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Quitting meth first time.
So.. a little about me. I'm a 5'5 22 year old female who started at 195 and I'm now at 145 in weight in about one month. I tried it when I was very young, started again when things were crazy difficult, but months or years in between has never been an issue. This past two weeks I was using around 1gram a day. Lost that much weight in two weeks. I'm always almost fainting from never eating. Had to teach myself hydration. And today, it felt as if I've been doing it forever. I snort it, my nose hurts so bad all the time. I can visibly see my eyes getting droopy, they are usually really big wide eyes. My life is crap right now but without it it becomes so much worse. All I think about all day is using then at night I use and think about how to get more and the thing is my father supplies it to me, free. Top of the line from the man who cooked it up. So with that information, I used about 1/2 today within an hour. I want to stop. I feel sick I'm exhausted laying in bed my nose is running worried I'll make it bleed. I have to take a drug test soon and my question is, what are easy steps to move on with a short lived addiction and also detox and clean myself out as quickly as possible. I want to be DONE.
This discussion is related to quitting amphetemine addiction.
This discussion is related to quitting amphetemine addiction.
SOO sorry for you what a story this first thing that came to mind was other that mind games what else has the father done?? supplying you METH wow I feel so bad right now as my brother OD'd off meth in 1993 and never got to see my sons so sad he was a great person but in the end that's what happens to meth users they LOOSE there looks GOGGLE IT!! there is a dozen things you can do to get away from the madness and save yourself and for your father I wont post my thoughts as we want to focus on you.
Seriously? You think this is the time to discuss weight issues? My sister remained addicted to meth for 10 years, part of the reason being the positive reinforcement she got about losing weight while using.
sayl_3m Good on you for posting. It means you are aware of the damage you are doing to yourself. even though you continue to use - acknowledging your addiction is the first step towards making changes.
Temptation is going to be an issue for you, especially because you are being given the drug for free. I agree with others, you need to leave home. By the sounds of things your mother doesn't employ protective behaviours concerning you, so if you leave I suggest you don't tell her where you are going to be as it seems unlikely she would keep that confidential.
Your father is giving you drugs for free to manipulate and control you, to make you dependent on him as your addiction peaks - I believe he will eventually make you do things on his behalf when he is confident that your will has been broken and you can only thin of your next fix.
This is definitely a form of domestic violence, you must get away from your parents and sever contact for a period of time.
Meth floods your brain with dopamine, but you have a finite amount so you will feel extremely depressed when you stop using, it gets quite severe around 2-4 days after last use and you can be angry, paranoid, experience psychosis symptoms and physically feel sick and tired. Really tired. You may get an intense sugar craving as well.
Physically, you will be free of meth after 3 - 5 days, but you can experience psychological and even physical symptoms up to a year after, which is why you need to be in a supported rehab program to ensure sobriwty continues
sayl_3m Good on you for posting. It means you are aware of the damage you are doing to yourself. even though you continue to use - acknowledging your addiction is the first step towards making changes.
Temptation is going to be an issue for you, especially because you are being given the drug for free. I agree with others, you need to leave home. By the sounds of things your mother doesn't employ protective behaviours concerning you, so if you leave I suggest you don't tell her where you are going to be as it seems unlikely she would keep that confidential.
Your father is giving you drugs for free to manipulate and control you, to make you dependent on him as your addiction peaks - I believe he will eventually make you do things on his behalf when he is confident that your will has been broken and you can only thin of your next fix.
This is definitely a form of domestic violence, you must get away from your parents and sever contact for a period of time.
Meth floods your brain with dopamine, but you have a finite amount so you will feel extremely depressed when you stop using, it gets quite severe around 2-4 days after last use and you can be angry, paranoid, experience psychosis symptoms and physically feel sick and tired. Really tired. You may get an intense sugar craving as well.
Physically, you will be free of meth after 3 - 5 days, but you can experience psychological and even physical symptoms up to a year after, which is why you need to be in a supported rehab program to ensure sobriwty continues
Honey:
This is not as simple as a "short lived addiction." You are in a dire situation that requires you to take action---NOW. I know you feel as if you will never get away from your father, but that is your addicted (and brainwashed) brain telling you that. It is NOT rational. He's only a man; he doesn't have supernatural powers.
