Do methedone withdrawls ever end?

[Tbritt86]

I started using pills when i was 16, I had alot of hard times fall upon me and I didn't know how to handle it,  like an absolute idiot, mind you. But it wasn't serious, until I was diagnosed with ovarian cysts when I was 18. My Doc started shelling out the pain scripts, which I happily took. You start of with baby steps; Lorcet 5's, & then 10"s & then percs. & then I graduated up to morphine, its never enough! And one day you wake up thinking... who am i, where am i, what happened to me, & where did my life go? So, after being on that hell ride [I thought it was hell], but it was nothing compared to methedone] my friend told he was on methedone and its easy to get into a clinic & blah, blah, blah. So, again like an idiot.....i  went to the clinic & went up to 110 mgs. I was 18 when my addiction started....
Now i'm almost 25 years old. I have wasted my youth on something that's not worth it. My life was to wake up take my dose and do nothing all day, because I had no energy to do anything If I wanted to. I thought this is crap!!!! I'm not doing this anymore...I would rather be dead than to live like that another day. I dropped from 110 mg's to 30 mg's in 6  mos. I stayed on 30mgs for another 6 mos. And finally I packed up my home, moved and I'm on my 8th day of being completely drug free. Don't get me wrong it's like a living death , if that makes any since. Sometimes it seems hard to breathe, but I'll eventually pass out from exhaustion, I hope. I'm shaky, my stomach is a ball of fire, my whole body feels like its been ran over repeatedly, I can't eat, I can't sleep, not to mention back pain but if's somethings this hard and painful to do it has to be worth it......eventually. I didn't expect to get better in a week, but maybe a little better everyday and right now that is so not happening. I'm just trying not to let my will power falter...Any advice? I will not go back to pain killers because they didn't kill my pain they killed who I was. If I have to hurt the rest of my life at least I tried.

[Chrisrees1960]

It do get easier as the time goes, at least with my daughter it has. She is now on day 11 without meth and her symtoms now are being very cold, weak, disturbed sleeping & crying for no reason. This is very hard to see but i will stay strong & support her. She was on meth for 6 years after seeking help for her heroine addiction at the time. I can't promise you it becomes easier each day as everyday my daughter has to overcome another hurdle. Hopefully she will stay strong & beat this & i will keep my fingers crossed you will do x

[gnarly_1]

HEY YOU was woundering what happened to you....so many go back to the clinic because the withdrawal is so hard and long well congrats you mad the first 30 days thats the hardest stick with the protien shakes they will give your brain what it needs drink 2 a day walmat careys them for 15 buck for a 2 lb can '''whey protein shakes'' dont expect alot out of this next month the energy crash will still be with you congrats on the sleep though thats huge just remember this stuff is really cyclic and just when yhou think its over it hits you like a bulldozer again this is normal for detoxing off this it was around 90 days that things started getting better for me you mad it to 34 day .....1 day at a time keep putting one foot in front of the other and you will have another 30 days b/4 you know it....I know this is a grind and it requires a lot of perseverance but when its said and done you will appreciate your sobriety that much more if you want to talk one on onew im avallble just take your curser over my name and a box will pop up click on send a message....I have been there I know how ruff this is I would love to help you threw it good luck and God bless.......Gnarly  

[Tbritt86]

34 days today!!!!! I feel a little more like myself. It still ***** a bit, but it's more managable. I'm sooooo glad for this forum...because on those late nights....it helped get me thru. I can sleep again, but as soon as the suns up so am I. I have energy crashes like no other, but I make myself do something. I try to stay busy. I find myself getting bored really easy...but then having no energy to do anything. I hope I just keep getting better. All of you are so awesome...You give me hope :] God Bless

[Tbritt86]

Sorry it took so long for me to reply...I've just been out of it. 15 days today and I feel a little better. But your right about alll the emotional crap.  How are you doing?

[haley726]

p.s.  and, of course, I forgot to say you are doing great! And you are making it through this. Keep posting with progress...

