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Quitting my Addiction

Well, first off I am feeling pretty good. I have been abusing pain killers for at least the past four years or so. It started off with kidney stones and soon it was a full blown once a day thing. I finally got up to using at least five lortabs a day. I feel like I can beat this thing I honestly I hate how it makes me lie and takes up all of my money. I am fearing withdrawl quite a bit but no its time to do this. It also effects my work performance because I am always worried about getting more and how to get more. Its been a secret I ve been dealing with for far too long and makes me be someone I know that I am not. I don't want to lie and need money all the time. This site just by reading it and writing this post is already helping me in some way. It almost feels good to know that I am not alone in this one. I am thirty years old and have a fiance who is very supportive he is the only one who knows I take them, however, he believes I only take one a day and he is wrong. He wants me to stop and is willing to do whatever it takes. These pills are honestly our only real major problem with our relationship. I hope this will be easy I have went two days so far, and though its only two days I feel good today and even went outside for a walk and got some homework done. I am studying for my masters degree in psyhcology. Thanks for listening if your out there. I think that just by writing this I feel better. Good Luck to us all.
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I had the same problem, I hated being around others and doing the things I loved while taking my meds. Your life will come back and happiness will return. Your on the right road. Life is better without pills!! Keep up the good work.
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I am feeling pretty good today three days without pills. I haven't been able to say that in a very long time. I really enjoy reading everyones kind posts it really helps me more than you guys could ever know. I know this is an uphill struggle that I will forever climb, but it will get easier I think. I can't wait to enjoy the things in my life that I used to enjoy before pills. Normally I would be only thinking about how to get some for the upcoming Holiday. It's nice to worry about other things then that. I wish us all well together with support we can overcome this I think. I even participated in a study group today something I haven't done in a long while feels good. Thanks again everyone.
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My main motivator was also money. I was spending so much time and money on those stupid pills. Now is the best time of any to quit and get your life back. At almost 60 days now, I can't imagine turning back. If you keep pushing forward, you will be amazed and the strength and determination you will find. Please keep us posted on your progress.
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Hi and congrats on stopping the pills.
I just wanted to let you know that each withdrawal gets worse and each time you use the addiction gets worse.  You think you can take just a couple here and there but it doesn't work that way.  You find yourself back into counting your pills and wondering where your are going to get your next ones from.
Congrats on catching it early and keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
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Our addictions make us become people we never thought we'd be. Its sad but true. You should consider yourself very lucky to have the support of your fiance. I wouldve never been able to stop using if it hadnt been for my husband and my kids. They saw me through my worse. He loves you enough to want the best for you and willing to help you through it. Dont lose that. Because if you let your addiction drive him away you will regret it for the rest fo your life. Dont let it happen. Yes withdrawls suck and you will be out of commission for about a week, but it can be done. Get some counseling for your aftercare. Its crucial for you to talk about how you are feeling. It either makes or breaks your recovery.
You can do this. You have to put in the work though, no one can do this but you. Best of luck to you.
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It gives us a false happiness for sure. Then it takes a while for us to feel again. I actually did better when I went back to work. The day went by a lot faster for me. Good luck today!
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I am at day three and it's Monday which causes me some stress with going back to work and such. However, it's Thanksgiving week and I am more determined today than ever to not take anymore. Does anyone else find that these pills take away all other things that make us happy? I believe my life and all of our lives are worth more than that. I don't want to just live for getting my next set up pills. I wish I never would of taken them but you live and learn. I think we can all do this if we just don't give up. Good luck and will keep this updated with my progress.
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I'm new here also only 22 days clean. Making that first step is hard but it's the best decision that you will ever make. Just take it one day at a time and remember that you will get better! Keep posting and I'm sure you'll get all the support you need. Wishing you the best of luck!  Btw I came off of 90-120mg of oxy daily so I know you can do this with what you were taking.
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4341997 tn?1514588688
welcome to this site!!  it has been a God send to me!!  i found it thurs and have been on it non-stop since then!!  i am 2, almost to the 3 day mark with no pills.....i was on Norco10 for 10+ years and had gotten up to 12-16 a day.....so i am feeling the effects for sure.....hopefully with the lower dose you were taking that your WDs won't be so bad...just keep posting and we are all her for each other!!!  and I can't tell you what you should do but alot of people told me to flush remaining pills if you have any.....i tried the taper off method for 1-2 days and it was just too tempting!!  so i flushed ALL yesterday!  keep on with it!  you will see the other side of this soon!!  good luck to you!!  
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