Rough day

[reviewer]

Hey everyone,  I havent posted in awhile been busy with a new job... I was clean from everything for almost 2 weeks, the w/ds were not too bad.. I find myself binging in pills.. I wont take any for a few days then I might take 3 in a day.  I feel so terrible.. My axiety and depression are pretty bad... I am taking Lexapro for the depression.  I just want this cycle to stop I dont like it at all and I know I am the one to stop it, I just cant find the strength right now.. Things are really stressful at my house and it just makes the anxity worse... I dont want this running or ruinig my life any longer.  I was just wondering if there were people out there in my postition.

[mimi1313]

I'm on the 10mg a day and I take it once a day. I started it the week I tapered and it helped so much. But please don't give up. There are other options out there.

[worried878]

Try your best to stay away from them....it is just not gonna solve anything...maybe you could post next time before u use and get some support...keep trying

[GoingToMakeIt]

Remember too that these drugs have totally depleted are stores of endorphins and our ability to produce much seratonin. I am still on Zoloft, depression can be a bear during and after withdrawals.

[slk714]

oh i understand, and i know that working pms can throw you for a loop, you try to go in ok, but it does take alot for those of us who arent night owls. and with your daughter, whew, my sson is my stress!!! God Bless him, but i cant seem to get a foot in the door without the door being slammed on it!!!!  has she had her baby yet?? if not, God Bless you for taking them on, with the pregnancy hormones and all, i have been a bear to live with. glad to hear from you, you are right we will do this together!!! lets get it done, we both have lives waiting for us, my baby and your grandbaby too.

[reviewer]

I tapered the last time and I thought I was just doing great and then I just started taking these 3or 4 day and I dont want the cycle to start again.... What milligram of Lexapro are you on and does it help?

[GoingToMakeIt]

There is never a good time to quit. But quitting is always the right thing to do. Our minds and bodies will always look for reasons to justify not quitting. If you were able to be clean for 2 weeks. You have proved that you can kick this.
     It takes a deep commitment to never use again. It takes aftercare and sometimes counseling. Take a look at the Health Pages near the top right. Read about amino acids etc. It is a long road back to normal. It will not happen in 2 weeks or even 2 months. It does get slowly better but even then there are set backs at times. Don't let this discourage you. It is meant as a reality check. Relapse happens. Just get back on course. remember the goal is staying clean.

[reviewer]

Thanks Sandi,
I needed to hear that... I think if I could get ahold of this anxiety I would be ok... The new job is ok.. I get really stressed out before I go but once I get there I am ok... That is why I started with the Lexapro...
This sounds bad but my anxiety hasnt gotten any better now that my daughter has moved back in... the whole house feels tense and on edge and she brings so much drama into the house with her and her boyfriend that I really get so tired of it.... and that makes me feel guilty as a mom... vicious cycle....
I am glad to hear from you.. I was wondering how you were doing... hang in there we will do this together...
Kim

[mimi1313]

Oh we've all been in your position. Stress is a big trigger for a lot of people.
I know how you feel with the anxiety and depression. Mine was really bad and I take Lexparo as well.

Did you taper or go CT last time?

[slk714]

hey you, i am so sorry to hear you are suffering, i know we havent talked for a while, but i am here for you. we have both been going through tough times, and i know with your new schedule its been hard to adjust. hang in there, you are so strong, this is part of the addiction taking over, i was struggling myself today. i understand. and believe me when i tell you the anxiety in the house makes it so much worse to cope...after all is said and done, try to remember that good feeling that comes with the accomplishment of tapering or CT, i am trying to remind myself the same thing, we are in the same boat :)
please hang in there, we will talk soon. ok