Normal!!! At 15 days I wanted to rip my coworkers arms from their bodies & beat them with the bloody stumps! I had a 5 year 20 a day Norco addiction. Today is day 23 & it's a good day. You may actually have a depression issue that you arenot aware of due to all the self medicating we do. See your MD & tell him/her what is happening. It sounds stupid but try finding the pleasure in things & string them together. Life can hurt sometimes but this too will pass. You are really not alone. If you can, seek out an NA meeting. No one will judge you & you will get the human contact you need. Your husband has church, make that your safe place to go. You can even get a hug & feel better knowing that others understand.
Hey girl, i must say i am very proud of you too. I know we started around the same time. Glad you are hanging in there! Keep it up and yes WE CAN do this!!! I am feeling much better tonight. This week i am focusing on getting out more, going to the gym, and eating healthier....so hopefully that will help some with my emotions. Take care. Jeri
I am also 15 days clean and I can certainly identify. I am not crying but I have this undercurrent of anger going on. I think if I found a pill today I would of took it. Luckily I didnt and I got through another day clean.
These emotions are just phases in our recovery. Detoxing was one part, now our brains need to make new connections and chemistry. Its like PMS, very real but temporary.
We can do this!!
Thanks Brian! I am really proud of my accomplishment. It was very hard to get to this point but i made it and happy to do so. You have really encouraged me along the way! Thank you so much! I am proud of you too! Take care. Jeri
Being 15 days clean is a huge accomplishment!! It takes a little bit of time to get over the anxiety and depression but it will pass. Always remember that tomorrow will be a better day. We also have to realize that even non addicts have their rough days. We as addicts were so use to taking a few extra pills on our bad days to make it through. Eventually you will be able to push through the rough days just as anyone else does. I know it's hard for us to realize this but it will all work out. If we have 10 bad days a month that means we have 20 other days that are good days. We just have to find the positive no matter how negative things can seem to be at times.
Just hang in there Jeri and know that the depression will pass. It doesn't get better overnight but it will get better with each passing day. Be very proud of yourself for what you have done. Knowing you have 15 days clean should bring a huge smile to your face!!
Keep up the great fight!!
Glad to help. Keep posting...you are doing an excellent job!! You're emotions will stabilize..it just takes a while. Like you said...plus, a fight with hubby and then he bails to go to church doesn't make things any easier on you :-(
Take care of yourself
You are right! Everyone is watching the SB. Not much of a football fan myself. Thank you for the encouraging words. I just needed someone to talk to for a minute. Appreciate it. I guess it probably didn't help that the hubs and i got in a fight before he left for church. That never helps depression..lol. Thank you. I will have myself a good cry and move on. I need to learn how to cope with my emotions without taking pills!!! Thanks again.
If you wanna sing out, sing out and if you wanna be free, be free...cuz there's a million ways to be...you know that there are
Don't get down on yourself...if you feel like crying...then do it. It can be cathartic if you play your cards right. I think a lot of people are watching the superbowl right now....I personally can't stand football so here I am.
Hang in there and keep posting. It's okay to feel blue......things will stabilize for you. Just don't worry about it and live in the now....and if you feel like crying or laughing right now, then do it!
My doc was roxy/oxy. I have been clean for bout 15 days with a minor vicoden relapse in between. I was doing wonderful today. Nobody but my husband knows about my addiction and it is hard when your having a rough time and nobody to talk to. He is at church tonight. I did go shopping for a bit, but it felt really weird. I almost felt out of place and like everyone was looking at me. I have been high everyday for almost a year. I guess i just need to get used to my daily funtions being myself. I do talk to my friends on the phone but i can't tell them about my depression or addiction. I just act like everything is okay to them. I am sure this depression will pass soon...i don't know what's wrong with me!!! Thank you for being so nice. You take care too. Jeri
I'm sorry you're having such a bad night. The crying is good once and a while. I know you feel lonely. Are you alone all of the time. I don't know what you DOC is or whole long you've been using. You did the right thing by coming here b/c the worse thing you can do is isolate yourself when you feel depressed.
You can vent here anytime. I might be able to help more if I had more info.