Wow I loved reading this!! What an inspiration you are and thank you! T hi is is one heck of a group of people on this board. Unbelievable how amazing everyone here is<3
That's awesome Selfinduced. I actually had to read it myself today, as I'm feeling tired and cranky, wishing I had more energy. I started to blame the world for my lack of energy and for my being an addict. The support on this thread brought me back to earth...Still my fault, but at least today I'm the one in control...
Surrender
Help
Patience
Have a great evening!
Had to bump this up for anyone starting out or needing an affirmation. Love this post!
Thanks brother. There's nothing Hallmark about me that's for sure. I'm a little more "real and cutting". I'm glad you like my posts. I've been wondering what I was going to be good at when I grew up....Sadly it took 15 years of suffering to grow up. At 40 I'm just starting to feel human again.
Thanks again!
Bad Co, you have a rare gift: you can write words of inspiration without sounding like a Hallmark card. Thank you.
Beautiful--a keeper for sure.
Hey fallingapart, I'm no Dr, or therapist, but for me I just had to blast through it. It was miserable, but tolerable. I too had to work through most of the w/d's (After the first week). It sucked, not gonna lie. Everyone thought I had a "flue" but it wasn't fun. But I made it. Minute by minute. Patience. Don't look at the week, look at the hour. Go one hour at a time. You can and will do this. It's been done by thousands of people already. There are vitamins and foods you can take to help with the energy, but I don't think anything will ever give you the energy during the w/d's that you'd expect for your drug of choice. This might be one of those "truth is gonna hurt" posts, but it may be what you need to hear? Sadly I don't think a pill is going to fix this one. Your resilience and strength will. When you plow through this you too will feel like a warrior that will never have to fight a tougher fight in your lifetime. Once you're on the other side you will feel so good about yourself that you will be proud to show your battle scars. You then can post about how proud you are of yourself, and maybe help the next sufferer?
I'm curious just starting to detox and wonder how do I get past the tired feeling? When I tried to detox before I felt so tired and hopeless and unable to move. I took 2 es's and bounced back I dont wanna be tired cause I have to work but I dont want to keep taking these damn things!
Beautifully written; you are an inspiration! I am almost 2 months clean after a 7 year affair with Vicodin! Sometimes I still get so frustrated and all I can think about at times is a darn pill-sad. This site has been my saving grace; the fact that strangers, sight unseen, care so much is indescribable! I found it at 2 days cold turkey when I thought I was alone with only my friend, the devil. But lo and behold, people not only cared, they had been there and had came so far. There is nothing like real empathy. I am very happy for you; keep up the great work :-)
Thank you, your words really hit home, I to have a son whose eyes I look into and want to cry, he has no idea I have this problem, this demon that lives in his mama, he deserves so much more then who I am today.im so happy for you. Share more of your story please, so many of us are so scared to even begin. Stay strong.
Amazing post, it was such a privilege to read, thank you!
Bad company
Always on the run
Destiny
Is the rising sun
I look foward to your post.. we're neck in neck..we are a special breed of people. .. I recommit every morning, even not being completely well my day's are waaay better than searching,counting, and lining up the next fix. godbless
That was such a well articulated post...you inspire me. Your words definitely hit a home run. Many blessings~
Hey All- Thanks for al the comments. I just wanted to share my experience to date. I'm in unchartered waters here. Almost a month clean, sober and proud. I feel okay without having to get high to come to work, visit some friends, go to my son's games (how pathetic that makes me feel to type). I can actually go to the grocercy store without a pocket full of "evil". What a feeling of pure joy. I have so much work and time ahead of me, I know. I know I will be challenged when I least expect it, so I have to remember to put my armor on every morning before I get out of bed. I have to be ready for anything. reading all your responses has given my confidence another gear.
Hell, today is Saturday and I came in to work to actually get ahead for Monday (I forgot that was an option) . 1 month ago today I would've got up this morning, lied to my wife that I coming into work and my hunt for pills would be on....I would be out until I found and then i would crawl back home and count out to see how long I had before my next hunt....Almost crying thinking how painful and devestating that lifestyle had become. This afternoon my N/A group is having a BBQ. I can't fathom attending one of those just a few weeks ago....
Thanks again for all your strength and inspiration.
Addicts are a special breed of people with a constitution that is stronger than iron and hearts bigger than life. I am so proud to be in the midst of so many powerful, intellegent, compassionate, loving, addicts.
Very amazing post many people are trly going to feel good after reading this Thank you for posting this keep pushing and staying positive I am pulling for you and Congrats on taking your life back :)))))
Big High Five!
Awesome!! So inspiring. Thank you
Love ur post.congrats on25days.I know to those who r not addicts may not realize how huge that is but we all do.I know my1st week&month were bigger than my1yr point.After so long it becomes our lives gerting high so we have to learn to live a different life and its a little overwbelming but its worth it.Keep on track,keep n touch,keep up the great work&thank u for encouraging others:-)
That bottom for you is a very personal experience. It is the moment of truth.....at no time did I see more clearly than in that place....
Thanks for sharing your expereince, strength and hope with us.
Free~
Thank you for posting ,very inspiring i wish i could type out exactly how i felt you just nailed it.I am at 27 days today and life is starting to get better.GREAT POST
:) congratulations friend. Makes my heart smile to see another fellow addict finding the light. God bless!
I quess I''ll just hafta keep bumping this up...
does anyone know how to hit.....best answer !
Hi Bad Co , Congrat's on Day #25
Wow , Well said , Made me proud of all of us who fight so hard .
My day #22 no norco , is just about like yours , feeling pretty good But i could never find the words for a post like yours . You have a gift , Thank you Bad Co you made my day ... Ron