[haley726]

how was your day? Are some of the physical w/ds easing up at all yet? I hope so, so you can get some relief. I just wanted to check in with you.  38 days for me today, and I am in my "blah day" ...moods. You know, when it's not good, it's not bad...its just blah. But I'll take ANY "blah" day over living the way I was on methadone. and you will have days that you will have to fight like hell to stay away from some sort of relief or "artificial happiness" in a pill as I call it... Lol. But every day you succed and stay clean is a day you have beat the methadone monster without a narcotic. You will feel
so much better about yourself mentally, and proud of yourself for making it without the meds. Stay strong. I'm right there with you, so lets motivate each other to beat this monster once and for all...... Lord, please give Brit the strength and guidance to get through this addiction and recovery. Touch her life as you did mine, and ease her pain in any way possible. In Jesus name, amen.

[Tbritt86]

I feel like about the same....terrible. I vomited a lil lastnight, but I've been drinking a lot of water and gatorade it seems to hold. But food no way. I'm going to try those shakes so we'll see. TY for sending more help. Britt

[Tbritt86]

It's nice to know I can come on here and vent because nobody at home understands and I don't want to burden them further. I went to a NA meeting today and it helped a little, but I could'nt really focus. First place I've been in 9 days. It's a really bad day for me to day, but I'll manage. I just want to get thru this so bad, but sometimes it just so f''n relentless.

[gnarly_1]

Good morning how you feel today.....?....actually my main concirn is are you holding down fluids its really important....even if its just a little at a time you must drink....the next few days are going to be ruff but it will start getting ez once your threw the acute withdrawal stage your 9 days into it it usually last 2 weeks with methadone you will still have the body aches and such because you jumped from a higher dose then you suppose to but he!! I did it right and was dope sick for a month its just the way it is coming off this stuff.....im glad Haley found you
Jenn should to she is a lot farther along there are others that will come along hang in there
soak when its bad and let me know if your holding down liquid good luck and God bless........Gnarly

[haley726]

this is the place where it is okay to be a crybaby. This is some serious stuff you are going through. And I know it's hard due to lack of sleep, but try some OTC meletonin or benadryl. And if that doesn't work, and it may not, atleast try to curl up on the couch and just rest. What helped me kindof quiet my mind was guided
meditation. I got some headphones and found tons of free meditation stuff on utube. It helped me focus on just breathing instead of my mind running 100 miles an hour. And I am not kidding, I listened to different meditation ALL NIGHT LONG! It calmed me down enough to remind me this is only temporary and it will pass. It took me a little over 2 weeks before I got more than 30 minutes of sleep at one time. And you are going to have major anxiety, but I promise it is normal and be strong because this will pass. Then, next month we will be working through a whole other set of w/d issues! Ugh, I know it takes forever, but it is worth it and it is do-able. Hang in there and if you have to, wake everyone in your house up to take a hot bath cause it will help. And in a few weeks your family will see just how amazing you
are. But the truth is, if you have never been through methadone w/d, there is no way you know the torture we have to live through and how strong you have to be to get through it. That's why we are here, because we do know.

[Tbritt86]

I would love to take a hot soak, but I dont want to wake anyone up. I catch myself holding my breath a lot. I think its anxiety. All I want to do is sllleeeepppp, but it's not gonna happen. So, pray for me please that I can find some kind of relief . God Bless you

[Tbritt86]

I feel so bad right now. My stomach is killing me...it seems like when my stomach hurts my legs start there crap to and then its like I can't stand to be inside the house. So, I'm sitting outside trying to relax as much as I can. I took some Alteril, a natural sleep aid...I got maybe an hour of sleep. I've been taking motrin, but it hurts my stomach worse...Sorry If I'm a cry baby/ I know I did this to myself.
My ninth day today...I know God has gotten me this far, I won't let him or myself down anymore. TY for the verses I'll check them out.

[haley726]

and as far as the anxiety meds, if you don't suffer from too much anxiety or panic attacks then you probably shouldn't get on something else. Like I said, though, I was a nut case. I thought they might hospitalize me... Seriously. I have OCD so I was taking them before, but they did help me sleep and certainly contained the horrible daily panic attacks brought on by sleep deprevation probably...lol.) Try some OTC things for sleep and pain. Melatonin or benadryl for sleep (prob won't get you a big 8 hours, but a few hours of sleep are worth their weight in gold. And I was that person that always said advil or alieve doesn't work for actual pain, only a narcotic, but that was my addiction feeding my brain lies because OTCounter pain relievers help just as good as narcotics, just don't get you "high". And about my doc, believe me, the first thing I did was come here to post for advice. That's my doc! I hate him now, but I used to love him for the same reasons..pills. Lol.