1. I'd like to say go to the police. And you should...the problem is, some police are just awful. Sorry to any cops out there, or families of cops, I'm not talking about YOU...but I've had experience with law enforcement, especially in small towns, and they can be terrible to women. And so...
2. Contact a social service agency for abused women. If you PM me, and tell me where you are, I'll look into some numbers for you. It shouldn't be hard to find them; you could probably Google "women's abuse services in (name of city)." Tell the person what is happening; the whole thing. Write it down in sequence...that your father kidnapped you, the early abuse, that he is supplying you with drugs, and you need a safe place to stay.
3. You need to be in a shelter, because your sick, drug-addicted father cannot get to you there. They are anonymous and heavily guarded. This is a serious situation, honey. I'm not going to sugar coat this for you: you're going to die if you don't take some drastic action. 50 pounds in 2 weeks is insanely unhealthy and a shock to your system.
I feel for you, I really do. Is there anyone---a friend or family member--who DOESN'T drink or do drugs, who can help you get out?
As I said, you could call the police, but their main concern is to make arrests, not to help women in bad situations. And you can't trust the courts NOT to release your father (even if he was arrested for cooking meth.) Right now, honey, like it or not, YOU ARE A BATTERED WOMAN. You need to be protected, and there are great resources out there to help you escape this horrible, awful situation...this isn't 1975, its' 2015.
Last: You need to trust me that your brain is not processing things normally. You cannot appreciate the severity of your current situation because you are emotionally abused, drug addicted, and essentially being held hostage.
There is no way on God's green earth that you can simply stop using and be okay. It isn't going to happen. You need to first get AWAY from your father, (and make it clear to EVERY PERSON YOU TALK TO that he is dangerous and you are afraid of him. Repeat that over and over, until you feel like you're being repetitious. )
I'm afraid for your life. Please...you're so young. It isn't going to be easy, but just take the steps I have outlined here. Call a crisis hotline, get the name of a shelter, pack a bag (he has to sleep sometime; if it is too risky, then screw the bag...you can always get clothes later) and get the hell OUT. This man is sick and evil, and you need to get away from him. There is no time to think; just do it. I'm old enough to be your mother, and I'm sober: please take my advice.
Good luck little one, and God Bless You.
Hugs,
-Robin
This is not as simple as a "short lived addiction." You are in a dire situation that requires you to take action---NOW. I know you feel as if you will never get away from your father, but that is your addicted (and brainwashed) brain telling you that. It is NOT rational. He's only a man; he doesn't have supernatural powers.
1. I'd like to say go to the police. And you should...the problem is, some police are just awful. Sorry to any cops out there, or families of cops, I'm not talking about YOU...but I've had experience with law enforcement, especially in small towns, and they can be terrible to women. And so...
2. Contact a social service agency for abused women. If you PM me, and tell me where you are, I'll look into some numbers for you. It shouldn't be hard to find them; you could probably Google "women's abuse services in (name of city)." Tell the person what is happening; the whole thing. Write it down in sequence...that your father kidnapped you, the early abuse, that he is supplying you with drugs, and you need a safe place to stay.
3. You need to be in a shelter, because your sick, drug-addicted father cannot get to you there. They are anonymous and heavily guarded. This is a serious situation, honey. I'm not going to sugar coat this for you: you're going to die if you don't take some drastic action. 50 pounds in 2 weeks is insanely unhealthy and a shock to your system.
I feel for you, I really do. Is there anyone---a friend or family member--who DOESN'T drink or do drugs, who can help you get out?
As I said, you could call the police, but their main concern is to make arrests, not to help women in bad situations. And you can't trust the courts NOT to release your father (even if he was arrested for cooking meth.) Right now, honey, like it or not, YOU ARE A BATTERED WOMAN. You need to be protected, and there are great resources out there to help you escape this horrible, awful situation...this isn't 1975, its' 2015.
Last: You need to trust me that your brain is not processing things normally. You cannot appreciate the severity of your current situation because you are emotionally abused, drug addicted, and essentially being held hostage.
