stand and asked him to spare me this final withdrawal ....although it wasn't pleasant by any means I wasn't throwing up or convusing had every other symptom but those where the 2 I ask him to spare me of and to this day I believe he did so the answer to your question is yes I know exactly what it like also know the horors of tapering methadone down to 1mg I was dope sick for 6 weeks b/4 I quit.....my addiction came with an awful cost but it was so so worth every night up every cramp in my stomach all the restless legs even the cunvusions to get where im at today......YOU CAN DO THIS no one said it would be ez but we will all tell you it is worth it hang in there and dont give up the fight  remember its all about attitude do this for you do it for your son but just do it and become free good luck and God bless......Gnarly      

[adriansmommy]

Is it horrible of me to say that the thought of that terrifies me? I know I need to do it, and will, but it still scares the daylight out of me, do you know that feeling?

[gnarly_1]

HI.......dont let one step backward ruin this for you so you F/up ....a lot of people do tring this for the first time you got a lot on your plate if you can hang for 31hr you can do this you just let the mind games win..as I have said b/4 this is 2/3 mental and it is defentlly one or lost in ones own mind this next time around you wont falter you will hit the E/R for some meds to help with this not everybody makes it out of this there first time it takes work you got to want it bad.....so bad your wiling to go threw anything to get there...so dust your self off and pick up where you left off in the few hr of releife the pills you took will bring you ....you will have set yourself back but not as far as you think your still in the ball game just had a foul ball keep posting and whatever you do post b/4 your thinking of using we can still help get you threw this good luck and God bless,,,,,Gnarly  btw get rid off all the pills in the house!!!!!

[adriansmommy]

Thank you, I looked at the Thomas recipe and would love to have the luxury of using it, but I simply cannot get away from my household duties or taking care of my son, I would kill for a hot tub and a week long daytime babysitter...

[worried878]

A few more days..hang tight
think of it as the flu and baby urself.  make a list of all of the reasons u dont wanna do this again, the issues using causes u.  I would imagine the bad outweighs the good
Make a pan to stay clean..aftercare rox! As does the thomas recipe in the health pages.  Make a plan....make a back up plan too!

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