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3176864 tn?1391555073

Relapses for newly clean

Wanted to post for those newly clean that are thinking about using one more time.   You cannot ever take just 1 or for one day especially when newly clean.

I quit for January 2 for the last time. Well when I went to my doctor 8 days later to tell him I quit I got one more script and threw it out after one day.  Then a week later I literally went through my phone to find anyone I knew that may have pills.  Of course I found an old friend that had some. So I relapsed for 4 days.  

I'm now 3 days clean and just using 4 days gave me withdraw symptoms. So instead of having 25 days clean. I'm at 3 and feel mentally back at square one.

I started aftercare, but have found if u have any access to pills especially in early recovery u likely will use. Just wanted to post to help if anyone out there is on the fence.
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3176864 tn?1391555073
Thanks for all the support and ideas. I really appreciate it
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3060903 tn?1398565123
PS Using a tracker helps to keep us accountable by celebrating every single clean day we have.
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3060903 tn?1398565123
Congratulations on your 3 days clean!!!! That is fantastic~ You know that you need a program, so read everything you can and put it into place. Meetings (open and closed), a sponsor, a better sponsor, exercise, nutrition, sleep, water, vitamins, hobbies, everything and anything that you can do to support your recovery. We learn as we go, don't be put off because of relapse, it happens, until you put all the things in place, your recipe for "winning" over this disease of addiction. Never give up, just keep changing your program until you get it right. Be wary about switching your addiction. Any meds that are ever prescribed to you, research them and plan on the worst case scenario. Nothing beats being clean and sober. In my journey It was suggested I go on methadone, blood pressure meds, high cholesterol meds, diabetes meds. and said no to all. I managed all these diseases with what God gave me.  I've now got over 13 years clean and sober and would again step up and take a pill, without always questioning whether there was a natural cure.  You can do this too~ God Speed. We're all rooting for you. My suggestion is to make some friends who have long term sobriety, and follow their example. You can do this in open meetings. Can't wait to hear of your rewards for getting clean.
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4204073 tn?1361831476
Addiction takes us to primal behavior of obtaining and using.   Detoxing isnt enough.   It takes recovery to help us get back to logical thinking and reasoning and not fall back into primal thinking of using.  
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495284 tn?1333894042
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That is why we always say getting clean is the easy part, staying clean is the hard one.  The important thing is you stopped and realized what got you in trouble the last time.  
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4626633 tn?1382597122
I have 25 days, having quit Jan 2nd. I have no doubt if I had a pill around I would swallow in a heartbeat.
I'm looking into aftercare now too.  Sorry you have to do this over again. But it can be the last time. Thanks for sharing.
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I spent about 2 1/2 yrs quitting and relapsing, 5 days, 10 days, I think I made it 13 days doing it all my way. Just one so I can have one day of sanity, months later I'd start over. I can't explain how humbling telling everyone was. Dealers, friends, family, co-workers, but I didn't have a choice anymore. My secret ate at me for far too long. Great post, and soooo true. One is too many and 1000 is never enough. I truly believe that the humility of forming accountability I surrounded myself with was the one thing that got me through it. Stay strong and reach out in every direction for help, you're life depends on it.
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470217 tn?1360565361
Thank you!
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