OMG someone help fast ,, This is bad and im so scared

[LexiDoodle01]

Im sorry to bother you all after all the support you have given me , I am scared to death , I cant get my refill to taper till tomorrow and I dont have any and am not going to get any from friends, My whole body hurts and Im cold cold cold. My stomach is cramping like something awful and to tell you the truth im just scared because this has never happened. How did I get like this? My husband is playing with the kids, they are watching a movie and he is keeping them in the other room while im like this . Please someone tell me im going to be ok ?? I am wondering if I should just fight this and not pick them up tomorrow? I have to get this done im sick of being sick , Just a little scared and I need my new momma you know who you are !!!!! HELP

<3 to you all
Lexi

[Hope58]

It gets better each day. I am on day 6. You can do it...

[sue41]

Still praying for you girl.  Hang in there, you are going to make it.  :)

[cathy5841]

glad you are doing so good lexi.  and rest is a wonderful thing.  stay strong and its good you are not getting the pills.  one are one smart lady
much luv
cathy

[LexiDoodle01]

Im not getting pills, Im actually doing great this morning , Yesterday was rough, I slept all night and today is day 2 ~! Im fighting this fight as hard as I can

thank you all so much for the support

<3 you all
Lexi

[scottt]

dont fill the scrip 1 pill leads to another and 1 scrip also leads another! Dont have them around for a rainy day! I PROMISE it will rain the min. tou get that pill!!!!!! STAY STRONG!

[sue41]

If you are truly serious about this, you can take it one step further.  I typed a letter stating that I did not want to be prescribed any form of narcotic (pain med, cough syrup, etc) and that I also not be given any benzo's or sleeping pills.  My husband and I took a copy of this letter to every doctor in town and ask to be kept on my chart.  We live in a small town so there were only a few.  This has made me feel stronger.  I also put the stipulation that if something terrible was to happen and I needed any of the above meds, that my husband would be called first and he would take the prescription and give them to me as prescribed.

Good Luck and God Speed!

[persnick38]

Way to go on cancelling the script. You've got a great support system at home and here. You can do this!

[PromisedLand]

If I may, at the risk of overstating it, see if your doctor will prescribe you some clonidine.  It's a blood pressure med and has been found to help tremendously with withdrawl.  TAKE IT ONLY AS YOUR DOCTOR PRESCRIBES IT, usually .1mg 2 or 3 times/day.  I used it and it was a great help at getting me off of vics and I've now been off for 6 months..I felt relieve within a couple hours of taking my first one and I was able to work the next day.  If you get it, pick up a couple bags of hard candy to suck on as clonidine will give you dry mouth and can make you somewhat sluggish (heck, they knocked me right out and I fell asleep on a conference call at work.

You've got some great advice here, and some wonderful people..I know the clonidine and support from FLaddict, and GA Guy and others was a big help.

Good luck and God Bless..and thank your husband for his service..I salute him for that, and for his helping you and your children

Jim

[virgo1969]

It sounds like you are on your way to getting clean. It may feel like you can't make it but you can. It will get better. Drink lots of fluids (no caffiene), get plenty of potassium (eat bananas) to help with the restless legs, and take multi vitamins. Try to get some excersise when you feel like you are able to. It really helps to get the body moving. Melatonin and warm tea to help you sleep. The Thomas Recipe is good. I took Xanax through the rough days. Keep your mind busy and try not to dwell on the pills though your mind will play tricks on yoi with the cravings.

You are strong and you can do this. God bless and good luck!

[LexiDoodle01]

Thats the only thing bothering me ,, that and when Shawn ( aka the husband ) came into the room he said hunny why is the bed wet? I had been sweating like mad !!! Dont know if thats a good thing or not but now my kiddos think that mommy has the FLU =) and my oldest is making mommy some soup ,,, With daddys help! tonight they are watching a movie ! Im truly blessed that I have them and shawn and you all, Its so nice to get on here and not be alone and know that people do understand andwont look down upon me for it

thank you and lots of <3 for each and every one of you

Lexi

[lucyred68]

way to go, Lexi!! I am so proud of you.  the valium will come in handy when the sleep problems start.  also some melatonin, an over the counter nutritional aid, to help with the sleep.  take a good multi vitamin with minerals and aminos, drink lots of gatoraide, eat soft foods and lots of fresh fruits.  get some immodium.  you do need to get it out, but you need to sleep sometime, and the runs kept me sitting on the pot constantly till i got some immodium.  I found that christian tv at night when there weren't many people in here and i couldn't sleep, was a great help. really encouraging to me.  just think of it as a really bad case of the stomach flu.  also, if you have anyone who can go to a health food store for you, have them get you something for the restless leg thing.  the workers at the store will know what to get.  they don't need to know why you need it. there are other reasons for restless legs.  my prayers are with you.

