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For anyone who has or is in the process of going cold turkey for opiate withdrawal, can you please help me try and understand how you had to willpower and courage to do it?? I tried it, made it through half the day and felt like I was dying and caved into these terrible pills. I read ways to help with withdrawals, but I just cant do it, am I that much of a baby about this all. I really want to quit my habit but just cant seem to do it cold turkey. And has anyone out there had experience trying Suboxone?? I was thinking of going that route but I have no insurance and have been finding out by various doctors that it is extremely expensive.
You CAN do this! I quit 45 days ago and it was hell...but really only for the first 4-5 days. And then you feel crappy for another week....and then it's all uphill. Once you start re-living your "real " life, the energy and happiness that comes back is even better than that first time you popped a pill. Just remember that. I stayed in bed for Days 2-3, watched a lot of movies, went through such depression it drove me crazy, and drank a LOT of water. Hot baths and showers helped. After Day 3, I walked a lot and just talked my husband's ear off about how bad I felt. You'll go through some rough days but in hindsight, they go by and are gone. It's worth it. Start today. I flushed $1000 worth of pills down the toilet the day I decided to quit--it was my emotional catalyst.
Luv, I know this just sounds like words, but this is my heart speaking. THERE IS NOTHING STUPID ABOUT U! Cold Turkey is no joke, I think that the majority of people who are not addicted can never understand what real pain is unless they have gone through it....What helped me get through it,(I was up to 120mg Oxycodone a day was a simple herb, it,s actually a leaf and I was as skeptical as they come but suffering so much I would have tried anything, it's called KRATOM (`MITRAGYNA SPECIOSA LEAF)...U CAN BY IT IN ANY HEAD SHOP OR ONLINE...WHEN USED IN DETOX IT IS NOT HABIT FORMING A COMPLETELY LEGAL ORGANIC HERB...WHAT i USED WAS (AND IT,S A STUPID NAME) BUT IT'S CALLED "DA PIMP BOMB KRATOM 15x and I can not stress enough how much relief they will give u....all my hopes and prayers are with you, you will beat this...Your faithful friend Azrael
Have been reading your thread and pulling/praying for you.
Today is my 20th day of being clean. You CAN do this. Kyle and others on here giving you great counsel.
Today is my 20th day of being clean. You CAN do this. Kyle and others on here giving you great counsel.
I am doing ok. So far since friday, I started my tapering off these pills as I am just to afraid of cold turkey. So far I am doing a little better but I just hope I can stick to the plan and goal I have. Wish me luck!
Yeah this is a wonderful community! As far as giving advice as addicts we are great advice givers (we know it all )its taking it that's the problem
I am tapering off for me its working today ,I went C/T last year for seven weeks i had a lot of depression and my mind was my enemy it told me to take a pill and you will feel better and i did but i had a rough time going C/T but i know now more about the addiction so i know what to expect so i dont panic with all the stuff that happens good luck
Hands down there is nothing worse than going through withdrawals as everyone in here will attest to. Funny thing is despite that our addict minds forget and continally go back again and again and go through it more times than we would like to remember. At a point in the recent past I had gone to get help, counseling, meetings, etc and the doctors wanted to put me on suboxone to help with the process and help with pain management. I had gotten through the worst of my withdrawals and after more and more research I opted not to go on Suboxone as I just did not want to be on another substance. I have continued therapy and meetings and gave in to a higher power and taking it one day at a time. I'm clean, sober and I feel good. Very far from over I know that, but I'm doing it my way and getting the help and support I need. Keep it up, keep posting and as you can see there are just so many people here that got your back.
I vote for BRAVENEWGIRL . Your posts sound like your on your own side now . That's important take pride in your fight , hate the drug , not your self . You have showed us all your ready to get yourself back . KEEP POSTING . We care ...Ron
This is a great place. Before I detoxed, I used to think that these "cyber help" forums were silly. Really - people sitting at computers/phones/pads, miles apart, SUPPORTING each other? I don't think so.
Then, during day 2 of my time in detox hell, I found this site. Next Wednesday that will be 9 months ago. And, although I had to take a break once to look at my approach to giving advice, I've been here ever since.
Stick around - it's worth it. And continue your journey.
Then, during day 2 of my time in detox hell, I found this site. Next Wednesday that will be 9 months ago. And, although I had to take a break once to look at my approach to giving advice, I've been here ever since.
Stick around - it's worth it. And continue your journey.
