Relapse after break up

[fandf]

Last night and today, I have relapsed yet again on Tussionex. For the past two weeks, I have felt nothing but excruciating pain in my heart from so many losses. My divorce, my ex boyfriend and my recent ex boyfriend. Then, I used last night. I took a tablespoon of the tussionex and I felt numb. I felt happy. I felt like I didn't want to kill myself. So I took two teaspoons today. The pain is still nagging at the back of my head. I know it is there, but it is numbing me out to the point to where I can actually concentrate on somethign other than the pain. I can even watch TV>

[mamaof4410]

ImGettingClean...Awesome quote.

[ImGettingClean]

mamaof4410 is right..u need to learn to deal w/ your troubles, not sweep them under the rug.

"Dont keep sweeping your troubles under the rug for someday you'll trip over it."

[mamaof4410]

Avoiding the pain or basically sweeping it under the rug does not make it go away. You need to acknowledge it and deal with it. Your addiction will only get worse.
You can do it if you really want to but only you can do the work. Losing a bf is NOT the end of the world. You had a life before them and you will have a life after them. But doing drugs to numb the pain is not the answer. you need to talk to someone about how youre feeling. Trust me this is not the way to do it.