There is no way on God's green earth that you can simply stop using and be okay. It isn't going to happen. You need to first get AWAY from your father, (and make it clear to EVERY PERSON YOU TALK TO that he is dangerous and you are afraid of him. Repeat that over and over, until you feel like you're being repetitious. )
I'm afraid for your life. Please...you're so young. It isn't going to be easy, but just take the steps I have outlined here. Call a crisis hotline, get the name of a shelter, pack a bag (he has to sleep sometime; if it is too risky, then screw the bag...you can always get clothes later) and get the hell OUT. This man is sick and evil, and you need to get away from him. There is no time to think; just do it. I'm old enough to be your mother, and I'm sober: please take my advice.
Good luck little one, and God Bless You.
Hugs,
-Robin
wow sayl you are so young I hate to see you going through all of this. yes, you are beautiful and smart and you have so much going for you now. but daim meth is hard enough to quit Without being supplied by dad. you need to put as much distance between you and him as possible and set up as many roadblocks as you can. too bad you couldn't go out of state to rehab. reclaim your life, from this horrible addiction and from your father. you can do this! you will be so much happier and better off. :)
You probably needed to lose weight at 5'5" and almost 200 lbs. Think of this as your start to a healthy life, and be gone with losers, even if they appear to you as "family". You should be considering things like college right now, and how you can better yourself so that you can live your best life. If that's what you'd like to be into, take the advice you've been given. Go to a preacher and see if they have a place for you to get treatment and detox, it might be the cheapest/only option you've got to live.
There were two kinds of people i used with , those who seemingly could go for years abusing themselves and still live, and those who died off quickly. Your losing the type of weight you've lost, puts you in the latter category. Please make the right moves right now, or it might be too late for you.
You don't need a "dad" that acts like this. And you don't need a mom whose influenced by the likes of him. You need to get healthy and build your own family, You're not a little girl anymore, and your looks and sanity are only the beginning of what you're going to lose, if you continue. You're destroying your body. I was put in the hospital for blood poisoning for 30 days on IV morphine, because i stepped on a piece of glass while i was using. My body was so messed up, a sliver of glass in my foot, just about was the end of me. Seriously , get your mind right, and start to take detox and rehab into your psychi as being your best bet, if you're serious about wanting more out of life.
There are many here, including myself who have done what it takes. I've been to rehab. I can counsel you, but you have to be serous and take advice, if you want anything to change.
If nothing changes, simply ,,.... nothing changes.
God bless....(good orderly direction)
There were two kinds of people i used with , those who seemingly could go for years abusing themselves and still live, and those who died off quickly. Your losing the type of weight you've lost, puts you in the latter category. Please make the right moves right now, or it might be too late for you.
You don't need a "dad" that acts like this. And you don't need a mom whose influenced by the likes of him. You need to get healthy and build your own family, You're not a little girl anymore, and your looks and sanity are only the beginning of what you're going to lose, if you continue. You're destroying your body. I was put in the hospital for blood poisoning for 30 days on IV morphine, because i stepped on a piece of glass while i was using. My body was so messed up, a sliver of glass in my foot, just about was the end of me. Seriously , get your mind right, and start to take detox and rehab into your psychi as being your best bet, if you're serious about wanting more out of life.
There are many here, including myself who have done what it takes. I've been to rehab. I can counsel you, but you have to be serous and take advice, if you want anything to change.
If nothing changes, simply ,,.... nothing changes.
God bless....(good orderly direction)
Today is my first day and if he brings any I'm going to try my absolute best to just flush it. But I can't get rid of my dad. He never goes away even after years of trying and even my mom trying to get a restraining order. I
fIf your mother wanted a restraining order, she would have gotten one, with what's going on. It sounds like your mother is therefore not safe for you to be around. You certainly can get rid of your dad, and it is a requirement that you do, in treatment or otherwise. if you hope to have any kind of a life.
I was a user of hard drugs, and i can tell you that if you've lost all that weight in a month, you're not strong enough to continue, in short, you will probably die if you continue.
You should be checking into a detox, and then go to rehab. Making sure that you do go and ask the police for a restraining order yourself. Tell them what you've said about being raped when you were a kid, and what's happening now. Your family is toxic to you. You're 22, and although you are a young adult, you are an adult and you need to look after yourself now.
fIf your mother wanted a restraining order, she would have gotten one, with what's going on. It sounds like your mother is therefore not safe for you to be around. You certainly can get rid of your dad, and it is a requirement that you do, in treatment or otherwise. if you hope to have any kind of a life.