[haley726]

more to add: for the leg pain I took alieve and set in a bath for hours reading a book or listening to music. That was the ONLY time I got any relief from the restless legs. My worst part was the lack of sleep because I already suffer from panic attacks and being up by myself all night was just a disaster waiting to happen. I am NOT exagerrating. My husband made up the couch for me cause that's where I ended up anyways, but you need some great movies or TVo to keep your mind occupied. So my first 2 weeks were living on the couch watching anything that wouldn't tee me off and getting in a hot bath every coule of hours... Doesn't that just sound like so much fun! Lol! But my turning point was the first night stayed in my bed and got about 5 hours sleep. That next day
I felt like I was so much stronger than I gave mself credit for
and there is no greater "high" in the world, knowing you have
and will beat this disease.... Right now, wherever you are,
stop for a moment to make a pact with yourself and your
family and mostly God... No matter how bad the evil in the
world has gotten us down, God is waiting to help you get
your strength and life back and He will fill that void that the drugs filled for so long... as long as you surrender it all to
God... He will heal your soul. Remember, the emotional part
is the hardest  to beat. That's when you will need a very tight support group and surround yourself with the positive people
in your life. And when you need God, He is always listening and ready to help. If you would like to read some verses from the Bible, these are a few that I have personally taken to heart while going through this fight with my addiction...
Psalm 4:1, Psalm 5:8, Psalm 6:2-4, and the verses I try to
live by every day are...  Proverbs 3:5-7. We are going through this together, and if you need me just send a message my way. I'll keep a lookout for you when I'm logged in to stay updated. Stay strong and God bless. We are all here for each other, so keep everyone updated...

[Tbritt86]

Thank you for helping me.I know exactly how you feel about the Doc situation. I pray a lot as well sometimes its my only relief. I do the same thing with the venting...it feels like i'm going to explode or something, but I vent and I feel better. I do know that I would rather feel like this than go back to square 1. I feel good that I've made it these 8  days. I can't not believe that dr did that to you!!!! I would have just ran away as fast as I could lol. Your amazing and I hope the absolute best for you because after all this hell we deserve heaven. I'm a lil nervous about getting anti anxiety meds I don't want to get to comfy with them. I don't know I've never tried to stop, until now and I don't want to mess up... I just hope I don't crazy...it feels like theres no relief sometimes and I just try my best to breathe and keep going.. I think I'm going to throw up now.....so I'll tty soon. God Bless you and ease you.  Britt

[haley726]

Hi there. I definitely know what your going through because I am just over a month clean and now I battle the emotional part. I had my start the same way. My neurologist gave me vicodin like it was candy. Then it ofcourse stopped working (meaning I couldn't feel the high anymore), and just like you I heard of this "wonderful" drug called methadone. Worst mistake ever. In my opinion any doctor that will be prescribing it, or ANY narcotics for that matter, should know what we go through starting off taking prescribed meds innocently enough and then it turns into an ugly monster and all of a sudden you are an addict. This is my "emotional phase" of w/ds, so you got to hear my soapbox... Sorry about that, but I bet you know exactly how I feel. As for the next month, it is going to s u c k bad! There were times I didn't think I would make it, but I started to pray a lot and read my Bible again and at night when I couldn't sleep I found some metitation stuff on you tube. After 2 weeks I was delierious from the pain and lack of sleep. I was having SEVERE panic attacks, so I might have done the "weak" thing, but I went to the hospital and was put back on prozac and klonopin. After day14 I got about 5 hours of sleep, took about 5 hot showers (that was the norm for the first 3 weeks...lol) and I was so proud and felt so strong and happy that no narcotic could ever replace that natural high. And the best thing about it all is when I was so down and low is when I really started to go back to God again. He helped me make it throug... And I'm still not through, but I know I am on my way. You have invested 8 miserable days into this. Don't give up now...or ever! It's a battle that every single person on this site is battling every day, but before you think about giving up, just try and look back at how happy you were before the addiction and how horrible you feel while doing the drugs. On my bad days I come here and talk to people who truly know and on my worst days I keep my bible close by and even cry out to God to give me ANY sort of relief... But once I vent and get it out one way or another I actually do feel better. I had many issues in this past month from family medical problems and my doc actually told me I was doing this all wrong and wrote me a script for vics!!! Can you believe?? And by the grace of God and having people that were here to listen and ready to give advice, I actually didn't get the script!!! If that's not a miracle, I don't know what is...lol! I know my message is long, but we are both younger (im 30...so not to young...hahaha), and we have both made the BEST decision of our lives early enough to where we can have long, happy, and sober lives. I'm not going to lie, the next month is going to be close to torture, and don't be afraid to go to a doc or the ER cause you may need blood pressure and anxiey meds. I sure did cause I was a nut case...lol. But you are in the right place being here and posting to get support... You and I can do this together! Good luck and God bless you.... Haley

