This drug kills left and right im afraid i might be dead before i can fix that however here is the true facts im addicted to oxycontin at a dose most people would never think of. I do not take methadone or saboxone or any of that. Methadone is the worst one out of all of them. Ive been addicted to this drug for 5 years and in the process i managed to get control of the addiction but still get high. At this point i would do anything to be the old jim that everyone loved however im afraid it wont happen. DO NOT EVERY CHOSE METHADONE FOR GETTING OFF OXY IT WILL KILL YOU FASTER AND IS WAY MORE ADDICTING APPROXIMATELY 12 TIMES HARDER TO GET OFF THEN OXY. Im saying all of this because i know someone out there is listening and i need help every time i try to take it easy i get to manic and suicidal If there was a miracle for me to be normal again i would take it. ive wrecked almost everything close to me and i only got 1 friend left that is stickin with me and hes a true friend however he hates seeing me like this i fall asleep on chairs couches or even at a restaurant and im tired of everyone looking at me thinking what the **** is wrong with this dude. Its too late for me but not for the country these drugs need to be stopped from begin made so many lives have been destroyed from oxycontin including my own. IM REALLY TIRED AND DONT HAVE MUCH LEFT IN ME I LIVE IN COLORADO AND I WISH SOMEONE COULD HERE ME CRY AND BEG GOD TO GET ME THROUGH THIS. THERE IS JUST NOONE LET THIS BE A LESSON TO THOSE WHO HAVE TRIED OR ABOUT TO START TAKING THIS DRUG IT ONLY TAKES 1 TIME THATS ALL IT TOOK FOR ME. IF ANYONE OUT THERE CARES ABOUT WHAT I HAVE TO SAY PLEASE PRAY FOR ME I HAVE MY FAITH YET ITS NOT SO STRONG I CANT LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE IM GETTING CLOSE TO THE END.
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after taking 80mg oxy 3 times a day for 5 years now, i want to be free of this addiction. for several reasons i need to be discreet and find a way to do this at home and without missing time from work.i have been a day without them before i could get more, and it nearly killed me going through withdrawls. does anyone have any remedies, i do have hook ups for other meds if needed. please if you know of anything that can help me conquer this demon. thanks
Yes, Doll--this is a toughie.....You don't say how long you've been together, but it really doesn't matter: an addict will makes his choices according to his drug sense, not his heart sense.....Most therapists would tell you to put your recovery FIRST, at whatever price. I'm not sure I could do that so I certainly am not going to preach it to you. But you must consider it, I think.....Otherwise the result is your partner's life going down the tubes, and yours in the aftermath. Drug addiction only gets worse, as you already know by prophesizing the progression of a few oxys taken right to the crushing and snorting phase...It most assuredly will NOT have a good outcome. And you are correct in sensing that he isn't at all serious about any recovery. I'm afraid you're on your own, here, babe. Do you love him? Does he love you? Would he consider rehab since his at-home attempts don't seem to be succeeding? If the answers to these questions are "yes", then we would hope he would be more inclined to listen to your pleas and do what's best for both of you.
Well, I said a big bunch of nothing and brought to no closer to a solution than before.....:-) TRY to save yourself. You can't do it for him. Much love--Peazy
Thanks for the response. There is no reason he cant stay on the meth. I told him it was probably the best thing for him. Better on his liver and no euphoric feeling that leaves him wanting more. I already know as well as he does that if he got a bottle of oxys from his doc he would go from "swallowing 2@20 mgs per day" as he promises "for legitamate pain" to crushing and snorting 4 80s a day. And there will always be one of his "friends" around to get them from. He's prescribed 280 10mg meth per month. She (his doc)lets him pick what he wants. Gotta hate docs like that. She offered the meth and I told him to grab it so we could detox.(very bad idea)Ive accepted the price and am paying it everyday. So legitly hes supposed to take 3 3 time daily.90mgs per day. You should have seen the pharmacists eyes.That should be enough to fix his aching back(which by the way he hardly ever remembers to complain about)Its almost like he wants to go back. I already know I cant stop him.Every individual must want it for themselves. I feel like hes warming me up for it,like he wants me to say "oh sure bring some oxys home,its ok" He assures me that its my choice and he'll do whatever I want but I know it has to be his choice or he'll do whatever he wants sooner or later anyway. So I tell him it's up to him, but that I dont know if I can stay if he goes down the oxy road. Is that fair? Whats worse is I feel Ive lost my partner and that Im now on my journey for sobriety alone. Tough one huh?