I dont know if its menopause, or withdrawals, or a combination of the two. I am so not my myself...I cant seem to get a grip on my mental. I am feeling very very weird, I have been confining myself away from the world, Everything I do seems like a serious task, and takes so much effort, and enery that I dont have. I cant think straight, I feel like Im going crazy or something. I am withdrawing, but I have before and I never had this effect. Maybe I should see a doctor, I think there are test they can take to determine if its menopause too. I wake up in so much depression I dont even want to get up to face the day, I feel shame for no reason, Im just weirded out, I dont do anything all day, but push myself to try to act normal around my family....its not working, Im sure they are starting to notice, something is wrong with me. Im not reacting to anything as I normally would, this is terrible, the state Im in. I dont know or understand what is going on with me, what is actually wrong. I can barely get dressed, I dont even want to. This is horrible.I just read someones post, that stated how they felt from smoking weed.....I am feeling the same way, yet I dont smoke weed, I feel panicked...sweating....flush flashes, my brain is a mess. I need help. Im not suicidal thank god, but I dont want to live like this......I hate it. Im praying my yrs of abusing pain pills didnt damage me forever. I pray to god these feeling sease, I cant take this. Its not me, and I dont know what to do. I would do anything not to feel this way. I am lost. and depressed, and weirded out.