Now 10 days clean off opiates

Question

People who've I talked to about how bad my anxiety is and the worrying stuff that it feels like border line heart attacks, tell me to take a little bit of xanax whenever it gets unbarable. So doing NA I tell them I'm not doing any mind alterning substances not even weed I've been completly clean and have had a bumpy mental emotional war. But yesterday I woke up its always the worst in the morning so I take a half a xanax which comes to .50mg or .25 can't remember exactly now and it helped a lot. I never felt high but my heart quit hurting and I wasn't so anxious so that was all I wanted from it. Which is what it's prescribed for anyways I took another half around bed when it got bad again so taking my 2nd half .25mg making it .50mg for the day and I had the best sleep I've had in forever. So woke up this morning and anxiety is bad but not umbareable to where I need to take it today. So if I use a little for anxiety would my group frown upon me? I know people can swap addiction and these can be addicting even if your not using them to get high. But does anyone think I can save these last 6 of .50mg?fot emergencies like the other day! I would love to have them in case it keeps happening durring the w/d. What do YALL think?

jifmoc · Answer

Right after we come off opiates, anxiety is at an all time high. Detox makes you feel like you're coming out of your skin. AND we are not used to feeling because we've been numbing for so long. It's going to take a lot longer than 10 days. You're going to need to find news ways of dealing w/ life that don't include substances. Meetings, exercise, being honest, talking to other addicts...all are the tools to get there.   Yes, taking benzos is dangerous: we're addicts. Don't know if you've gotten a sponsor yet, but I'd talk about it w/ him, too.

Austinupwards92 · Answer

Well I think it's day 15 but possibly 14, im doing better with the severe panic attacks. I think they were more related with health issues rather than withdrawal. Cause I've w/d from opiates before never had that. Like I said this time I didn't feel any w/d it was weird maybe I didn't get addicted this go round and it was just habit to take them sometimes idk. So Ya then around day 9 just severe panic attacks I took xanax wich really helped. Talked to the doctor about it all after keeping it quite from medical people all my life. I haven't actually taken the xanax in 2 days cause the panic attacks seem to have gone away though my morning anxiety is still really bad it's managable now. So I gave them to my girlfriend she hid them and I went to another meeting today. Told them about it they said I did the right think I treated a problem the right way and didn't abuse it and then gave them away. iF ONLY I had done that with vicodin. what scares me the most is I have been clean for a good duration of time before talking myself into taking one for fun cause you've been doing great! I feel it's only natural for a human to want some sort of stimulant or surpressent from time to time. Even if it's drinking or having your nighttime cig. once we've done good in life wether it was a task or life goal we want toast a glass of champaigne or

motye51 · Answer

I think this is one of the best threads I've read in a long time!!!

gnarly_1 · Answer

Hi Austin.....how your doing today???? congrats on getting clean ....your body/mind will stabilize eventually it just takes time.....as for getting help both N/A and A/A have great programs and there free....just google a N/A meeting in your area and go......with time and working the steps you will eventually loose the very desire to use....this is something that both programs promise and im living proof....as for being former addicts there is no such thing once a addict always a addict....I have been clean for a wile now....and the ''monkey may be off my back but the circus is still doing fine and well in my head.....this is a disease and like all disease it needs to be treated.....we do recover but your still stuck with the ''addict'' in our heads...we will always be a work in progress but when you truly find recovery it is a beautiful thing......time to get out of your comfort zone and do something pro/active about your disease.....get to a meeting....even if you dont speak just listen..... for most of us you soon realize your not alone in the way you think..most of us have been lacking the coping skills to do life on lifes terms both programs will help give you structure and a way out of what I call the ''mind screw'' of this disease.....just ask any member here with some clean time under there belt....you will find most work a program it is a ez solution if your honest with yourself.....relapse can happen to any one of us.....once you get clean the fist thing I recamend is thanking God that your binge dident kill you keep posting here for support we all want to see you get well
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Gnarly<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

jifmoc · Answer

Meetings. Go to lots of meetings. And get a sponsor.

Austinupwards92 · Answer

So I talked to my doctor and told him Ive been abusing hydro's for awhile and I got clean for almost a year and relasped for 6-8 months. Now I'm here on day 11 clean and I told him I've been completly clean until the day before yesterday. He asked you relasped again? I said no the w/d wernt that bad far as cravings for the DOC I have a craving to feel some high but that it was because of my anxiety heart. But I took a .50mg xanax a day and it helped me get through the day and helped with the sleep too. He told me don't up your dosage, take it one time a day if you have panic attacks. Try not to do it everyday and wrote me a script for 20 1mg aprolozam. Then said that he wouldn't give me another script and how important it is to not try to take this drug for more than a few weeks at a time at most. So I guess he thought it was okay for the time being while I w/d. Ofcourse I still feel the w/d constant urge to want to get high and irratable. So as former addicts what's your personal opinions I mean Ive heard don't use another drug to help deal with the issue. Though I just feel like if it can help me get through some of these opiate w/d then why not?

Austinupwards92 · Answer

No caffeine nor supplements, never liked coffee or anything. I've only ever done ecstasy like 3 times about 5 years ago. I got addict to hydro's and got clean for almost a year I just smoked weed from time to time. Then when my dad died and I had money I relasped went on a 6-8 month binge and here I am. I just never had so much anxiety in my life to where my stomach hurts. Sorry about the rambling.

Austinupwards92 · Answer

Am I just prolonging the agony? Cause I these last few mornings are like panic attacks I've never dealt with in my entire life. I guess I was thinking I would take it if it's bad like that until I can wake up and not have a heart attack. I just worry about becoming dependent I don't like the drug personally and don't feel high off it and in no way am I abusing it. Though once an addict Im told I might abuse anything. Just curious to what YALL think

Austinupwards92 · Answer

I've been taking centrum daily for men, I never lost my appetite so I still eat the same. Been drinking a lot of water and still get out handling my things but not actually going to run or workout. I just wake up with the worse panic attacks and I know I can't lay down to it eases up so I oanic more to the point my heart just hurts. I took .25mg of alprozolam and it helps then im okay enough to do what I need, just don't want to be doing anything. I couldn't afford a therapist so that's kind of out if the equation. But at night I start getting scared cause I know what awaits me in the morning.

dominosarah · Answer

Are you getting any exercise?  Staying away from caffeine?  That all adds to anxiety.  Are you taking any supplements/vitamins?

Soulscapex · Answer

I would go talk with a therapist , they can teach of ways of dealing with panic attacks and anxiety without meds. I use to be real bad , couldnt leave the house at times, but with the help of a therapist , i found ways to deal with them. Congrats on your 10 days , but i wouldnt keep using the benzos.