Your right, it is a lot different staying clean in the real world and detox is a safe environment. Is it you that had a pill binge? like 150 or something?
It will get easier, but you have to learn some tools to stay clean. I never believed that until i kept failing over and over. You will get a lot of support here, but if i have your previous post right i think you should talk to someone and seek something more. Reading some posts and talking to people that understand is a start and will do you so much good. Stick around and good luck.
congrats on getting clean...like gizzy said now get some aftercare, remember one daya t a time..staywithus and keep posting...you are an inspiration to those just starting detox...take care my friend