I'm sure you guys are sick of reading the same things over and over again, but bear with me please :)
I'm a 23 year old student who has been hooked on about an average of 200mg of oxy per day for almost three years. It all started when my dad (who is permanently handicapped) offered me a Percocet for a headache years ago. All it took was one. Since, I've continuously used any opiate I can get my hands on daily, but my #1 choice has always been Oxy. It controls my life. Vics and Percs don't even do anything anymore. About half a year into my using the medications for fun (I hate to admit it, but I think I was just doing it because I was depressed), ironically I actually herniated two discs in my lumbar and was actually prescribed the stuff. Amazing how this stuff can affect one's brain in such a way as to feel "lucky" to have a back problem, it's crazy. But anyway, after the injury, I've used pretty much every single day (save for two separate 1-2 week periods where I tried to quit but relapsed). It doesn't help that my dad has a never ending prescription to 15's, 30's, and 60's and he's always shoving them in my face, trying to offer them to me (he's ****** in the head). So the times I HAVE quit, I always go backwards because they're right there in front of me and the temptation is too much. I know the easy solution would be to just "not go home for awhile" but he's handicapped, can't walk, and my family depends on my help a few days out of the week.
Long story short, I'm going to make another honest attempt at quitting these things for good tomorrow. I know I will still have back pain but I just hate hate HATE being completely dependent on something, it's just never been a part of my personality and I'd like to be freed of this for good.
Does anyone have any advice? The worst part for me is usually the restlessness, muscle cramps, and insomnia (I've got some clonazepam and somas I'm going to use but they usually help very little). Should I use a bunch of immodium like I normally do or should I just let my system get everything out? I still really need to go to school and work this week, so I'm hoping I can get through this as quickly as possible (I think I've forgotten how bad it really does get)... And any advice as far as the situation with my dad goes? I'd really really prefer for my family NOT to know I have this issue as they're all really religious and judgmental and I'd just prefer to avoid it, but he has certainly been the main reason I've never gotten completely clean before.
Any foods or drinks that will help me through the first three, inevitably agonizing days?
Any and all advice welcome and thanks in advance!