Yeah I totally agree chasing that high is a lot harder than living clean..... I have been following you for a little over 3 weeks and I just want to say thanks your words have giving me courage to continue on my path....so thanks ..
Kyle505 has been spot on with every one of his answers to you "Smart Girl" Please listen to him closely. I've abused opiates for over 15 years. I thought suboxone would be the answer for me, because I was so fearful of the w/d's. I thought I could use sub's for 2 weeks to get through the worst and then quit them. Guess what? I'm a freakin' addict and fell in love with the subs.....7 months later I'wake up completely addicted to the "miracle drug"...I've now been 10 days without anything (which for me is no small feat) But the w/d's from suboxone were just another miserable hell. I'm no doctor, but I don't recommend replacing one addiction with another. As Kyle stated, one day you will wake up and it will be time to stop. If you set up a good support group, commit yourself to some N/A groups and get a sponsor, you will make it through it. Yeah it'll suck, but you're a warrior girl! Think of of the fighting you've been doing to gather pills every day. If you're strong enough live an addict's life than you have DO have the strength to recover! Best of luck and recovery!
Thanks. And, in my opinion, willpower has little to do with getting clean because most addicts have been drained of willpower. State of mind, attitude and self respect all get to a point where you've had enough - or at least that's what happened to me. My state of mind was - get pills. My attitude was - everything will be wonderful once I take my pills. And my self respect was in the toilet, pills or no pills.
Something will change - you may not be able to put your finger on it, and it may have already happened, but you will finally decide that it's time to stop. I posted that one morning I couldn't look at myself in the mirror when I was shaving. Sounds dramatic but it's true. That was the moment. You'll have yours. And, as I've said before, life after meds is wonderful. The high from daily living is sooo much better than anything I'd ever experienced on pills. Even my worst day clean was better than my best day using.
Something will change - you may not be able to put your finger on it, and it may have already happened, but you will finally decide that it's time to stop. I posted that one morning I couldn't look at myself in the mirror when I was shaving. Sounds dramatic but it's true. That was the moment. You'll have yours. And, as I've said before, life after meds is wonderful. The high from daily living is sooo much better than anything I'd ever experienced on pills. Even my worst day clean was better than my best day using.
Like the name!! Thanks for the suggestion!! You know the weird thing is that in the past i've been told by doctors and such that it is not about willpower its a "medical condition" but the more help I get from all of you it seems like it has ALOT to do with willpower, state of mind, attitute, and overall self respect. I always felt helpless, for soooo long, just helpless and i am really starting to believe there can be a light at the end of this deep dark tunnel:-)
Thank you for your suggestions. I am very thankful I found this site, I cant believe how much it has been helping me. I hope I can do this, I was suprised to hear from you that the fear of wd is worse than the actual wd. But it really does make sense when you think of it. I have talked to a dr and he said opiate wd for the most part is not dangerous, uncomfortable as hell but not life threatning, his words exactly. So with that in mind I guess it sounds like I am only gonna feel like i'm gonna die!!!:-) I guess maybe this is an excuse but i'm really trying to figure out a way to get off of work for a few days I just don't see how im gonna work when these intense wds hit. So hopefully I can work something out, thanks again, your input helped greatly.
Ok sooo could you help me change my name I got two new suggestions and I like them both. I think its a good idea to change my name, it sounds like this battle is alot about self healing and self respect and DEFINETELY ATTITUDE, so with that said the suggestions were YOUGOGIRL or BRAVENEWGIRL, I like them both and don't know which one to pick, so it sounds silly but will you pick which one you think i should take. I think I need to change it for many reasons including the start of changing my life. I dont want to be stupidgirl anymore:-(
I been reading all these posts on here for over 3 weeks while I taper off hydros all have been very encouraging..I have not posted anything until now I wanted to say that first off I give a crap and u are most certainly not alone .I have been through this many times but his is my first time having so much conviction one of the earlier posts said u have to find what makes u happy for me it was loving me that made me happy .I won't lie tapering is not easy but it's a lot easier to handle than ct .when you do a taper you have to let go of your want to get high and stick with it it's all about getting your life back.remember everytime you go through this it gets harder and harder..sending you a giant hug!
OK...I did get bit by a cat. It became infected, really hurt, so I got pain meds. A few months later I used a small nail to make the same bite mark, went to the ER - told them I was very concerned because of what happened prior.
They didn't even question me - antibiotics and vics.
Oh the mind of an addict.
They didn't even question me - antibiotics and vics.
Oh the mind of an addict.
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