Not a question, but Thinking of picking a Quit date - Oxycontin

[candothis247]

Ok I’m having a bit of a struggle here…. Yesterday I went off my taper plan and chomped in to a 20 mg oxy mid day…. Got what I wanted… then I got super tired, went to bed, woke up in withdrawals. I postponed my a.m. dose this morning and I’m staring back on the plan, where I left off on Thursday, hopefully 25 mg /day, until I can reduce by 5mg again. I’m thinking it might be time to pick a quit date to CT.  I was thinking July 3rd. I don’t work from July 3-July 7, that’s 5 days…. I’m afraid to commit….. But I see other people picking dates….  

[candothis247]

wow moon -- 3 days and your're feeling better, that's encouraging. keep us posted on how you're doing. good luck. good job.

[candothis247]

I just re-read your post and everything you say makes sense about being mentally ready. I sound like I’m chickening out here and now asking myself if I am an addict… wow, I guess I need to quit to see if I can quit. I have a list of stuff to do before this becomes a reality. The number one thing I have to do is get the pills out of the house. Then I have to read that Thomas recipe, what milligram clonidine should a person take I have a bottle of .02 mg clonidine, how often? I also have ativan, but would valium or klonipin be better. In any event, I have some homework to do….. To prepare…. But I’m nervous and I do have to stay in the present moment, but I can get my quit care package ready! that would be a step in the right direction. thanks for your post

[candothis247]

Thanks for your responses to my alleged quit date.  Yea well, now that I’ve picked that quit date, it’s causing me major angst! So, I’ve decided “one day at a time” here! I keep thinking of Friday, July 3rd, and going CT off these oxys that day, and it’s making me crazy. So, Kevin, yea, I know what you mean about the anxiety about a quit date. I can’t think that far out. So when that day arrives, I may quit, but I’m not going say to myself that I must quit that day. Maybe I’ll quit before that day or after that day.  We’ve got some pretty understand people here and some pretty straight shooters, I guess I see my taper no different that the people tapering of suboxne when they get down to the little sliver that I’ve read about here, I dunno…..  Worried, I do keep asking myself, how am I managing to stay on this taper almost 50 days now… I totally have stuck to it, except for last Friday…. All I know is that I’ve been pretty careful on these pills the entire time as prescribed, I know they are dangerous and I’ve never been fiendish, but I did get addicted or dependant??? I was taking 80-120 mg oxys per day for 2 years, they made me sick and feel terrible, in every way possible.  I’m confused now. Kevin I have a pill cutter and I cut oxy 20 mg into 4 pieces and take 8 am, 11 am, 3 pm 7 pm and 11 pm…. It is odd…or different, I guess, but that is how I’m doing it. Thanks again for everyone's kind support and stories!

[worried878]

it takes a really disciplined person to taper..even most cant taper off cigarettes...they end up doing ct or nicotine replacement to get off...many//well not many cos i havent seen many successfully taper//but they r often dependent vs addicts,,addicts have no power over their doc...be it alcohol or heroin...it is sumpin they have lost control over and trying to taper makes u realize how little control u do have when it comes to ur doc..admitting it is often the first step to getting clean and i do think tapering/or trying to/can definitely help u quit cos u definitely realize u r an addict and have no power over a little frickin pill ...and for some this is a good self starter..to get moving in the forward direction

picking a good time to quit..time off..a low stress time...or whatver can be important cos at that point u will have NO pills to take unless u try to keep some//just in case u fail//and if u keep em then often u will fail//which is also why tapering fails //cos u gottem right there in front of u....anyway on QUIT day u have no pills...u have gotten urself mentally ready and stocked up on things u will need...ur plan is put into action and u go for it....having a quit day makes it real....and many say they cant get off work to quit//that losing their job would result etc..but in the end they will probably lose much more than a job if they keep moving in the backward direction by using..losing urself is not worth any job and in reality//people get sick and have to miss work...have seen some do it while working tho i took a 4 day weekend so 2 days off work to do it..and there is never a good time to do this...so if u r thinkin bout it now then the sooner the better cos motivation can be lost so quickly...hang tight and let us know ur quit day

[moonshyne]

I'm on day 3 CT from oxys. I snorted 40-60 mg a day and although the first 48 hours were pure hell, today I'm feeling a little better. Tapering didn't work for me. I had to go cold turkey but everyone's different.

[Kevin_Bacon]

Exactly, worried. I'm getting so jumpy about Friday, I'm not even keeping track of what I'm taking -- it's bizarre. I may have to get a few more, which is, asyou so clearly put it, humiliating, and if I c/t at over 100mg, I've convinced myself I'll go nuts and end up in a hospital, where I'll be treated like a piece of ****. Besides, I really have to keep this one quiet, or things get really complicated.

Already looking at Friday as unrealistic ...

As an intelligent, well-educated, empathetic person, I feel like a fool, which is accurate.

[worried878]

and above,,,20 mgs is not huge..but u r trying to stop this..and if u r an addict then tapering can be pure he11...for me it was..i kept trying over and over,,,would get really disappointed with myself cos i would even end up taking more than my norm whe n i was tapering alone...sy i would go 3 days at 30 mgs less than my dose and then i one day i would make up for it!...for me/and much my opinion and not anyone elses..if u wanna find out whether u r an addict or not/try and taper on ur own//it is a humiliating experience for most...i even handed my pills over cos i picked a QUIT./10 day taper til my weekend off..was so sick and tired of being sicjk and tired so the taper was virtually useless/ really just waited on my 4 day weekend//was a 100 mg a day hydro user/80 mgs would get me by if i had too...and guess what?  LOL  I cheated the whole time i was tapering /but/ i still knew where to get pills..my friend was holding them and doling them out daily...but if i wanted more/i could get more//i was so so so relieved when QUIT day came..cos i was so so so tired..sometimes having a plan/writing it out/trying ur best to stick to it/then trying ur hardest not to beat urself up about it///til QUIT day comes along...and that is ur day//everything else leads to QUIT day/'//cos it is part of ur plan..keep posting

[Ernie_420]

20mg/day is not that much.  I was doing over 150 a day and couldn't ween off.  Try the suboxon.  It is much easier to come off of.  It is better and really works for some people.  You have to go to the dr to get but if u follow instructions it will work.  It is impossible to ween off.  Try something different because you will keep pushing your date back

[Kevin_Bacon]

So, have you made a decision? Your quit date gives you three weeks -- the way you're going (the 20mg/day regimen), do you think you can lower your intake any further?

Have you settled back into your regular intake? It was the most minor of slips, at least from here ...

[Kevin_Bacon]

Same story here -- but I'm still trying to get away from 100mg., and the things are really making me sick now ... days off, in a way, are worse, even though I can sleep till whenever. I start work early, and just getting through 8 hrs of this boring job requires at least 60mg. Then I get home, and like to stay awake for a reasonable amount of time.

This morning, after an intestinal fun-fest yesterday, I hurt all over. I smoke so much, I can hardly breathe.

I'm tentatively looking at next Saturday, if I can get two days off work. Have to decide how much to pick up ... stop counting the $$$ a long time ago. These things are the greatest thing until they're a 24-hour nightmare.

Good luck -- you really have to pick a quit date, and find the best opportunity. You're down to 20mg, so I'd bet the farm you're successful. Just the fact that you're beating yourself up on a minor increase shows you've got it under control. How the heck do you split up a 20, and when do you take the little pieces? It would be very helpful for me to know how you got to where you are.

[avisg]

I had a quit date it was very helpful for me I set it in my mind this was my last day of taking pills  and I stick to it .....I would try it