After moving to live with my parents (I was in dire need of help, and was promised, manipulated to live with them) after much persuasion. I was forced my the governing medical body here to see my dad's primary. I couldn't establish care for 6 months. I had to wait 6 months. I digress. She said a few nasty things to me, and after telling me she would not give me a medication to get my period going and stable because I was in peri-menopause at before 40!! She said I wasn't "mother material" and refused to help me. While I was still processing this I thought I would tell her how I was suffering from night terrors because I had been stalked, and attacked by the maintenance man of the apartment building I was renting from Century 21, he was on parole for multiple rapes. The state dropped the ball too. I thought to tell her so she understands I was a highly goal oriented person, ambitious, and enthusiastic. She called me a liar. It was then I knew a healthy working doc/patient relationship was impossible and I walked out.
I attempted to make a formal complaint because Im fully aware of the damage that can cause a woman who had just been raped. I needed to do the right thing again.
She wrote in my file (I only learned this 2 years later, and even after going back to her out of demoralization) that I walked out because I had asked for permission to use illicit street drugs, and got mad when she said no and walked out. Smiles. I know! Who on earth would ask a doc they've just met for such a thing? And their father doctor to boot!
Gimme a break! I smoked a joint a few times upon returning and visiting friends I had not seen in years. Hardly the hardcore drug user at all. I was rejected by every doc I saw and once told to go to a clinic for pain management. I drove the 13 hours to see the docs I had left.
Still perplexed by this, refused by surgeons to perform surgery I tried to get to the bottom of this. The medical entity here will only release the portion of my records that encompasses the visit I had to establish care with her.
I have not only been flagged but blacklisted as well. I am too ill to fight this now, but I guess I must to amend the records.
How the hell do I get someone to help me?
I have had two episodes of temp paralysis in my arms. There is no disc material between C4-5 and C5-6. The spinal cord is compressed and being flattened. My oxygen intake is only 92% now. I am truly in deep waters, and nobody cares enough to even throw me a life-vest. I have done nothing wrong. I am terrified of the docs here now. I am so scared.
My family thinks there is a lot of money from the rape. My parents want to hurt me, and they have. They told me my life was forfeit when they forced me to live in such a rural place, so far from everything.
I am screwed aren't I?
