Reporting in to everyone...

[Yoda99]

To everyone that's been following my story, I just wanted to report in.  
   I wanted to say that even though I've been feeling really good since day 11, I don't feel very well this morning.  I did get 5 hrs sleep and that's a big improvement but I took something called Unisom.  I read it on someone's post.  Well I guess I have to get used to it because my head feels twice it's size.  The tylenol pm does not make me feel that way.  And even though the full blown diahreah has stopped, I'm still very "loose" and every morning it starts all over.  I let it go naturally for about two times and then I take something for diahreah that I asked the dr to give me.  It's Lomotil and it works better than immodium.  I'll take two tabs in the morning and no more movements the rest of the day.
   Yesterday I was up at 5:15 and didn't stop until I fell in the bed at 11:15 and now I guess I'm going to pay for it today.  My legs are absolutely killing me and I'm tired but I have so much to do.
   I guess after you start having good days you'll continue to have a few bad ones once in a while and I think today is going to be my first bad one since the good ones came along.  But I'm still trying and I'm not going to cave...
Thanks to all of you for your support.
Yoda

[texasrebecca]

Sorry about your reaction with the unisom, I was staying home, and taking it again, so I didn't have to worry about really gettin gup and functioning.  Lomotil is a narcotic based medication, which is why it is helping you, but it is NOT what you should take.  It uses the narcotic effect to bulk you up, the same way pills would do, that is why people get consipated when they take opiads.   That medication works the same way, be careful using it during your detox, I would hate to see you get this darn far, only to ruin it by something you just didn't know about, so make sure your doctor knows you are going cold turkey, and using that med.  

(((((big hugs to you)))))  and, sorry about the unisom, I guess I should have stated how powerful it really is, I guess it is only for the person that can stay home and just sleep, sleep, sleep!

[Yoda99]

Oh, I forgot to say I'm the one that gets 180 of the 80 tabs oxy every month and am prescribed them for the real pain I have in my legs and back as a result of a very back car wreck over 2 years ago.  But I got to where I was going thru them in two weeks not just for pain but for the high.  It became all important in my life.  All I could think about were the oxys.  But today is day 14 c/t for me (and even though I have a full filled scrip in a sock hidden way back in my closet), I'm not going to touch them.  (I hope.)  My legs are killing me today but I'm going to try the arthristis tylenol again after I eat a little something.
I need encouragement ya'll.
Yoda

[texasrebecca]

Here is th elink I found, read the first few sentences, it is related to demerol!

http://www.medicinenet.com/diphenoxylate_and_atropine/article.htm

[Yoda99]

Hey texasrebecca, thanks for the encouragement and advice.  I don't have a problem with the Lomotil.  I've taken it on and off for years.  I guess it's the only thing I've never gotten addicted to and I've been addicted to many things.  Thanks to my father, and his father before him, and his father before him, etc...  I come from a long line of alcoholics and my dad was an alcoholic and pill popper. It's usually the men in the family that get this affliction.  I'm the lucky one out of my sibs.  I got the problem.  But hey, I think the Unisom worked great and if I could've slept longer, I probably wouldn't feel this way.  I'm sure it will wear off.  But until I can get to where I can back my normal sleep pattern, I think I'll stick with the tylenol pm.
Thanks for your support and advice.
Yoda

[texasrebecca]

yeah, Sorry for butting in, I seem to be good at that.  Especially during my hard times, like now.  These stomach cramps are about to kill me I swear!  I've been up for an hour now, holding on for dear life!  Not even the unisom allowed me to sleep through this pain!  Again, sory for sticking my nose where it doesn't belong.  Hope you have a good day! Becky

[Yoda99]

No apology needed.  It just shows that you care.  Now what can I do for you?  What day are you on and what are you recovering from?  Because you know, you will make it.  Let me know if I can help.
Yoda (Linda)

[texasrebecca]

DAY 3 !  Its hell!  I HATE THIS SO MUCH!!!  I'm not handling this like I thought I could.  My stomach hurts SO BAD I can't stand it!  It is cramping up, and then I have to RUN to the bathroom!  I hope this part doesn't last long, because I'm going to end up in the ER if it doesn't!  I'm so tired, but I can't sleep, and I'm just sitting here crying and shaking and typing.  This is all have, so thank god for this board!  I feel like such a big time LOSER!  I really hate myself right now.  My kids need a better mother than me right now, and that is the honest to god truth!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like such a waste of space and everyone's air.  What the world needs is less people like me it!

[texasrebecca]

I'm siging off for a while now, I need to do some serious thinking.  Thanks for everyones kind words and support.  

[Yoda99]

Oh honey, you will get thru it and you will be the mother you want to be.  You're going to have a few days of this.  I think that god awful cramping in the stomach and puking only lasted two days for me.  But that's funny, I thought I was going to have to go to the ER.  But it passed.  I was lucky, I didn't have to take care of anyone but myself.  It would really be great if the kids could go to grandma's or a good friends' for the weekend.  Then you wouldn't feel so guilty and could just stay in bed.  It'll get better, I promise.
Yoda 14 days clean

[DAnthrope]

Hey my sister I'm glad to hear your sock is still full and you're holding the line!  Sorry to hear you've hit a bad day - I'm having a couple of those myself! LOL :-)  But hold strong, I'm sure tomorrow will be better.  You've been through the worst and you're well on your way to owning your life again.

I also wanted to say how much I appreciated your posts yesterday. You have much wisdom and insight to offer, and although I don't have as much time to reply as I'd like I am definitely reading and following your progress closely!!!

Please do keep posting progress reports-  and please know you are in my thoughts, prayers, and in my heart.  As so many here are - my brothers and sisters.

Peace
/D

[Yoda99]

Thank you.  You're very kind.  I guess I just thought after day 11, 12 were good and 13 was okay.... that 14 would be good or okay.  But I don't feel well.  I have a horrible headache and I'm very tired.  I think the headache might be because of the Unisom I took last night.  I've never tried it before but I woke up with my head feeling two sizes too big.
Anyway your encouragement is what I need and I really appreciate it.  And I also respect so much how you and bowhunter worked things out.  It's funny:  It made me think of my sons playing soccer and I would be the peacemaker in the stands with the parents.  The parents could get ugly and vulgar and that wasn't acceptable to me.  My sons would come home and say: aw mom, what are you trying to do, embarrass us?  But it worked.  We had the best behaved parents in the league.
Anyway thank you
and love to you.
Yoda

[DAnthrope]

Anytime you need some words of inspiration or encouragement - let me know.
If I have any gifts to give my sisters and brothers here I will always try my best.

And yeah, I gotta say, I was feeling pretty down last night until bowhunter posted again and it really gave me new hope for this forum and the world in general.

We can have different beliefs, and yet accept others freely.

But we all agree, it doesn't matter HOW you get clean only that you DO.

Peace
/D