Scared, unsure, and can't sleep...

[Tonebug]

So I'm up late. Stressing already about what tomorrow is going to bring. I can't sleep. And I took a 30 mg roxy this afternoon around 2. My last one. I'm done. I'm sick and tired of living this way and as I can see alot of people are. I'm only twenty but ive been forced to go to rehab twice
I've oded a couple of times and I'm finally
Tired of this lifestyle this isn't me and I'm not happy anymore. I wake up everyday wishing it would end and I wouldn't have to worry about this anymore. I've been doing drugs for several years now and it's just a chore now. Or has been for awhile

It's not fun and I really wish I would have never started. But I did And now I have to deal with it. I mainly
Got on here just to vent. But now that Im actually ready to stop it kinda scares me Bc what of I can't.... I said the last two times I had to
Go to rehab I didn't quit Bc I didn't want to and that I kept
On simply Bc I wanted to.. Now I'm not to sure about it and never really. Had to do it all by myself. But I've burned every bridge that I have. My family has given up on me and I've been kicked
Out now just floating and trying to eat. I'm really done but not sure what to expect when I wake up tomorrow morning. Can someone help..??

[trying0705]

Ok, so I decided tomorrow I will start cutting back and begin my tapering schedule that I figured out. I have been at 4 percs a day for a week,  tonight I took 5 and I hate myself for it. But I am stronger than this, especially now I found this place. Ok, tomorrow will be 2 and I will stick to that for a couple days. Will keep updating, and uli found someone I really trust to help me

[Shadowinist717]

Hey tonebug I hope your doing better at leaving the oxys, ea day away from it is so much empowering. Im in the same boat im 19 years old and started abusing oxys for a year and finally decided to taper march 12 and then went cold turkey on the 16th thursday, today is my second day and im feeling gradually better.. Its crazy how fast withdrawals  are easily leaving my body and not bothering me much. I look back at what ive been eating these past couple days and I believe this is what is getting me through withdrawals easy and fast I hope this helps yu if your able to try it : when waking up I take multiple vitamins but first make sure u have food in your stomache so that vitamins are easy to hold in. ok heres the vits: potassium  99mg, magnesium, potassium gluconate, vitamin b12, b6, and a fruit juice eaither Acai berry juice, acai coconut water juice, and also a bottle of gatoraid mixed with a 5 hour energy drink. sip the 5 hour poweraid drink thru out the day to replace energy and electrolytes lost in hot steam showers and bath soaks. Eat any fruits and veggies u hav available trust me Vitamins and HEALTHY foods help speed up recovery quick. As for sleep take a xanax, melatonin, or nyquil, nyquils best imo. Todays my second night without opiates and im feeling right now like withdrawal symptoms are gone. All I feel is sleepy, groggy, fatigue, probly from the soaks. Sorry this is so long but I hope this helps u out to kick withdrawals quick. Antioxidants are amazing (acai berry juices) keep me posted I wanna help u and u can help me, we can help ea other :) im prayin for u :)

[gnarly_1]

HI  just keep posting there are lots of people to help you here we do home detoxes every day there are a lot of members here like my self that have been here for years we dont judge and it makes my day when I can help prevent someone from doing like me ........riding the train for 16 1/2 yrs ........If I can just stop one its worth it to me trust me you dont want to do wqith your life what I have done with mine but im here to tell you there is a new beautiful life waiting on the other side for you and you got your whole life in front of you.....Gnarly

[Tonebug]

Thanks I really appreciate it. And I intend on staying around and I'd love for y'all to walk me through it. Yea I've said before I didn't want it in the past I jut kept looking for ways to get messed up. Looking for my next high and chasing it. It's been like tht for years now. And i can honestly say I've hit bottom. But never had to detox
By myself. I did it in treatment twice but had stuff to help me along and I was never this bad either so Im not too sure. Yea I've been reading for hours actually at everyone's post and decided to go ahead and sign up I'm too young for this **** and ready to get my life on track I can't afford this lifestyle and it's taking a tole on my daily life. Where I don't even wanna get outta bed and when I do I'm angry at the world when really I should just be mad t myself. I did this and now I have to make it out. Thanks so much babe I do appreciate everything you have to offer..

[gnarly_1]

HI welcome to the forum your not alone alot of us have been where you are and sone what your about to do......I can tell you this if you want it we can walk you threw what its going to take to get you there the key here is I herd you say you want it this time there is no point of drying somebody out if they dont want it it will only work if you do it sounds like you have detoxed b/4 if not just read up on a few of the posts you will get the idea look to the lower right for the thomas recipe pick up the stuff suggested also a case of gatoraid hot soaks will get rid of mosdt of the withdrawal symptoms the main thing you want to bring is a positive attitude it will get you farther then any other thing and I tell everybody just starting out......''you just got to be ok without being ok for a wile''
you will get threw this ......keep posting for support we all want to see you make it good luck and God bless.........Gnarly