Lucy

[newmanagment]

ya already started w/d's , i agree wit medic...;. just dont pick it up, n ride it out shawtie! ya can do it , sounds like hubby gotcha back, tapering is gonna prolong it, but ya still gonna get hit wit em!! so y not just finish it now? just a thought, but i think if ya dig deep u'll find ya stronger then ya think!!

[LexiDoodle01]

I just woke up ! I said im going to lay down for an hour or so and BAM its 6pm! =) guess I needed it and im thankful for it , Thank you all for keeping the sweet comments coming ! They mean the world , Medic that would be a great motivator , I think that ill leave that to the stonger ones though hehe

<3 you all
Lexi

[usarmymedic1]

I would say pick up the script walk into your house and strieght to the bathroom and flush the whole bottle down the toilit. you want to talk about the mental aspect of it all for alot in here that have done that have said it is a big motivator to do it I did it and I felt great about it and still do...

medic

[flmagi]

Way to go on canceling the script ! hunker down and get this done. Remember when it gets really bad, keep those fluids going. Maybe get your hubby to pick you up some Boost with Protein. You may start to have a hard time eating and drinking (maybe not), but try to eat something light and lots of fluids are needed.  Don't be afraid to take a valium if you need to. Just don't use alot or for to long. Sleep will be a problem.
Good luck girl. Keep posting.
Magi

[toxictome]

you do have more power...and reading on here gives you more knowledge about this stuff...and...KNOWLEDGE IS POWER...and YOU are the one in CONTROL..not the pills!!!

[LexiDoodle01]

Thank you so much ! Everytime I read another post I feel like I have more power

[toxictome]

YOU go Lexi...this is the best gift you can give yourself and your family... a clean wife and mom!! YOU will fee like s**t for the next few days....but remember it will be over soon!!  KEEP YOUR EYE ON THE PRIZE!!!

CONGRATS on cancelling your RX...that shows how determined you are...
when the going gets tough...DIG DEEPand FIND the STRENGTH!!!

Keep your mind occupied with other thigns...watching a movie, putting a puzzle together, etc...PRETEND like you have the flu...and treat accordingly......it is easier thiking it's the flu rather than wds....you will make it!

YOU CAN DO THIS...heck...you ARE doing this!!!      YOU GO GIRL!!!!!

[LexiDoodle01]

I keep coming back because everytime I post I feel a little better, Still have heating pads and sitting here watching my husband dance to make me feel better haha im going to take pictures=)

<3 you all
Lexi

[allaboutmary]

Shotrock is right . If your husband has those pills you might beg him for some and then be mad that he gave them to you. Crazy but thats what us addicts do.   It's probably just best not to have the option. Keep going girl !  We will be here for ya.  

[LexiDoodle01]

We just called the Pharmacy and told them to take that out and that I wasnt going to be getting anymore ! so thats that over and done ! The bath HELPED ALOT ! thank you so much for the info they all help! Im drinking a little Propel and eating lunch im still hungry haha but I eat all the time anyway thats the one thing that would worry me was if i stop eating hehe =)

You are all angels , watching over me and helping me , Michigan and Confused you all have saved me you just dont know how much I got the list and printed the Thomas Recipe to look at , Shawn is going to get Mags and books also and these heating pads are great, Just going to stay here and read post and get through this ! thank you all so much once again
you are earning your wings
<3 Lexi

[NautyOne]

Good Girl..........YOU GO LEXI.......!!!!!!!!!  No sugar coating......its gonna get worse, but doesn't everything before it gets better........keep posting.  I'm not the most gifted with words, but there are many out here that are, and they will get you through this......my dear.  Hang tough!!

Nauty................

[dove3053]

I could never taper, so I went almost ct and it worked for me. I found it was hard but not as hard as I thought it was going to be. Hang in there.

Dove

[Shotrock]

Day 17 here  ( 20 norcos a day ) You can do this your Ready! Do not get those pills- No No No.  It will be worse if your husband has them, his resolve may not be so strong when he watches you suffer. This site is a savior, it saved me. I have been addicted to reading peoples stories since i got on this site, you can tell when people are ready and you my girl are Ready! Do not get those Pills.... don't put your Hubby in that position. My first 5 days whenever it got bad i started repeating... I want my life Back! I want My Life Back! it worked for me cause it was true. Your Ready , looking forward to seeing you on the other side.  God Bless your Life awaits.