PLEASE HELP!!! My friend is going to inject ehpidrine

[needhelpplease]

My friend is addicted to speed. Recently she found she could get ephidrine or pep pills over the counter and is going to inject them. Is this more harmful for her than speed will it kill her?? Help me please I dont want her to die!

[siliconboy]

I just read the part about your daughter, and as Dad with the same issues with my first born you have all of my compassion. I know - without stereotyping - this is genreally harder on the Mom's when the babies are in trouble. I am sorry to hear about the HEP C thing from all of you that are affected by it personally or through loved ones. I really wonder what the stats are on that disease. I also don't understand why I don't have it. Maybe it has just not been active when I was tested? Everyone and I mean everyone else that I know that used IV drugs has it. Lots of them are dormant or inactive but they have it. A dear childhood friend that shot dope maybe 4 or 5 times when we were kids is currently waiting for a liver. Why isn't there more of a fuss being made about this disease?

[cindi]

i AM ALWAYS interested in what you have to say.  You are a very giving compassionate person.  The forum is lucky to have you....and I am lucky to know (well kind of know) a person like you...Love cindi

[spook]

Cindy(if you are interested):hello; "Neuropsychopharmacologist",`in english(US)` a Neurologist,Pharmacologist and Psychiatrist.(23years study)
Above all else Human being with as many faults and insecurities as anybody else,although I know what mine are and some I have conquered.Brave words as.............
"Relapse to the pre-embryonic state is imminent".
This gives me an edge on the AVERAGE basic Psychiatrist?-REASON; because I have experimented/abused/used/snorted/wacked/and Smoked all(sorry MOST) of these Psychoactive Chemicals NOT- no-"Never"use the word `DRUGS`,as that is an emotively CHARGED word "labelled" and ~manipulated~! by Politicians and other mind controlled "brain Washed"infected sub-organisms of the Homosapien species.Their is a human side to me that takes second place when it comes to Intellectual issues,I am Highly conscious,but have been avoiding emotions until,my task in life is complete.Over the next couple of Decades Chemical manipulation of mood states will become more and more prevalent in all of the societies on this Particular Planet(despite all LEGAL attempts to the contrary),It is only now that Im entering the Field of Politics,as power corrupts and my knowedge may help me not to succumb to the easy life of money and power and egocentrism.My Heart will always be with those who are suffering and my struggle will never end until you are free of pain.I know what you feel.I feel what you feel,your mind is like a book for me to read and understand,but has it a sad ending?my book will never end,words are all we have to communicate our feelings(at this Level anyway!)making love ,well, my hands can tell a thousand tempting tales,if I could sculpture these words into planet of peace ,love and happiness,I surely would.
One day all humans will have to choose,that is my goal,much time has been given to those in POWER and still they abuse their trust and privaledge,soon a seed will be sown,a seed of doubt,that will infect all humans with doubt and when it grows into guilt,their is only one escape,to change the World or get stoned,I have no power until I stop getting Stoned,and even then it is through thought transferrence into the "Collective Consciousness"of humanity,Time is the best healer,but it steals our lives away,I shall show you how to STOP time and feel the Earth move,This particular Life you experience is short their will be many others.
Anyway enough,I just want to say I am going to stir the Political Pot and neither,Interpol,Triads,Mafias,CIA,DEA is going to stop me as America currently RULES the WORLD and therefore you have been targetted for RE-Humanization.
THe Aliens have made contact,they are not from this dimension,reality is not fixed.time can flow in reverse along with gravity.I am not Psychotic,I am not delusional,I am merely ONE of the chosen ones.

[cindi]

Welcome to the forum  I stumbled upon it one evening and have found so many wonderful friends that I feel they are part of my family.  Here I can be me and they understand me and anything I may be going through.  I am totally inspired by TOM/patrick, JB, Annie, Brighty, Maryann  and of course spook luke.   At first I didn't think Spook spoke English  LOL but now that I get to know him he is quite a character and I even understand what he is saying. I to, am a nurse, you will find a few of us here, (I have chosen to leave the profession for the time being) Physicians, and Luke is something (long word) but I forget what  LOL, writers and should be writers  (ahem...Brighty are you reading this?)  So, please keep coming back I'd love to hear more from you     love to all cindi

[Faith]

