Ahhh it ***** to be here again. I have been battling addiction for what seems like forever but it's been close to 2 years since my decision to quit and I had been using for a good 5 by then.
I was a victim 2 years ago. I was angry, buried in grief from losing my husband and sister and had driven all of my family and friends away.
Today I am still battling my addiction and while I haven't let my friends back in, I am working on my family.
I have spent a year with the help of my doctor trying to find non narcotic pain relief for my fibromyalgia. Lyrica, gabapentin, some names I can't remember but it involved going off my AD's, tapering off Lyrica and then adding new pills. All the while, feeling so sick from the withdrawal from each and every new med that I tried. Well nothing worked and I finally went to a pain management clinic. They recommended tridural along with nabolone.
That seemed to be working okay and even though I didn't get high off of it, I found out that tridural was tramadol.
I did a quick taper from it and used Tylenol 3's since I didn't want to suffer too much. I was recently diagnosed with an abscessed tooth, sinus infection and bladder infection. I was so sick and he also prescribed T3's. I was happy to take them to continue my taper and get through Christmas (which was awesome).
So of course, I took more than I should have and tapered down and took my last pill on Saturday.
Now I am sick, sad and very shaky. I am back on Effexor (which was hell to taper off of), and pregabalin and fighting hard not to take too much pregabalin to ease the withdrawals. Luckily I have been sleeping quite a bit but I'm awake now and feeling like hell.
It just seems like I have been through a year of fighting not to go through this hell and here I end up again.