Hoping for a bit of help from the community. I'm a 32 year old guy, and for the past 4-5 years, I've been on a combination of ambien + marijuana + alcohol at night. Thing is I normally crush up the ambien and snort them. I usually don't do the whole tablet but sometimes do. I've hid this habit from nearly everyone in my life, and have actually (somehow) been able to have a pretty successful career. My job is stressful, and I've always been a bit of an anxious person.
To deal with anxiety, I take xanax - really only when I fly (maybe 3-4 times per month). Lately, I've had some family stress plus my normal stress which resulted in a major panic attack last week (exactly 8 days ago). I've never experienced anything like this in my life. I ended up in the ER, because I truly thought I was having a heart attack and going to die. The results came back negative for the heart attack, and they also did a test for blood clots along with a chest x-ray. To be fair, I was also coming off a vacation where we ate / drank a very unhealthy amount.
Here's the thing: I don't feel the same at all. This panic attack rocked my world to the point I've seen my doctor (but not mentioned the snorting), and have an appt. this week with a cardiologist. My main "trigger" for the anxiety is wondering if the years of abuse from snorting will cause long term effects or potentially hurt me. I feel like I am short of breath at times when idle, but when I take a xanax (because I'm extremely anxious) that goes away so I'm 99% sure it's just the anxiety. It's been 7 nights since I've snorted anything - and never will do that again. I also haven't smoked since that time either. I don't have any bleeding, sores, scabs, pain, but I still don't feel like I can breath out of my nose always. I know this could be the anxiety, but I'm wondering if something else could be going on. I have an appointment with an ENT next week as well. Reflecting, I really can't believe I was that stupid. I guess after you're sure you're going to die you realize how much you want to live. Heavy **** for me.
I'm just curious if anyone has done anything similar for this period of time (snorting)? If so, how did it go when you quit? If I haven't done long term damage it has to be because I'm a runner (20-25 miles a week) and I'm sure this helps clear out the lungs and nasal cavity.
Thanks for any help. I am truly grateful to be able to be alive and type this right now