[Tbritt86]

Thank You so much! I'm so glad I found this forum, just reading other ppls stories and advice is a comfort to me. I know some ppl taper down to as low as 2 mgs , but for me it was now or never. I would have just stayed on it longer...so i left my home town & came to TX, so I wouldn't have many temptations here. I realize I'm going to have to get help after the w/d s, but one step at a time. It' s strange you say that it's the tortoise not the hare, because thats what I tell my Mom when she ask's how she can help...I tell her only time will help me...not to worry. The w/d make me never want to touch a narcotic again, as strange as that sounds because I dont ever want to be this again. It's strange not to want something mentally, but your body is absolutely dying to have it. Mentally I'm set.... for now, but theres highs & lows when w/d are relentless. I will definitely hit up the protien shakes... All I've had is lots of water. I've had probably 2 hours of sleep the last three days. My legs hurt sooooooooo bad I think thats the worst when I lay down to sleep my legs start hurting and then I get anxious and it makes everything worse. I Thank God that I found this site. It gives me hope to know ppl have and still are off methedone. I couldn't stand it another second to be that person. Thank you so much, again. And I would graciousy accept help from others. Heres praying I make it thru this

[gnarly_1]

ok sent the mail give these girls a day to respond its late and they may not get this till tomorrow........Gnarly

[gnarly_1]

HI welcome to the forum and congrats on getting off the methadone so you jumped at 30 .....thats pritty high and your going to feel like you got hit by a truck for a wile the detox off that amount is about 2 weeks with some symptoms lingering longer we just had another girl jump off at that amount she is 33 days clean struggling but making it....I was on 150mg for 6 1/2 yrs tapered it alll the way down was dope sick for a month kinda staded in limbo for month 2 it was around 90 days that I actually thouht I would survive methadone withdrawals
its different for everybody some get well in a month with only the sleep thing and energy crash hampering them others like me and a lot of who I help its a 90 day grind to getting well a lot depends on how long you used how high a dose and how old you are no 2 withdrawals are the same....right now you feel like you got hit by a truck in a week or sao that will go away but then the post withdrawals hit it is these post withdrawals that make methadone such a bit ch to get off this is a battle one by the tortus not the hare you win it one day at a time try not to get discouraged you get better slowly as you go along but it is nothing you get over in a week like other opiates I will let Haley know your out here she has it all fresh in her head and is doing as weel as can be expected a lot of this has to do with attitude and the willingness to do what it takes to get well....get up to walmart and pick up some whey protein shake mix the chocolate is good it loaded with amino acids vitamins as well as the protein all of witvch your brain is going to need to heal you just mix it with milk a 2lb can is 15 bucks its a cheep way to get the essential amino acids your body needs right now this is not a quick fix but rather a building block to make your recovery quicker I only wish I found these sooner if you need chelp you are in the right place I work with a lot of methadonians  we can get you threw this there are several members here who have beet it if you have questions just message me or leve them here I will check the post later you do the same I am seending out some e/mails to other members that can help with your recovery hang in ther WHATEVER YOU DO DONT TAKE ANY NARCOTICS to get rid of the dope sick this will only pospone you getting well from here out its narcotic free or you will stay sick ....I wish you all the luck in the world on the road to recovery it long and paved with bumps but I did it 600 days ago today and looking from here it is so so worth it good luck and God bless.......Gnarly