This is more of a statment than a question.. I have had some pretty evil personal messages sent to me lately, I guess because they see my mood is that I have pills and have relapsed again.. There are a few caring people that are my friends that know my situation and are going to be there for me 100%!!! They are all people that I met through this site.. I am getting on an insurance plan that started Jan.1 and I am just waiting on the cards to come in the mail.. I have heard from others around my town that this is a great insurance plan.. So, I am going to research and see if the pain management DR's around my area will aceept my insurance for the visits or the meds or even(GOD WILLING BOTH)..
I have heard alot of people say that suboxone has saved their lives, and that it is great for recovery. I haven't heard alot of people saying how they came off of it and everything was great.. I have heard a couple to be fair.. I am personally going to try the suboxone treatment due to my major abuse and long term abuse of oxycodone 300-400mg per day! and anything else pain pill related! I have went cold turkey so many times I would have to guess a number to count. Im sure it is close to 30-40 times though.. I have had this addiction for many years, and have decided I personally cant fix this overnight, and have came to terms to actually accept long term help..
I do want off pills
I do want a life without narcotics
I do want my life back
I understand that suboxone has strong opiate in it as well, but along with other stuff that helps as well. I have read up ALOT on this, and I am hoping this will be what takes me through the dark tunnel to find the light at the end!!!
Please people that have nothing but evil things to say, keep them to yourself. It is hard enough dealing with this addiction to have to read hatemail! And the people that keep sending me the great and insperational emails.. KEEP THEM COMING! I am going to beat this deamon ******* of pain pills if it is the last thing I do.. Not everyone will agree with me, but I DONT CARE ANYMORE! I need help, and I haven't tried this. Tried a million other things, but NOT THIS! I may use and abuse up until the day I get on it, and that is just the honest truth.. But I tell you what, when I get on it I will do everything I am supposed to 100% I dont care if it takes me 1 week or 1year!!! Thanks to the people that truly support me and are there for me.. I could name names, but you all know who you are.. Sorry so long, but alot of people have been bashing me, and asking alot of questions that really arent their business. Hope this clears things up!
WE CAN DO THIS
WE DESERVE IT!!