Scared of losing my kids

[confused456]

Hi. I was told that I should post this, so here goes. I am married and my husband and I both take Lortab. We each have a prescription for 180 each per month (6 a day each). The Lortab are 10/500 and we have been on them for a long time. Several years in fact. We both want to quit, can't talk to family about it, and do not want to involve any programs because we have 3 children. We do not take more than we are prescribed, but I know there is an addiction. Our children are 14, 13, and 8. We are 31 and 33. My biggest fear is for my children. I can not lose them. I have been a Mom since age 17 and my husband had been a "Deda" as they call him, since he was 18. Any thoughts or advice for me?

[confused456]

thanks.....I'm just more confused now than I was.......

[sickcookie]

Glad your still here,I think we should have mentioned if possible clear your schedule,serve frozen food or something the kids can cook.I could not even take stress of the phone,I just hid out.Your husband can tell the world you have the flu .If you can avoid any stress it helps thru the first week.Not everyone has this luxury but if possible try.Also do you know about thomas recipe you will need provisions.I took alot of advil and advil pms at night.Herbal tea is soothing Take lots of hot baths when you stress or ache.I also used as excuse to eat icecream and do not forget imodium another charming symptom for some and lets not forget the sneezing.Hang in

[keepitsimplestupid]

Tapering never worked for me.  My life revolved around when it was time for me to take the next pill or if I happened to take one sooner than I was supposed to it revolved around when I would not take another so I could make up for taking the one I wasn't supposed to take.
I would just stop if I were you.  A week from now when you're posting about your taper schedule an dhow hard it is to not take that one extra you could be posting about how it feels to have 5 days clean.  
It will be like a bad flu.  I chose the suboxone route.  I am doing a 10 day detox.  I have a job I cannot miss out on and a 2 year old I cannot miss out on with virtually no help from anyone, including my husband, so Sub was the only route for me.
Getting clean is not going to be your issue an it's not going to be your husband's issue, it's what you do AFTER you get clean that's going to be the real struggle.  How are you planning on not going back to the pills especially when they are so readily available for both of you?
I agree with a lot of what you said but the main thing I agree with is that you have to concentrate on you.  He is a grown man and can and will do what he wants to.  Your only responsibility is to yourself AND your kids.  Hopefully even if you quit before him and stay clean the power of example will work its magic.
Good luck.
PS, I wouldn't tell the kids but I would watch them closely for signs of any addiction as they get older since there is a huge genetic disposition as you well know.
  

[avisg]

Plz dont try  to speed up your taper , I have seen people try this many times they cut back to fast then they end up backsliding ....If you have a taper plan stick to it ..... good luck

[confused456]

OK....so I was walking out the front door and I promised myself that I was NOT going to take a pill until I got back home. So all was fine, until I freakin' ran out of gas. I live in Michigan and it is 9 degrees outside and with wind chill...its -4.......so I sat in my car being angry and trying to convince myself that I didn't need a pill. After 20 minutes, my phone rang and it was my Mom wondering if I was coming. I told her that I called her but couldn't get through her phone and was stranded. She said she was on her way. Then I felt better because I knew I wasn't going to have to walk......she showed up AND had no gas with her. She actually drove to me to tell me that she was going to get gas (which by the way, she had passed 3 stations on her way to me)........GRRRRRR......I was mad again!!! So, I stayed in my car waiting while she went to the gas station, and talked to myself some more about y I did not need a pill. She came back, I helped her as needed, and then was on my way back home. Now my legs and arms feel funky....tingly, annoying, kinda numb-like, jittery, and are driving me crazy, so I crank up my stereo (thankfully I have a kickin' stereo in my car) and jam to the tunes! So, who has faith that I did not take a pill? Well.............I did NOT take a pill, and once I got home, I decided to take a shower instead of taking one just yet to push myself that tiny bit farther. I still have not taken one, but am just about to. I am happy that I made it through the crappy trip to town and back. Once I do take it, it will be my 2nd one today........thanks for the replies!

[confused456]

Sorry, I sent that way to soon! With no explanation of what happened while I was gone and all that. I will tell you what happened, but 1st:
IBKLEEN.....I wanted to do the schedule, but yet I just want to see if I can do it faster. I guess I am hard headed and once I set my mind to something!!! You know! I wanted to know if I can live without so many per day. I greatly appreciate the schedule and if this does not work, I am trying that next! Thank you!!!! Greatly appreciate it!