RELAPSE *****

[jerry4664]

Have not been on site for a while I slipped back into the trap in dec.2015 after surgery and told the standard lies to my PCP and as expected after being clean over a year is was trapped again!!!!!!!! so sad that all it took was going under general that all the feelings came back and the pain meds I needed after surgery were at arm reach I really tried to maintain the first few days but days went to weeks to months so there I was last week out of pills of course RX in hand an headed out the door... I stopped at beach stayed on the shore for an hour or so then dug a hole at the tide line and with tears I buried it about 12" deep I walked a mile or so then went back to where my foot prints lead from the truck to the shore line and just felt tired wore out beat down I just wanted to walk off into the ocean.

So home I went feeling like **** back to the web looking for help and I have done everything before the Thomas recipe ETC. so not sure what I was looking for but looking for anything.  I found something I found something real big.. KRATOM I did not want to come back to this site a talk but now that my head is clear I think I want to share this I was taking 10-15 10/325 NORCO a day for 4 months and stopped CT 3-29-16 day one I went to work almost passed out I hopped on the PC and found this site for opiate WD using this kratom stuff I took 95% of the WD OUT for me I actually went back to shop that I bought it from and told the owner thanks for helping me out I plan to stop taking it this Tuesday and I feel 900,000.00 buck not a million but close.

now after being on this site for many years I know that there are some great people here that could have an issue with me doing this but if it helped me in my shape I know that it will work for many others .  My addiction is strange once im clean I have no real craving and my life goes on normal I could care less as a party pill... its just not me my addiction starts as soon as I get a med procedure so I have changed my life this year and gave up all my extreme sports and plan to paddle board and fish the next decade by and leave the rest a fun memory... so again this was my quick fix and what I did over the past week will not help the normal addict that just cant ever stop due to what ever reason but for those that fail to get clean due to the WD portion .. no sleep loss of energy vomit diarehha etc this could help get online and check it out I spent hours reading watching videos give it a try .. just trying to help..

[dominosarah]

When i first cleaned up i was so surprised that other people took their pills at certain times too!!

[jerry4664]

real real good clear head positive outlook just all around un cloudy feeling plus not counting or needing 2 at 6 2 at 9 2 at noon 3 at 6 and so on thanks..

[dominosarah]

I remember that moving train!!  lol

How are you feeling today?

[jerry4664]

Yes I did tell them that I have a problem but that was before the procedure then I did not say anything because the train was moving haha.

[dominosarah]

Sorry to hear about your relapse Jerry.  As for the kratom, i dont agree but that is just my opinion.  I have seen many issues on this forum from ones who went that route.  Have you not told any of your doctors about your addiction?  That is very important in case we do have medical issues in the future.

Shuffleboard is pretty harmless too!!!