I was a user of hard drugs, and i can tell you that if you've lost all that weight in a month, you're not strong enough to continue, in short, you will probably die if you continue.
You should be checking into a detox, and then go to rehab. Making sure that you do go and ask the police for a restraining order yourself. Tell them what you've said about being raped when you were a kid, and what's happening now. Your family is toxic to you. You're 22, and although you are a young adult, you are an adult and you need to look after yourself now.
Like others have said, rehab would be great because it would allow you to get away while also dealing with the underlying mental issues. If you are worried about your looks, just imagine not ever being able to feel happy or even content because of what meth does over time to your brain. Your detox at this point would be easy, but it won't be after a year or more of using.
It's good you already see the problem and want to quit, you are young so please don't let this drag out.
It's good you already see the problem and want to quit, you are young so please don't let this drag out.
My father is verbally abusive, had to deal with severe brainwashing by the time I was ten and had to see a therapist ever since. I have a few mental disorders that I've always had. I tried to cut ties 3 days ago after he kidnapped me and tried to kill the both of us. He wouldn't leave me alone. I don't like to anymore because I don't even get high off of it anymore because of the amount I've gotten used to daily. But I keep trying? Idk why. I've begged him to quit bringing it but free drugs that I'm unable to quit is like free ice cream to a child. Today is my first day and if he brings any I'm going to try my absolute best to just flush it. But I can't get rid of my dad. He never goes away even after years of trying and even my mom trying to get a restraining order. I made a post about this a few minutes ago and I want to stop so bad. I've seen what it can do, hell I've lost so much weight and my eyes usually have dark circles and are now slightly droopy. And the last thing I want to lose is my looks and my sanity. I've moved an hour away and he tears me apart for making him buy it and use his gas, when I tell him to not even come over. I'm sorry for this long reply. But his abuse is hindering my attempt to quit. I'm scared for my life at this point if I quit using.
22 is such a young age, and you have a full life ahead of you if you remove yourself from this situation as soon as possible. You are not going to remain in this situation long, it will only get worse, not better. This type of situation never ever gets better. A lot of us wish we would have made the decision to stop at 22. You'll have to cut ties with your father if he keeps supplying, let him know you are finished and do not ever want the drugs around you. My mom was supplying me pills and I had to do the same thing, she respected my decision.
It does not sound like you even enjoy getting high, it sounds like it depresses you. What keeps you wanting more? Please change your life now while you can. Best of luck.
It does not sound like you even enjoy getting high, it sounds like it depresses you. What keeps you wanting more? Please change your life now while you can. Best of luck.
Your father is SUPPLYING you meth? That is absolutely tragic. Not to mention insane. I'm sorry you were dealt that hand.
What are the easy steps to move on from a short lived addiction you ask? Wow, we all wish it worked that way. No such thing my friend. You are an addict, and when we remove the drugs, the addiction, the THINKING, the obsession is still there.
Based on what you described, rehab sounds like the best thing for you. You need to get away from your using father: that's a one way ticket to the worst life you've ever known. And yes, it will get worse. You will NOT get clean if you live w/ a supplier. It won't happen. You have some serious thinking to do.
Because of you extreme weight loss, and weight issues on top of your addiction, I strongly suggest getting into rehab. There are non fancy shmancy ones that you can go to that won't be as insanely expensive. I would go to the doctor first and fess up. He/she can aid some of your symptoms and direct you.
Other peeps will be on here so keep checking back in okay? I wish you the best of luck.
What are the easy steps to move on from a short lived addiction you ask? Wow, we all wish it worked that way. No such thing my friend. You are an addict, and when we remove the drugs, the addiction, the THINKING, the obsession is still there.
Based on what you described, rehab sounds like the best thing for you. You need to get away from your using father: that's a one way ticket to the worst life you've ever known. And yes, it will get worse. You will NOT get clean if you live w/ a supplier. It won't happen. You have some serious thinking to do.
Because of you extreme weight loss, and weight issues on top of your addiction, I strongly suggest getting into rehab. There are non fancy shmancy ones that you can go to that won't be as insanely expensive. I would go to the doctor first and fess up. He/she can aid some of your symptoms and direct you.
Other peeps will be on here so keep checking back in okay? I wish you the best of luck.
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