Passed a Test Today

[ChoosingLife]

I have seen so many people on here post about this same thing...some kind of way their sobriety has been "tested". I have relapsed many times before because someone called offering me pills. This is the first time getting clean that I have cut all sources..and thats the reason I have been successful. However today I was tested..out of nowhere. My mom's x boyfriend (who I havent spoken to in months) called me today and says he was given 10 15mg oxys. He said that since he doesn't like them, I could have them for free if I wanted to come pick them up. I am a very impulsive person..so I would be lying if I didnt tell you my first instinct was to fly over there and get them...but I didn't! I texted him back and told him I quit and that I didn't need them. I wasn't sure I had the strength to do that until today. It feels great knowing that I can say no! Just wanted to share that with you guys...we really do get stronger every day we are clean!

[YesLife4Me]

Trust me, I've fallen for 'free' before.  There is no free..  always a price to pay.  I don't want to walk the walk of shame again and feel all this remorse all over.   It's hard enough after a dozen times, I don't need a bakers dozen.   :))  

[lis3d]

I liked what you said about them not being free.. good way to look at it and you're exactly right!

[ChoosingLife]

Yeah I think the free part is what threw me off the most..plus I always loved oxy/roxy. But you are dead on...they really aren't free. And getting high isn't worth the pain/guilt/shame of relapse and screwing my life up and having to start all over again. Even when I would relapse before..I knew it wasn't worth it. The difference this time is that I realized this before I slipped up and threw away my clean time..never again!

[YesLife4Me]

Oh man, that is a tough one, especially free.  But they really aren't free are they?  We become enslaved to them and when those run out, then we either buy more, get more, or start all over again.   Who wants to do that right?   Good Job!  

[Norco1947]

Hi , Way to go , Take pride in your self You chose to not take pills , We have that choice every day .
You remember the no life . You are strong .... Ron  

[Leaveurfearsbehind]

Wow! That's the commitment we all need. I know how you feel. I was confronted by my guy yesterday but told him I was free.  It's a good feeling huh? That's just so awesome! Keep it going. Very inspiring to me!