Rough day :(

[On2better]

Maybe I'm overdoing it. Day 4 hydro w/ds and I got up at 6, walked the dog, went to NA, then met with a bunch of friends for happy hour. Well right off the bat, a friend asks "what's wrong? Something is wrong, it's written all over your face! Your energy has changed!" Well i know the answer to her question: "how can i put this delicately...im not HIGH!" normally I pop a norco 10 before I go out and keep them in my purse so I can dip into my stash as needed. I just played it off to getting in a fight with my hubby and feeling "sick." of course I drank just water, unlike all my other friends who were drinking bloody marys and cocktails. And that was conspicuous! Oh well, just chalked it all up to not feeling well and got my sweaty jittery *** outta there STAT! So I cried all the way home and then took a hot bath which was nice. The addict in me told me to have some wine with dinner as a reward and to calm my nerves. I thought about it, but eventually just cracked another water bottle and told that b** to go to h-e double hockey sticks.

Thanks for listening.

[littlebit667]

glad it helped!  Sometimes I have to do that to myself.  Is my glass half full or half empty!  :)

[On2better]

Loved your post! You're so right! Thank you!

[littlebit667]

Turn it around!  You had a GOOD day!  You got out and spent some time in the world without pills!  You survived clean! Awesome day!!!  Get some rest and know you succeeded!

[On2better]

Thank you all, it's amazing how I went to bed feeling so lonely with nowhere to turn, post on here, and already have support from 3 fellow addicts. It means so much to me right now. Thank you.

[Clong45]

Through my experience, I find it best not to push myself in any social situations (execpt for NA meetings) at least through the first week.  I found it better to keep my surroundings comfortable.  It's too much mental stress cause the brain is still wondering what the crap is going on.  But that is just me.  Them emotions will come up, I say:  LET THEM OUT!  Cry when you feel like it, Laugh when you can.  I even get mad at my addiction and take it out on the punching bag.  Sorry you had a bad day, but it gets better.  Keep you head up!  You are almost through the worst!

[Sonrissa]

Hi! Oh, I know just how you feel! I give you tremendous credit for getting up and out on day 4! For me, day 4 was really tough! Just hang in there, you are doing great! I cried buckets those first few days! It actually felt good to get all that crap out of my system! You should be turning the corner now and I hope you will start feeling much better soon! Stay strong, keep moving forward! Keep drinking that water! Take care!

[Bkitty]

I am sorry that you had a bad day. Day 3 and 4 were really tough for me too. I did a lot of crying. I felt like I lost my best friend in a way. Breaking up with the pills and habits you got into is hard and feels awkward in the beginning. Give it some time. I wish it would happen overnight but it doesnt. Hang in there and keep doing what you are doing. Congrats on Day 4!! ((hugs))~Bkitty