I understand there are good doctors out there and bad doctors out there. I only suggested you find what you consider to be a good doctor and deal with them on helping you get out of this mess. My hope is that you do find someone who can help you and your unborn child.
I only hope for the best outcome for your child. I'll be praying for you both.
Deep breath Melissa~~~How are you feeling now? Baby still moving around alot? You are past 24 weeks now to arent you?
I know you both ASSUME you know what's going on, HOWEVER please do not assume that I have made this decision to continue the fentanyl through the rest of my pregnancy without researching it. This is NOT something I wanted, but sad to say life is full of crap we don't want. As for the comments about "addiction" you throw that term around too loosely & quickly. YES there may be a dependence on it as it happens with ANY medication that is taken for any length of time, but it is FAR from addiction. If I weren't pregnant then I would've suffered through the withdrawals to come off the horrible crap, but after speaking with SEVERAL doctors & doing my own research it is A THOUSAND TIMES SAFER FOR THE BABY TO COME OFF THE FENTANYL POST BIRTH THEN TO CHANCE MISCARRIAGE, STILLBIRTH & DEATH OF MOM & BABY DUE TO WITHDRAWALS.
I have tried numerous times to get in to see a pain management specialist but require a referral from my family dr who frankly doesn't deserve to have her medical license. Odd these addiction comments come after me posting about looking for a doctor to sign the MMAR papers. Why is that? You are entitled to your opinions but after YEARS of research medical marihuana is PROVEN safer then the medications the drs prescribe which destroy your livers, stomachs, intestines & cause such havoc every day.
You both make it seem as though my ONLY thought was the fentanyl. Re-think that one as the title of the topic is : pregnant, on fentanyl & terrified ! I AM worried about the effects that the sudden decrease could have had on my child, worried about his safety , but also have to worry how I could deal.
PLEASE DO NOT ASSUME YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW HARD THE DECISION WAS TO CONTINUE THE PREGNANCY WHILE ON THE MEDS, TO CONTINUE USING THE MEDS OR EVEN THE REASON I'M ON IT IN THE 1ST PLACE CUZ UNTIL YOU'VE LIVED ONE DAY WITH THE EXTREME PAIN CAUSED BY A CONDITION IN MY BACK ASSUMING WILL JUST MAKE AN *** OUT OF U & ME... MORE YOU THOUGH !
I didn't join this forum for this crap !! TY to those of you who can see the sensitive nature of it & were supporting.
Melissa~ You appear to be in denial with respect to your addiction. I hope you get the help you desperately need!
Melissa I have been reading your posts for some time now. I am very concerned about you, I'm not sure you're really seeing things clearly right now with all that you are going through and because of the extremely strong narcotic you are taking. There must be some professional, perhaps an addictionologist, that can help you. Please make those calls and find someone.
You keep talking about how you're doing all you can to feel better, but I am so concerned for your unborn child. Please don't take this the wrong way because I know you're in pain. But to continually allow this damage to your baby so you don't have to suffer, I just don't understand.
I hope you find someone soon, someone you can connect with, who can help you through all of this. You should not be doing this alone.
My prayers are with your unborn child and with you. Honestly, I am quite frightened for you both.
UPDATE !!!!!
I just got back from FINALLY seeing my family doctor after yet another trip into the hospital in pure agony & utter hell. I explained the issues I've had with staff at L&D, explained what each nurse & doctor had said & suggested, told her what was done & wasn't done & finally told her what I expect before leaving her office. I was beyond mad at this point after being neglected again all night by the Labor & Delivery ward. I told her I was not leaving until my Fentanyl was bumped back up to 100mcg as it was before SHE decided to start cutting it back. I told her that something HAS TO be prescribed for breakthrough pain as suggested by the dr in the ER on Saturday when I went in & I'd appreciate that she actually look into the Medical Marihuana forms that I have brought to her several times. She did bump the Fentanyl back up to 100mcg, refused anything for breakthrough pain though & refuses to even consider the MMAR forms. Apparently IF I have any pain while on the higher dose I should put my feet up, try to relax & grin & bear it...... like I haven't tried it over & over & over again. She explained that the baby will have issues after birth because of the Fentanyl, but I already expect this anyway. I went through it while pregnant with my 2nd daughter & have prepared myself for this time.
Now fingers crossed that the higher dose starts working quickly & there isn't too much pain after. I can't believe that it took almost 2 weeks of neglect & can't believe how poorly the different doctors & nurses treated the situation. God help ALL of them if ANYTHING happens to my little man due to their neglectful behavior.
THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR THE SUPPORT, MESSAGES, THOUGHTS & KIND WORDS. IF IT WASN'T FOR ALL OF YOU I'M SURE I WOULDA SNAPPED. I KNOW COMING OFF THE FENTANYL WILL BE A VERY LONG & PAINFUL BATTLE, BUT FOR NOW I'LL CONTINUE AS IT'S NEEDED. I PLAN ON FIGHTING IT OFF A YEAR OR 2 AFTER MY LITTLE ONE IS BORN. THIS WAY I HAVE SOME TIME WITH HIM & HAVE TIME TO FIND NOT ONL A NEW FAMILY DOCTOR, BUT ALSO A DOCTOR IN MY AREA THAT WILL SIGN THE MMAR FORMS. YES IT COMES WITH IT'S OWN RISKS BUT NOWHERE NEAR AS DANGEROUS AS THE MEDS THAT THESE DOCTORS SO EASILY PRESCRIBE.
TY AGAIN EVERYONE :-) & I'll be sure to keep everyone updated. I've sent friend requests to you all as you've helped in ways that no one I truly know would even have attempted & I am FOREVER grateful. Now I may just start printing out all the info I found & have been given by you all & take it to these very ill informed doctors so that they have some clue as to what they have done to my unborn child for the last 2 weeks & they can see for themselves just how clueless they really are !!! lol
Melissa