Rough Day

[Pat1956100]

Wow this was a rough one.  Started out so lazy and bitchy.  ImDone made me go for a walk which I did and the fresh air felt so good but it was cold.
I feel like I have to accomplish something around this house every day so I did a few things, laundry, dishes, made supper.  I had to rest and that's when the anxiety set it.  I had been having cravings all day but wow they hit hard all of a sudden.  My body was screaming for pills.  I had to jump up and do something. I couldn't sit still.
It did pass and I felt so much better.  Kind of like having an aching tooth pulled.  Just relief.  I don't know what to expect from here but I really feel like I weathered a storm today.  It's day 8 or 9 so it has to get better, right?

[Abby_916]

Hi Pat. I'm really hoping that you are getting some much needed sleep. I feel like I'm going to pull out my hair. Running a hot bath now and am going to try to sit in it as long as possible. Been visiting other peoples pages and trying to be encouraging. Posting on this site is helping a lot to get my mind off of these horrible feelings. Ok, going to jump in the bath. Just wanted to say thanks for all the support.

[Pat1956100]

I will check it out. I know I looked for it before and couldn't find it.

Dishes are done, even cleaned my microwave, toaster and the inside of my kitchen window.  
Everything is bugging me now.  I have been in a fog for over 5 years and didn't care if anything got done.  
So much to do but trying not to get overwhelmed.
Not having any trouble keeping busy though and that's a good thing.

Abby, keep posting, we will help you through this and I am so happy that I am helping you.  So many have helped me.
You can do this, if I can. xo

[wantfreedom495]

Hi Pat,

I really know that feeling. I felt that way off and on between Days 20 - 27. Day 28 it started getting so much better. I stayed on this board where all of you gave me hope. Also, last night, instead of feeling bad for myself, I read 1/2 of The Big Book of AA. It's right on the internet now. You can Google it. I hope that it helps. You are doing so well. You took the walk. You posted. I'm pulling for you, Pat! I know what it means when they say "Don't leave before the miracle."

[ImDONENoMore]

definitely... do the dishes... there is nothing worse than waking up to a sink full of dirty dishes..I don't care how late it is, I can NOT wake up to that.. clear out the sink - you'll feel better.

[Abby_916]

Hi Pat. I'm praying for you! You'll get thru this. I read somewhere else that a heating pad does wonders. I'm only on day one and dreading what's to come. So, when you feel really bad, remember that I'm looking towards you for inspiration. We can do this! I'm sorry but I think I'm going to be a copycat and try all your methods lol. Keep it up! You're almost there!

[conhall]

Breath in that air batGirl It does you good mentally walking gets those endorphins going and you need that ;-)
I am proud of you!
Each day you will see the anxiety gets easier to deal with. You will have waves and just remember they do pass and Learn to ride the waves baby!

[Pat1956100]

Yeah, I am but those dishes are calling me.  I will feel better once they are done and I plan my next meal lol.

I forgot what fresh air was like, I swear.  I have just been breathing it in so deeply every walk.

[ImDONENoMore]

Couldn't agree more, pat, as I've been outside quite a few times today and it's amazing just what fresh air alone can do for you.  Who would have thought something as simple as that could make such a difference?  But it does.

I hope you are relaxing right now, cause girl, you deserve it.  :)

[Pat1956100]

Much better than yesterday.  I or someone who shall remain nameless (ImDone) forced myself to go for a walk.  It was snowing a bit and cold.  I walked and then went to the store, then put my bbq away for the winter, found my shovel and that's about it.  I still have lots of dishes to do (yuck) but that's what I get for cooking.
Going to relax here for a bit and hopefully accomplish a few things today.
The fresh air did feel so good.
My house was freezing this morning.  I got dressed in a hurry lol.
Had to turn the heat on.
Going for a walk was a great decision.

[Workinghardtobreakfree]

How is your day going today Pat?
Thinking about you. Fight a good fight today. :) I am right beside you doing the same.
K

[clean_in_ks]

Mornin' Sweet Thang!  If it's snowing when you go for your walk, maybe you'll do somethin for me......lift your face up to the snow flakes and let them fall on your face, and oh yeah, open your mouth and let the snow hit your tongue!!!  Let your "kid" out today!!

[Teresa1717]

awwwww you guys are so sweet its giving me a toothache!!  LOL Geez, its this kind of affection that keeps me warm and fuzzy :)

[ImDONENoMore]

haha - I hate you and I love you too!  Good girl, keep your word and you'll  have an entire afternoon to yourself!!  :)

[Pat1956100]

Deal

[Pat1956100]

Well Good morning ImDone.
I will be bundling up and going for a walk today.  Maybe not right away, but I will go.  It seems like a lovely day for a walk and I am sure it will cure this fuzzy head of mine.
Thanks for asking.
I hate you , I mean I love you
Pat

[ImDONENoMore]

How about we make a deal... you get something done this morning, and get some fresh air.  Then I'll give you the afternoon off to be as lazy as you want to be!  Deal?

[ImDONENoMore]

It's 29 degrees here today and I've been out twice already... now tell me, how annoying is that?  But I will admit, the posts that tell folks to keep moving during early detox used to tick me off more than any of the others... I'm pretty sure that meant I needed to get up and get moving... LOL!!

[ImDONENoMore]

morning Pat..  ok well I think you know me well enough by now to know what I'm going to say to you?  lol..

But actually I'm going to sit back and see what YOU decide you should do today.  It's your turn today.  :)

[Pat1956100]

Thanks everyone
I am sure today will be better.
It's cold 27 and they are calling for snow showers and it to be windy today.
I wonder if ImDone will let me off without going for a walk today?
I mean it's Sunday.  The Day of rest lol.
We shall see.
Fuzzy headed again and I do need to clear it and get some things done today.  Hoping for a better day and I don't feel miserable like yesterday.
What a battle though.  It takes so long to get your body back to normal.
Another day closer.  Yay me.  
thanks again for all the support.  It means so much and gives me strength.

[SmokeyTheDog]

Hang in there Pat and stay strong, we have all been there OR are reading these posts and are so scared to go there. The journey to a truly happy life is now in reach. I am so proud of you and following your each step. XXXOOO

[marycarmel]

I don't post all that much and was dependent versus addicted but went through a very long, nasty taper.  I didn't feel like myself for longer than i want to say.  I've been watching your posts and silently cheering you on.  So sorry you had such a rough day but I love that you just kept plowing through it ... and posting the good with the bad.  While helping you, you're helping so many others.  Hope today is a better day for you!  Bitterly cold here this morning though.

[Teresa1717]

Im really glad you pulled yourself out of it today Pat without reaching for your crutch! the stress, anger and anxiety you had today, and the fact that you were able to handle it healthy (no pills) shows me how far you have come!! Im proud of you for getting out and walking. Im just plain proud of you :)

One more day under your belt!

[Brightfutureahead]

Pat...just wanted to say I think you're doing fabulous :)

[NowOrNever43]

I was bitchy today too! :) Of course it has to bet better :) So proud of you!!! Xoxox