Hi there and congrats on finally posting. Welcome to the forum. You've been without now for 2 days. Try to make it to 3! You CAN do this. You say you feel as if you may not want to quit. In reading what you've posted,there is nothing positive coming from this addiction. We've all been where you are...please stay strong and find the will to stay the sourse. Yes,it ***** and yes it's hard. But I promise you that being straight is so much more worth it rather than using. As for your medical issues..there are non-narcotic alternatives to pain relief. And for the withdrawls,there are things you can use to alleviate them (Immodium,natural supplements,etc.).You can do this. Stay strong..here to help~A
Hi & Welcome,
Are you wanting to stop this time or waiting for your refill? I don't say that to be mean in any way. A lot of members come here and ask how to get through the withdrawal while they wait. I hope for you that this is it, either way we are here to support you and if you are waiting, maybe we can change your mind. Getting away from the shackles of the pills will be the best decision you ever make!
So if you are done, it would be best to first cancel any refills and speak with your doctor. Get honest and let him/her know your intentions. That not only burns a bridge but they may be able to prescribe something that will help ease the physical process.
We can recommend some remedies and supplements. Tell us what your symptoms are and members will make suggestions. Stick around, there is great support here and know that you are not alone. We all know what you are going through and will help you anyway we can.
Hang in there.
Hi and welcome....oh yes I have been where u r...not any fun...but it can be done....awesome that ur taking a look at your life...but its up to u whether u want to quit or not...only u...but there is great support here...and hey why not just try it for a while I mean u tried it that way for three years so just look at as ur gonna try...I mean what's the worse can happen?... U can have more money....just a thought...good luck and best wishes friend..
I agree...The roller coaster is scary and it always crashes at the end...You owe it to your family and most of all YOURSELF to take your life back. It's not going to happen overnight...But you've taken a brave first step by posting here and you are NOT alone. I am 27 days post-opiates and I never knew I could be this happy again. The pills do all kinds of messed up stuff to our bodies and brains as does the addiction that feeds them. You're at home, you can detox there. It's hell for sure-but it's the only real way out and the other side is so much better...I promise. If you've gone 36 hours you only have a few more days to go through the worst. Your life is worth it. You are worth it. After detox (and we can give you all kinds of advice and support how to get through it) then you can think about aftercare...NA/AA, counselling...Any thing you can do to take your life back. You don't want pills to run your life...It's no life at all. Please hang in there and keep posting.....Here for support.....Lu
Hi and Welcome! I too have been in your shoes not so long ago. I hope that you decide to jump of that sinking ship since you are 2 days already. As you know if you continue to use the perks you will only keep taking more and more to get that "high" feeling and Im here to tell you that you will never ever ever get that back. At some point the pills turn on you and when you take them you start feeling worse,,which I think thats where you are now.Its very important that you look into what keeps you on the pills,,like depression maybe? The pills are a depressant,,they screw up all the chemicals in the brain. Your brain stops making these chemicals (nor epinephrine,,dopamine and serotonin) that are required to control your moods. I agree,,you need to be honest with your doctor and maybe he can help with the withdrawal and prescribe some clonidine/or an anti-depressant. Some members opt out of the antidepressant but it honestly saved me. I was at that point where I didnt care if I lived. Its a dark dark place to be. There is light at the end of the tunnel,,the first week coming off the pills that light is not visible at times. Keep in mind that the pills give you a false sense of security. You dont need them. You can do it. Aftercare and NA also helped me tremendously. If you truly want your life back,,you have to jump off that ship and start swimming to safer waters to get on that life boat/life saver. I promise you it will all be worth it in the end. Be patient. One day at a time,,sometimes one minute at a time. In the beginning coming off the pills and the withdrawal is the only thing you can think about. Prepare yourself in advance,,anticipate what you will need,,supplements,,imodium. To ease the mental cravings and anxiety fins something to keep your mind off the pill,,,the cravings and mental anquish is a mind f*ck believe me,,but it will pass in time. I wish you all the best~Bkitty
Thank You all for the support. I am so tore up emotionally right now than even b4 I read your response's I was sheding a tear for no reason now I am just crying. I dont know if I can take it. I live in a small town with a pop of about 3500. I am going crazy i really feel like I am!!!! I dont know what to do I have responsibilities (my kids) I have drunk 2 beers and one minute I want to f ing scream and the next I wonna cry!!!! I know that a few perks wld fix this problem and I hope that I am over it b 4 I have access to them in 4 days!! I need help. I dont wonna have to detox in some jail cell I wld rather do it at home on my own terms cause where I live they will let u lay n die b 4 they belive n e thing u tell them is wrong with u and if it is drug wd they dont even care there are 3 deaths this year from the junkies like me detoxing in our lil county jail. I AM GOING CRAZY!!!!!! I just wonna take a bunch of sleeping meds and f ing konk out so I dont have to feel this way. Thank You all for the respons's and support. Can anyone tell me what to do about my emotions? I am afraid I am gonna bite someones head off for no reason at all? Thank you all God bless
That's bc the drugs keep u numb and they r wearing off so ur emotions are gonna be all out of whack...I was crying over commercials...mad at a fly that was buzzing to the point I thought I would love to shoot it...I mean really shoot a fly??...then I would be so happy that I was making it through the wds and not dying...then cry..then cuss..then laugh...just be patient with urself and know it gets better...ur emotions will level off...but just cry if u feel like...it cleanses the soul...and laugh its a good medicine...and get mad at the pills...keep posting u will surprised how much it helps...
