85Days as of today and still going strong,,life has returned to normal and more importantly I have returned to normal. 85 days ago if you would have told me this is where I would be I would have laughed in your face (or punched ya-lol). Its soooo worth going thru all the pain of withdrawal and the mental h*ll to get to this point. I am proud of myself,,,but most importantly I am sober. ~Bkitty
whatever your drug(s) of choice were, it's the same disease. I like AA too.
I'm 50, and some NA meetings are filled with 20-somethings and the F-bombs are flying. For me, what matters is the recovery and staying clean and sober. I don't want to relapse. It's that simple. and I'm willing to go to any lengths to stay clean. I was willing to go to any lengths to get dope.
Thanks for being here and God bless.
Hey everyone, I'm new. In 3rd day withdrawal from years of hydro/soma for chronic pain. I feel like I'm over the hump of the worst now. Chronic pain is so hard, I was so afraid for so long to even talk to my doctor about tapering off because when you are in chronic pain the worst thing you can imagine is not having your meds just in case. I, like many people hoarded my pills so I would never run out. When I wasn't in as much pain I wouldn't take as much so I had extras. I never took more than I was suppose to. Over time, I think my body got used to my dosage and I refused to take more so I think part of my chronic pain syndrome was low level withdrawal over an extended period of time because my body wanted more. I didn't want to be a slave to this any longer so monday I took the last hydro and decided to detox after weeks of tapering. Anyway - glad to find this board, have found comfort in reading all the posts, experiences. Thank you all.
Hi, it wasn't until I found this site that I decided to get off pills. It has helped me soooo much, just reading everyones posts everyday, I'm not all the way there yet, still tapering down on methadone. This site is so just so great, just to read that everyone else is going threw the same thing! :)
Its not until i found this site i realised i had a problem. Well on day 2 its the first time in 6 months. Thanks for all your support and messages. Glad i met u all. I know u have to want it. But for me i need it. My mum died 22 years ago when i was 14, now 36. From alcohol. I will not let history repeat. Just because my doc is different. Its still same situation. Sorry for going on lol. Be strong x
day 31 for me and my husband !!! good job to eveyone for staying clean !
Day 15 for me, going strong and hanging on. Been a struggle but I try and keep simple. No matter how bad I feel or how bad my day is, I will not put a substance in my body on that day..my worst days clean still outweigh my best days high...thanks and love to everyone who posts truly wonderful
392 opiates.
362 benzos.
What helped through the mental WDs? hmmm. Immersing myself in work was a good distraction..the journey of self-discovery to understand what my triggers and reasons to use, encompassed a lot of the other time. Knowing that after 25 years of active addiction, I was going to finally live my life on lifes terms, was the most powerful motivation. But everyday was for that day only. And look it that...392 days later. :) One happy man.
Gary
Yep I come here to get new friends, support and advice or suggestions. I love it. Glad you are here for us. Carol
Great words. I have never used pills but it is the same with alcohol. I struggle each day with my crazy thoughts. I come here to hear how others are working their programs, regardless of if it is pills or alcohol- everyone has something important to say. Carol
I come here daily as well. I do AA, have a sponsor and a list of people to call if I need them. Mental stuff drives me crazy- have to change the pattern of thinking. Family means the most and I am just now getting their trust back. I am here for you- together we will do this. Carol
Hi Aim, I know the mental part all too well. I went to inpatient, got sober and then intensive outpatient. But they didn't address my depression. Now I see a therapist for it. It is great. I still have times where I say- why should I put up with this when I felt better drinking. I have learned that I have faulty perceptions of recovery and what I expected to happen. So now working on it. I just do it little by little. Each day I do two tasks I need to do, and read meditations each morning. Carol
HI Ya'll! 39 days for me. I agree that the emotional has been very tough. I had to deal with panic attacks etc. for a few days. For the past 3 days, my back has been really messed up and I am having to learn to deal with severe pain. It *****! I go to the doctor for my epidural injections next week so hoping that will help; I also start 3 nights a week outpatient rehab next week.
Thank God for this website, I do not think I would have been able to do this without it.
I sure know those feelings. I go to AA 3x a day- usually 7am when that is the time I want to drink. Then noon and at night. I go with others from meetings for coffee (usually water for me) and just talk and ask questions. It is great that there is so much support here and other places I go. Carol
Hi lulu- one thing I learned is that it is about me- not others. I take first priority and I'm sorry you don't like it. If I drink again I am dead. Fact. I have to work on my family in not making me feel guilty about what I am doing- they liked me when I was drunk. I take it moment by moment. Carol
Yes Kyle- the mental part was the hardest- I really had to look at my alibis; playing victim and choosing my battles wisely. It gets better day by day. I come here often, go to AA, have a sponsor and go to ***********.com for more support between meetings. Carol
He Charlie- yep it is such a new experience. I used to drink myself to sleep and now I have to find other ways to go to sleep. Changed diet, exercise, read. It gets easier each day. I am here with you. Carol
Hi misty, I agree I will take all the support and suggestions I can get. Together we will do this. Carol
60 days for me. I am learning to change my perception of what recovery is, doing a serious evaluation of myself. I learned there are so many ways we can sabotogue our recovery. I am in AA, individual counseling, do *************.com and come here. Thanks for all the tips and support. Carol
21 days clean, And i'm loving getting my life back.. It is an amazing feeling .. Well i have to say that the thing that helps me get through and still does is well of course is God he strengthens me everyday.. And many members on this forum it is so nice to be able to speak with others that know exactly what one another is going through.. And that alone is awesome.. HEY EVERYONE WE ARE CLEAN AND RECLAIMING OUR LIVES BACK.. CHEERS TOO EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US....
SOPHIA
81 days minus one fark up. But not gonna reset over a day... I am on everyday because i met some really.good.friends. And like seeing the newbies join and help.them. I remember when i came here. I love the fact addicts helping addicts. We are a unit of support...together we stand...individually we fall.