Now that I finally get the courage to register and click on post a comment, I am here and don't know what to say or how to act. I hope I go through with it, and send it.  I stumbled upon this site and am thoroughly enjoying it.  You,Tom/Patrick are a rare bird, for lack of a better description.  Prior to my reading all the posts I felt so alone.  I see now that I am NOT alone, by any means.  I have similar problems, a registered nurse, (presently unemployed of my own volition)and feel I have overcome a multitude of problems, but am still fighting a relatively small problem.  Your words have inspired me.  I am seriously thinking about writing to you at your e-mail address.  If I do, you will recognize me, I will be wearing a carnation in my left lapel, or perhaps my nickname in the subject line which ever is easier.  If so, please consider writing me back.  Thanks again for all the inspiration and hope that you have given me.  Peace

[Thomas02]

thanks, cindi, for the kind words. It helps to know that there are people out there who understand you and accept you for who you are. Write me anytme you want to talk, or just want someone to "vent" to. Believe me, I understand.

[Brighty]

Thank you... all of you really... for the applause on my daughter's one year clean.... she earned it.. not me... but I am so happy. One year ago she was in the hospital.. then on to a psych ward... then to jail for 10 days.... then to treatment...then Baker Acted to another psych ward for a suicide verbalization...then to jail for another week... then to the long term treatment program.... and now here she is. I spent this year with YOU for my solace and also for information that I could not readily get anywhere else.THANK YOU... ALL OF YOU... FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART !!! Actually I did not find this forum till last April so I am a bit short of MY year here. That you have welcomed me and helped me through this is a precious gift and I know without it I would have suffered more. I was able to log on and escape to this very safe place and not worry that the mascara was dribbling on to my lipstick. You accepted me. I love you.

TOM/PATRICK.... LOL !!! No, for heaven's sake I do not have a newsletter!!!! I do have your home/personal e-mail... remember... you sent me your treatment plan and all those regs that were to be revised...of course it is SAFE. Thehealinglight is not who I am nor anything I have to offer.... it is that which I seek on  a daily basis. You have been that for me many times Tom.... whether you know it or not.

Peace to all of you... gotta go now. Love, Brighty

[Brighty]

Your posts always give me a sense of renewal.... and a reminder that I am not the only one who has endured pain and that hope springs eternal. My love to you and Marty. Brighty

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

I think that planting something in memory of your Mom is a great idea.  Last Spring my wife and I planted flowers around our daughter's grave and it was cathartic for us.  She loved tulips and marigolds as a child.  Actually, we take care of all of our family's graves going back four generations in the same place.  It's humbling yet reassuring for us that at least we know that we will all be togehter again some day. Trees are a symbol for us and a reminder that we will go on and on.  J.B.

[cindi]

To Maria, What a great lady, My prayers are with you and your dear friend, To Brighty, Thank you, I will Plant a whole Orchard for my mom, Funny you should mention that, I spend my summer planting and growing everything from dandelions to herbs (legal) and every year I would plant my mom a bunch of flowers for her to care for all summer.  I feel so much better after I come here and hear from all of you.  Congratulations to you and your daughter, May she continue her journey of success, Spook!!! Oh Luke spook, what can I say,  I am sooo happy to hear from you, ya ole hippie.  Tom/Patrick you brighten my days, JB and wife, my prayers are with you, There was no point to this post, I just felt compelled to tell you all good night...Love to all   cindi

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

I've got the year token that I earned in 1978 hanging from my rearview mirror.  I see it every morning and it still gives me hope for the day.  That token is something that I will never part with no matter what happens. J.B.

[Thomas02]

Patrick is my middle name, Brighty. So I suppose I can keep using it til things get sorted out on the membership roster. You can always contact me at:
***@**** for any reason. From there, I'll give you my true home e-address which will tell you exactly who I am. I know I can trust you with that information. If you have a Healing Light newsletter or the like, I'd be proud to be on the distribution list.

I certainly don't want to find out that that you needed something I could have given you had I only known your address and vice versa.

Now, how bout that daughter of yours? One year off of king heroin! You should both be very proud. I know I'm proud for you and had nothing to do with your achieving it! Happy anniversary, in any event. I know how important those "time medallions" can be. The best I ever got was a six month badge which, though I've relapsed many times since, I treasure as a symbol of the POSSIBILITY of my recovery.

your friend Pat (tom)

[Brighty]

Blessings upon your work. We will be happy when you return. Thanks for not letting us worry. Love, Brighty

[Brighty]

Hey... don't go deleting that cookie !!! I think Pat/Tom is a wonderful identity... are they BOTH Irish ??? How will they celebrate St. Pattie's day ??? With eachother maybe ????? Which one does your wife like best ????????? WOW....lucky woman!!!
:-))))))))))).... You're having some influence on Spook... he sent a post to AnnieCindi today !!!! Love and prayers. Brighty/??????