Take a deep breath...Focus on one small moment at a time. You need to cut off all of your contact/supply with any drugs if you want to get clean and stay that way. Also-drinking alcohol is just about the worst thing you can do when detoxing..It will only make it worst-it's a depressant/mood alterer and it will dehydrate you more which is the last thing you want. The emotions are coming because the pills numb us out and prevent us from being present. Your body and brain are giving you a reality check and you need to listen. Stuffing pills in to calm emotional/physical pain only gives the illusion of taking the pain....You're going to have to deal with this eventually or yes-you will end up in a jail cell or worst you will die. Do you have any support...family that can help out while you go through this? NA/AA is going to be very important to you....Detox ***** but you will not die from it. The alternative is not a good one as many will tell you. Please don't self medicate with other addictive substances...And please hang in there. Know that you are not alone and there is light at the end of the tunnel....Lu
Ive been exactly where you are. We all have. You have a lot of thinking to.do. I was on oxy 100 mg a day. I relvolved my world around them. Then my world revolved around them. Counting pills to the next refill....scorring to keep.from being sick....feeling awesome on pick up days. Oxycodone perks whatever you want tk call them.are evil. They change our brains they change us. I know exactly how you feel. You want off until the next score. Yep been there. Nows the time to get down to what you want to do. This is a new year a new start. You got to dig way deep. And just jump. Jump in with both feet. Your already at day three. Whoo hoo. Day three. Take it one day at a time. But ask yourself what do you want to do.
Well I went and done it.....again. Some friends came over and I took 3 xanax and 3 loracet 10 and snorted 2. But something happend this time that never has happened to me before.... I felt guilty. Like I said before I have really never had to completly detox. And I made it to day 3. now I just feel like I cheated myself my body and my family. I feel rotten. I mean I feel good if you know what I mean but I feel rotten to.....Im lost I think the best thing for me to do is to just give what I have left to my woman and have her detox me slowly unlike I was forced to 3 days ago cold turkey. I am crying again and another emotional wreck and I thought I would feel great. Its just not the same when you have decided that it is not for you. I hate feeling guilty and now I gotta start all over. please dont loose faith in me and keep me in your prayers......gilleygoatgruff.
Hon, you have to be ready. You will know when that time is. I just hope you don't lose everything before that happens. Keep coming back and I hope you decide to quit for real. The people here will be there for you when you are. Perhaps you could attend a few NA meetings in the meantime. You don't have to be clean to go..you just have to want to try. Your kids deserve a clean father and you deserve to be clean for yourself.
I am on day 3 myself, and I will not be starting over! Please join me, you are only about 72 hours behind me now. Let's do this together. I'm seriuos, let's do this together.
I'm 44 yrs old and fed up with living by the bottle. I hate going to the dr. Office and I hate going to the drugstore for the pills. I hate that I go places and see people smiling and having a good time and knowing they aren't high and they look happier than I do. I hate that my 2 kids have a dad that is an addict and they don't even know. I hate that I don't even go to see my best friend anymore, he lives 2 houses away. He doesn't even call anymore because he has figured out I won't be leaving my house.
I have been on the narco's for at least 10 years, I only want my pills. I have done them all, percs, oxy, Vicodin, vicoprofin, Demerol and tramadol. I had a stash of tramadol, over 1000 of them just to be sure if I ran out of my percs I wouldnt go into withdrawal. I never ran out of my percs and hydros so I was taking the tramadol with them. Yes, I felt fine for years, I'm now tired of feeling fine, I want to feel, and whatever the feeling may be, happy or sad, I want to feel it for what it is, not masked over with pain pills.
We get 1 life here on earth and I have wasted a great percentage of mine under the illusion that pain pills were making me see things better. I do not want to picture myself a addict one more day, I'm not going to either, I'm done! I planned out Jan. 2 as the first day in my new life. I let all scripts run out and I threw over 600 tramadol away last week.
I feel like crap and I haven't slept. My arms were so jittery I could have knocked out a prize fighter 2 nights ago, last night I could have kicked a record setting field goal with the juice in my legs. I have had all the ugly withdrawal symptoms and I'm loving it!!!! I'm on the way back to being myself, and that's the person my my wife fell in love with and it's the guy all my family and friends like and deserve.