[Gloria]

I apologize for not taking the time to read any of the forum comments, but I need to get this posted quickly.  A dear, dear friend, is hanging onto life as I write this.  During a "routine" surgical procedure, she arrested three times.  I will be out-of-pocket for as long as it takes for her to either miraculously turn this thing around, or go to a better place.  She is a valued employee of our medical practice and has no family--we ARE her family.  I feel committed to this forum and wanted to let you guys know what was going on and not "evaporate," as Brighty commented another forum participant had done.  My thoughts will be with each and everyone one of you during this time--especially, Annie, who is having surgery, Thursday.  I will close with a quote from Baltasar Gracian:  "Parcel out your life wisely--with foresight and judgment."  Wishing you all the best.  Maria

[Brighty]

We missed you,you old coot, spook, Luke !!! Your comments to Maria are revealing... you are a kind hearted man. Love, Brighty

[spook]

Hello Maria,you may have a new heart,but I think you still have the best one you could ever hope for.And I think your Brain should should also be the envy of most.

[cindi]

Wow, after a post like that who wouldn't be encouraged.  You are a hoot.  I love reading your posts,  I love hearing what you have to say, and don't worry about the editing we are all family..I will take into consideration everything you have said and who knows, someday,somewhere...you may see me coming down the hall with that all to famous enema bag  (giggle giggle)  Boy it feels great to start to find at least a little sense of humor today after the lousy days I have been having,  Tom, hang in there the Bup is on it's way and I have all the faith in the world in you my friend and after so many years of this disease you need relief..you will get it soon.   Love to all cindi

[spook]

I am excellent,straught and happy,I hope eveybody else is doing fine.here is my Quote for today.
"The LSD revelation is the clear perspective.  The LSD panic is the
terror that ego is lost forever.  The LSD ecstasy is the joyful
discovery that ego, with its pitiful shams and strivings, is only a
fraction of my identity."
-Timothy Leary

[Brighty]

I am happy that we can provide something to you even if this media is somewhat impersonal... but in other ways it's more personal because we can be who we are without fear of our identity being revealed. Losing your mom is one of life's biggies..... and it's ok to feel this way....and as a recovering addict you need extra support during this type of crisis. Just keep on posting... it's too bad these threads go into cyberspace because they are the journal of our daily struggles.... this may be a good time to start a journal and months later you will be able to chart your progress and growth. Maybe plant a tree and name it after your beloved mother... she is an angel now glorified and pain free.... she will talk to you in your dreams.. this I know to be true. We love you. Brighty.

[Gloria]

Two of my favorite quotes:
The first is in the AA "Big Book."
     "Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God's world by mistake."
The second coming from "Conversations with God."
     "Therefore bless every person and CONDITION and give thanks.  Thus you affirm the perfection of God's creation and show your faith in it.  For nothing happens by accident in God's world, and there is no such thing as coincidence."
Today marks ONE YEAR that your daughter has been clean!  Please tell her that I am very proud of her achievement and wish her continued success in her battle with this horrible disease.  For me, the big turning point in my personal battle with addiction occurred when I stopped being angry with God for being an addict, and started thanking Him for my addiction.  I am who I am today because of all the steps I have taken to get here.  My addiction is a huge part of that journey, and to deny that aspect, is to denounce my faith in God.  I no longer ask, "why me," but "why not me?"  Everyday, I thank God for all the blessings he has bestowed upon me--my addiction being one of them.  My love to you and your family.  Best wishes always.  Maria

[Frankinscense]

Tom:
Why do you sign Patrick for Tom? By the way the quote from the other day was taken out of context by you. You became defensive for no reason Tom! I was just in question concerning your recovery. Like you said. What you do is your business. But I am aware that you became defensive for a reason. Maybe there is something you need to look at inside yourself. Anyway best of luck Patrick for Tom.
Dan...
ps: maybe an identity crisis. Just a thought.

[Frankinscense]

By the way I have been married for twenty four years to a wonderful women. I have two kids.
Dan...

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

Your post is what I needed to hear today.  I will go back to the Big Book again as you have and live another day in peace.  I think that you have given me another option, so rejoice in that, Maria. Your friend, J.B.